It is awesome, and I love Hot Pink. I’m equally in love with the English country androgynous Ralph Lauren 80s fashion and the Preppy bright and navy paired with Lilly Pulitzer style fashion with a splash of 80-90s colorful Marc Jacobs.
(Lilly Pulitzer dresses in picture one, Ralph Lauren picture 2)
It’s a balance act 
Early check in. Day 3 is 7 hours away from finish.
Made it through the first 24 hours. Now on to day 2. I feel terrible physically but mentally sort of strong. This is the first time I’ve quit because I wanted to not because I couldn’t get anymore pills. I could if I wanted to but this relapse was different, a different voice this time that wishes I could get even 10 days of sobriety back because I knew this misery was waiting for me. I’m hot I’m cold I’m sick I have a headache and slept like total shit. I know these feelings will pass. I’m going to really take it all in so I don’t forget this part. I couldn’t catch up on all the wonderful posts but I did read a lot. I feel like I’ve missed this forum for the first time, i miss sobriety for the first time in 18 years. I have lived in active addiction for half of my life, literally. Have a wonderful sober day everyone 
Preach it bro! 
That’s so awesome and true thank you for sharing!!!
Day 82 clean and sober today. Thank you everyone for helping me pull through some darkness again yesterday. I really appreciate everyone’s love and support. Have an amazing day today!!! 
Hi @Joby yes it’s absolutely normal to cry a lot when first sober, it’s ok. We numbed everything we felt good and bad and now that we’re sober we’re beginning to feel everything again at once. I cried a lot during my first month so I believe you’re right I’m track. Welcome back to life you’re doing great!!!
38 Days. Slept like a champ. It seems the sober days are starting to pass rather quickly. This is beginning to feel like my new normal and I’m good with that.
How you coping today?
Always a good place to start. Well done and wishing you well on another 24 
I don’t, it’s keeping me sober 
, hope you’re well.
Love your determination and spirit to push forward!!!
Thank you 
Awe Jena. I’m sorry your getting these feelings they are never fun. But you been doing a lot lately with living in Finland and now moving back to Sweden and settling back in. These sound like normal feelings. When I get down like that or start feeling depressed I just got to GET OUT!! Seriously, just get out of the house and go for a walk. Fast power walk is what I like with music in my ears. Or maybe a slow walk looking around being grateful at where you live and how far you come. And I like a good guided meditation. Lots of tools out there that you know you can use.
And sometimes I just sit and continue to be a bum and eat or whatever and know I feel this way today and that’s OK. I’m going to start doing what I know is right tomorrow.
And getting that cry going with some sad music is also a great release.
Day 5
I’m almost at Day 6!! Can’t believe it. I’m feeling super antsy and anxious today tho. Just going to keep my mind busy and my hands busy. Was supposed to get about $1800 today but that didn’t go through as planned… and maybe it not coming to me is a sign that today wasn’t a good day to receive it. Idk. Woke up early and got a few things done. Now to vacuum and lay off the coffee lmao Probably isn’t helping my nerves any. Have a great day everyone!
