Congratulations on 30 days @Chiron That’s a wonderful milestone.
Love your numbers.
The 01 second shows you have just started your next 30 
2 Likes
Truly sad news. Such a young soul! Sorry for your loss.
1 Like
@Jonachav123 My condolences. This is a place to share all things, so don’t hesitate.
Day 6.
I finally handed in the last of my grades (late!). And my first sneaky thought, I should drink to celebrate/I can drink now, I have no responsibilties. Gave myself a mental smack upside the head. I will not celebrate by upsetting my children and making myself physically ill. I have plenty of non-work responsibilities, such as helping kids with homework, cleaning my floors and making some old bananas into something edible. Don’t be a twat.
14 Likes
Day 23 check in (longest streak in 18 years). Things are looking up. Wifey and I are getting along amazingly well these days and sobriety is starting to seem very worthwhile.
13 Likes
Day 67, checking in on sobriety.
15 Likes
Don’t apologise. You definitely don’t bug anyone… Youre doing the right thing checking in and venting man. Don’t isolate, stay with us and and be there for your wife.much love man sending prayers
4 Likes
Day 66 clean and sober today and feeling in the middle lol not happy nor sad but just neutral at the moment. This is weird lmao. Have a great day everyone!!! 
11 Likes
Day 196… Gosh it was a great weekend… This morning I did tho, I banged into work…I have not called In, in so long and my boss was still crabby about it. But oh well, I put the ressentment aside with my buddy and today’s his birthday so I made sure he got his birthday txt. I definitely miss the dude still. Got my tax return check finally, which is huge news bc now I can pay my fines for my license… Not sure what I need to do from there tho will see… Have a good day
12 Likes
Day 541
I saw a group of friends this weekend that I hadn’t seen since March which was much needed and good for a number of reasons.
It was great to have some connection again having been so isolated recently. It was also a good opportunity to flex my sober muscles as I was sat around drinkers and smokers. I haven’t done this for some time so it felt good to not be bothered by it and see the strength of my sobriety.
One of my friends stayed at mine on the Saturday and we talked all evening, hours and hours. It felt good to confide in someone who I trust and I felt confident to discuss things that I have essentially kept bottled up for 6 months. I’m beginning to see how much my inability to open up to people holds back my progress. He was really good at pointing out certain things I said, how critical I am of myself when I don’t even realise it.
One thing really stood out and has been on my mind since. I was talking about all the positive things that have changed in my life over the past 2 years and he was saying how proud I should be. I’ve gotten sober, lost a ton of weight, got a decent job, but I don’t feel proud. I still feel shame for letting it get so bad and endlessly put myself down. I’m never going to get anywhere if I keep doing this. So this has to be my priority moving forward. I need to let go of this negative energy. Somehow.
I think a combo of journaling and therapy is a good start. Its no wonder I feel so confused and stressed all the time having all these thoughts and emotions swimming around my head without trying to process and understand them.
Have a great day all
10 Likes
lucky number 7…
11 Likes
@anon60334405 @Jdiaz @Dan531 @Mno @Fargesia_murielae @marcusmaximus2000
Thank you all. This means a lot to me.
I feel like I express my feelings in a different day than the rest of the family.
More of an inside battle going on. Not so much crying.
I am glad to be sober.
Not to speak ill of anyone but my brother in law showed up at the hospital last night hungover. Badly hungover. Shocked all of us that he went drinking last night…
Anyway. I need my TS family. Really bad. Thank you!
11 Likes
I’m not condoning it but some people just handle sadness differently than others. He’s broken inside over his loss I’m sure.
Healing thoughts to you all. FIL is resting in peace now.
4 Likes
Day 10 and filled with gratitude
11 Likes
I’m so sorry for your loss 
1 Like
I can so relate. I call this my ‘squirrel mode’. I’ve been in it too much lately, and it’s stopping my progress and increasing my anxiety.
I guess I have to try and force myself to journal, even if it’s just a few words. When I stop, I know I’m going off track.
Thanks for putting this back on my agenda and so glad jthat you had a good weekend 
2 Likes
Thank you 
Yeah, it’s too easy to let it get out of control. I’ve never been one for diaries and journals, but I think it’ll be really beneficial. I need to find some order and understanding, and my brain needs some serious spring cleaning. I carry around too much rubbish.
I hope writing again helps you make sense of things
@Jonachav123 so sorry for your loss
@Rockstar24777 - i know what you mean about feeling in the middle! It is a weird feeling! In the early days I used to wake up super excited to count another sober day, now days go by and it’s really a part of my everyday life so i feel less jazzed about it everyday. However, when i take a moment to stop and think of how far I’ve truly come on this sobriety journey, I am still in awe about it. So that gives me a little boost when
I take a moment each day to recognize it.
@Hailstrom you should be very proud! Everything you were talking about with your friend ahout the positive in sobriety is true! Take some time to recognize it because you deserve it. Emotions can be quite the rollercoaster but checking in TS and sharing is a great way to keep yourself on track!
@Jdiaz - great job on 23 days! I’m glad you and your wife are doing so well and that sobriety is impacting your relationship in a positive way. My boyfriend of 5 years has been a heavy drinker in the last (full time musician) but since I got sober he cut back a lot and since Feb he actually hasn’t had a single drink and it’s done wonders for our relationship. Glad to hear yours is benefiting too!
@C_8 - ah squirrel mode. Gotta love it. I have days like this where I am just spiraling for no reason in particular. C_8 - I use journalling too as a way to stay on track and ground myself
@SoberGuyUSA @marcusmaximus2000 @Mephistopheles - so great to see those #s!! Very motivating!!
I’m checking in on day 686. Cannot believe it. Sobriety has become such a part of my normal day to day, I sometimes forget how far I’ve come especially when I’m not feeling well - I haven’t been eating right, my sleep has beenal over the place, and it’s really taking a toll on me emotionally. This month is my short summer break before my final year acupuncture school and instead of feeling rested, I’m feeling tired, moody, and out of sorts. So, I know I have to do a 180 with some habits but it’s hard. Then I laugh at myself because here I am 686 days sober which is an incredible feat and not an easy thing to do yet I can’t for the life of me hang on to a steady sleep schedule or consistently eat better. I look at how long it took me to want to really get sober enough to make a long lasting change and i guess I’m just not there yet with other things? I don’t know! But I’m grateful to be sober and healthy so that’s a good start.
14 Likes
Day 3 check-in. Ready to have a great/productive/sober week!
12 Likes