Day 54.
Another good hike with another dear old pal on a perfectly beautiful day. Hard not to feel grateful today. The little electricians in my mind must be working overtime on the renovation project - I had way fewer thoughts of a post-hike beverage, other than my new double espresso and side of seltzer ritual - yum.
@Fargesia_murielae I think Taz (your mind) knows Milicent. She’s my inner critic. She wears her hair in a too-tight bun, has no sense of haha, and man can she be harsh. They can go float themselves together, as far as I’m concerned…
@Thirdmonkey Despite everything going on, I hope you are proud of how you are dealing with it all soberly. I hope your sobriety amazes you in quietly profound ways, if that makes sense…
@anon60334405 aw I hope the 3yr old bday party was amazing! I could go on about what it’s like to have had an amazing dad, and I’m guessing your girls are gonna be able to the same when they’re grown
This is my 4th sober Saturday. I am a couple days away from 30 days sober so I’m pretty stoked about that.
I used to spend most weekends falling asleep on the couch with a beer in my hand. I must have looked like such a jackass .
Anyhow…noticing some changes after almost a month. Darkness under my eyes is gone. My skin is smoothing out. My stomach isn’t hurting every day. My energy level seems to have dropped though and I didn’t expect that. I was a functioning athletic drinker so I’m hoping my energy level returns so I can start riding my bike more.
Grateful to be sober. Getting closer and closer to 700 days and I’m just grateful. It’s really hitting me today for some reason. I’ve gone several months with sobriety just incorporated into my everyday life but today I’m overwhelmed by the gravity of my sobriety and what it truly means.
I can relate. Things just keep getting better. Clear head in the morning. Every morning. No hangovers. No more feeling like a jack ass too Congratulations on your almost month.
Day 12
So, the kids go back to school from tomorrow, and my work doesn’t start until mid-September. I am not feeling super confident in my sobriety. I’m feeling scared, the last relapse was me thinking, oh, this is not too bad, this is still acceptable, until it wasn’t, and I was doing things that I thought I would never do again (the relapsing was after a 4 month sober period). I have an online meeting that I join sometimes, that I plan to hit everyday. I have booked Japanese classes for almost everyday. I have a list of things I need to do. But feeling nervous that I don’t eff-up again.
It has…at nearly 900 days, I am sill finding what sobriety has brought to the table. I am profoundly happy and at peace with this woman in my life…while at the same time scared and pensive about the next weeks and months will bring. Since getting sober there has been good days and bad days. However, nothing near this magnitude. Instead of fighting the urge to find a bottle, i am seeing the rewards of sobriety.
I have seen the AA promises in action, and will be forever greatful.
Covering third shift tonight. Going to meet the star of my universe for coffee when i get out. Made an appointment to get the beard trimmed down on tuesday. She prefers it shorter, I just cant resist that smile. She knows its my sobriety superstition, as it will be the first major trimming in what will be 885 days. In no way is she forcing me to do this. She has enough on her plate, and if doing this makes her glow just a little more then it will be worth it.
Hi. Could you please tell me how you did this screen shot of your progress page and posted it here ?
I tried to do it yesterday, but I’m clearly doing something wrong.
Thanks
Coffee. Cool and showery outside but it’s supposed to get dry in the afternoon so I might go for a bicycle ride later. I’m thinking about more home improvements. Painting. Hardwaxing my floor. A plan is forming in my head. Will start executing tomorrow. Sober and clean.
On another note, yesterday I was back to my grumpy and inward looking me. As I know myself. That actually came as a bit of relief. I felt so upbeat, happy, extravert and talkative on Friday I scared myself. Really. Thinking how much do these pills (sertraline) influence who I am as a person? Isn’t it just another mood changing substance like all the other stuff I (ab)used in the past? I’m looking for a new balance I suppose. One day at a time. Clean and sober. Have a good day all. Love from Amsterdam.
@Misokatsu What helped me most in not f-ing up is realising it is ME at the wheel. A crave comes from myself. And I will handle it myself. By using the tools I have. Like coming here for one. A crave is never a demand that has to be followed. We can always resist and not give in. Don’t be scared of yourself Flo. Have trust in yourself. You got this. And we got you if needed. Hugs. @MrsOdh Success with getting the cabinet out today Sophia. @Just_Laura Restarting your step work sounds like an excellent idea to me. Back to basics is always a good plan.
Checking in on day 13.
Moody, emotional, frustrated and in a negative thought spin. A part of me is throwing an inner hissy fit, screaming my head off So glad tho I’m not alone but visiting good friends for a few days. Such good friends they will call out my bs if necessary
Hello, i’m new here. Today is my 18 day of sobriety. I’m going to a birthday party today. I’m not feeling comfortable telling people that i quit drinking. I think i’ll just say that i have stomach troubles, which i really do, but it didn’t stop me before to quit drinking. How are you dealing with that? Enjoy your day!
Welcome here and congrats on your sober days Vera! Right now the most important thing (as always really) is to keep your sobriety intact. By whatever means really. If you feel uncomfortable about telling I’d say it’s fine. Not their business, only yours. You can say you just don’t feel like drinking. Or whatever. This is your journey. Your sobriety. Your life. If you never drink again it will become apparent anyway in due time. Success!
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Congratulations on your almost month.
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So glad tho I’m not alone but visiting good friends for a few days. Such good friends they will call out my bs if necessary 
on day 30.have a blessed and sober Sunday 
