AA is not religious, it’s spiritual. When they refer to a higher power, it can be anything that you feel is greater than yourself. It could simply be the people in the room or even nature. It does not have to be god. You need to try different meetings until you find one you like. You asked about step 1 so I assumed you were doing AA. My apologies.
Here’s a link for other resources:
Resources for our recovery
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