Goggins is a good exercise partner!
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Yea that is one of the reasons I got thus set lol seem to be good quality so far too.
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@Hopeful777 glad to see u back!
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Again, another ānot too badā relapse. But less time inbetween, and I know it is a ticking time bomb.
Why ānot too badā is still bad enough
Your body does not like alcohol. U do not get a ānice buzzā, u go straight from feeling nothing, to unable to function.
What if someone comes to the house when u are drunk, like other mums or the in-laws,
how embarrassing. U live in Japan, what if there is an earthquake, ffs?
U throw up terribly. U canāt even hold down water.
For days after u feel down, anxious, and u binge eat.
Ur son gets anxious and unstable. My kids should not have to worry about me.
U lose any leg to stand on with ur husband. He will take ur purse again so u canāt meet friends.
U canāt do anything productive, like work, running, doing extra with the kids. U are on pure survival mode for a few days after. U are not living, just existing.
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Take care Charlie. We are always hereā¦ come back soon! 
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So I was going to go to bed early so that I could fix my sleep schedule, but my cat was starting to be very vocal and she was squatting on some tile and there was blood, etc., so while I was going to take her to the vet on Monday, and Iād even thought I might do a walk in tomorrow, but I became nervous that something serious was going on, so Iāve been sitting outside the emergency vet office for the past two and a half hours. They now have my cat and theyāre going to run a full blood panel and a urinalysis. It could just be a UTI, but because sheās 18, Iām worried it might be something worse.
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Iām praying for you and your cat @Chiron. Iāve been in your position with my dog and itās tough. Itās just like taking a child to the hospital when theyāre sick. Pets are family members and we hurt when theyāre hurting. 
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So sorry for the relapse, I really feel for you. Sending you sober strength and positivity. Youāll be in my prayers. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Thank you so much. Iāve had her for sixteen years and Iām just not ready for her to leave my life. I didnāt take it well when my other cat passed, but I know Iāll have to have more self control this time. Youāre so very right. It is difficult and Iām sorry that you have experienced that too.
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Get better little kitty.
Sending good thoughts for a safe and speedy recovery.
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306 Days. I had a nice chat with my sister in law about giving my daughter wine at the party Sunday. It went better than expected. I calmly approached the subject without attacking her. (Something I would have never done in the past.) Turns out it was a misunderstanding. Last year I had given her the ok and she assumed I felt the same this year. She hasnāt been around much since I became sober and didnāt know my viewpoint has completely changed. Sheās also not aware of the battle weāve had with her brotherās (my husband) drinking. She was very apologetic and Iām happy with the results. This could have turned into a horrible family feud.
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This gets me thinking that itās easy to get caught up in this idea of self reliance that runs through all the self help stuff, that we need to look within to find our happiness and all that. Which is true, but only to a point. Classic all or nothing thinking blinds us to the nuance there, to the human need for connection and support. The value in being part of something bigger that we both give to and receive from.
I havenāt said this for a while - this forum has taught me that reaching out and asking for help is one of the strongest things a person can do.
But before we can ask for help we have to believe we need it. And itās not just you, that really sucks. Especially when we have spent so long building up a veneer of confidence through substances. Even though deep down we know itās all recklessness or bravado, bringing that up to the surface and confronting it is really uncomfortable. Maybe because it makes us aware of just how much work there is to do?
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Best to get it checked out, keep us posted
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So my cat had a urinalysis and blood work, and she has a UTI. Other than that sheās very healthy on the blood work side. They gave her some subcutaneous fluids and an antibiotic shot, and recommended that she have some x-rays and a thyroid panel through her regular vet since I have an appointment on Monday.
I got her home and she seems like she feels better but also her behavior still doesnāt seem right. Iām just glad she seems to be hanging in there alright.
@AyBee Thank you for the thoughts. I appreciate them.
@Lisa07 thatās great that you had a conversation with your sister in law and that you were able to approach it in a better way than you would have in the past and that it all worked out. Youāre doing so awesome.
@siand definitely need to look into it more.
@Misokatsu this is just another stepping stone. Hang in there.
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Day 35 and what a roller coaster it has been. My emotions are all over the place. I feel like I am losing my mind at times but I try to remember that this is probably the most sane I have ever been.
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Day 625. Had an unexpected health incident that fell into my lap to handle today that really threw me, but was able to keep my cool and track down the right help for the person and things are all good now. So glad to be sober for that. And to not need to reach for a drink to decompress afterwards.
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Day 674
Thankful.
Thankful that we may pick up our son from the hospital today 
Thankful for the emotional support from my family and friends.
Thankful for the support Iāve got here on TS.
Thankful that Iām still sober.
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Thanks for the support and being welcoming I appreciate it. Love to talk some more soon
Day 196! Feeling okay. Happy to still be sober after all tis time and all my bad moods and cravings. Glad to be in recovery
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