You are doing great. You are exactly where you are supposed to be.
All these new feeling, emotions and experiences that we face sober are just that…new!
You said yourself,
You did what you had to do to get through and learnt from it.
Remember, there is no destination, it’s all about the journey.
Proud of you.
It certainly is a great learning experience.
I think we all go through the same realisations all be it at different times and in different orders.
I know that the first few months of my journey was all about learning. Not just reading around trying to find out as much as I could but also listening to my body, my mind.
Discovering that I could actually function on a day to day basis without having that first drink on the way to work was definitely the first one.
Keep going bud.
No booze 89 days and last night first one for a long time no pills! I’d weaned down but wondered if I’d get any sleep with no sedatives on board. And it was ok (the kids were sleep terrorists but no physical adverse effects)
Sorry I’m late to the party Menno, congrats for rocking your sobriety. You’re my inspiration, a sober life is a better life so keep on keeping on ODAAT. We’ve got this! 
Blessings and sobriety!
Day 287. Checking in.
Some days it’s a strugle to keep the thoughts of my ex out of my head. And to not drown them ik booze. Damn what a night that would be. A few bottles, drink up!
Damn you brain for putting the taste of booze in my mouth
Yes I got that too in the past. Except now it’s part of my work, so can’t really send them away as they need help 
But I’ll see how it goes. It is still a safe place for me I think. Just have to adapt. Thank you!
Thanks @anon12657779 , I did learn from it actually. After a good night of sleep I see more clearly why I felt this way. And I can tell you today that it wasn’t a craving. Yesterday I couldn’t tell what I felt nor what I needed. I just felt so weird. But I had some revelation this night/morning, I remembered that I felt the same way with a different person in the past year, so it’s something I know but that I used to cope differently. And you know, just getting through the day, doing ma thing without drinking, was actually a good way to cope with it.
Hope you have a great day guys
Day 261. No idea what to say, honestly I felt so much more optimistic in my first 2 and 3 months then I have the rest. I’m irritated with everything. Sure yesterday was a good lift day, today I tell the guy the weight is to heavy and it’s killing my back. So what does he keep doing, adding fucking weight. Idk w.e dude. Might be time to take break from lifting
Good lord… Well, obviously you’re stunning. However, I think people get jealous or whatever and want to bring people down a notch. I don’t know.
I was on a first date this spring, and the guy said to me “my friends were surprised I went out with you because you’re not very good looking”. It sent me over the edge.
I got told I was ugly my whole life. People can be such assholes. Aging sucks ass.
@Jennajen I feel so much for you. We are in such similar boats. I suffer deeply with body issues and self esteem. Therapy is starting to help. I lay my head down at night feeling so much shame over what I did or did not eat. If I eat something I feel is “bad” I instantly feel 30lbs heavier and literally see myself bigger in the mirror. Even though that’s impossible, it’s how my brain works. If you ever need to talk, I’m here 
Mike, buddy. You are exactly where you are supposed to be man.
Yes, maybe take a break from lifting. Something I learnt over the last couple of years is to listen to my body. When I started training things were cool then I started to push it and that’s when things started going bad. I picked up a couple of injuries that put me on the bench, as they say. When I did the Fan Dance the other week I had only been back training properly for a month and felt I was no where ready.
But obviously I was when it came to it. And since then I’ve felt 150% or more.
There is no shame in stepping back from the rack bud!
You know we are here when you’re ready to talk about it 
Congrats @Lhasaluv
@Girlinterrupted @Jennajen
Poor esteem issues suck. My kids will have almost no pictures of me because I avoid them because I hate how I look. I can also “feel” my body growing if I binge. I know I put on weight, but I don’t think u can actually feel it! I try so hard to focus on holistic health rather than just weight, but it is hard to convince yourself. I have seen both of ur photos, and u are both lovely-looking.
I’m so happy for you Emma!!! You deserve all the happy things!! 
@anon60334405 I know bugger all about lifting. But real pain is probably a sign to stop. And the end of the pink cloud is real. It is a sign that u are moving beyond the early sobriety stage, to the later stages. It may feel less euphoric, but just as valid.
Day 54 y’all! I’m so grateful today! I get to pick uo my 60 day chip Tuesday and my sponsor will be there! Yesterday was very productive. I went to my noon meeting, got counseling paperwork turned in, filled out the FAFSA application to start school, went through all my clothes are organized them, and am going to donate all the old ones to the recovery house here. I have been hoarding them and never wearing them. I hope you all have an amazing day. There is ALWAYS something to wake up and be grateful for! Have a blessed day y’all!
God is good ALL the time!
Checking in sober and ED free. It’s kind of hard to say eating disorder free when it consumes my mind. However, I’m eating enough calories and I haven’t puked, so there.
The thought of drinking crossed my mind last night, but it was fleeting. I feel that my ex-husband and his wife have successfully alienated me from my daughter. My 14-year-old can barely stand me. She barely even comes here and it’s because I think they make her. She’s rude and disrespectful to me, she behaves in a way she never would with them, and that’s a lack of respect. She’s always talking about how great it is with them. I know her stepmom hates my guts and is convinced I still love my ex. No clue where she gets that from. She has admitted she’s jealous of me, maybe that’s it. Don’t know, don’t care. She’s a shit person.
My ex is the biggest victim I’ve ever seen in my life, and even though he was physically abusive, he managed to turn everyone, including my kids, against me and to feel sorry for him. He even has his wife fully believing that I deserved what I got. He’s ridiculously good looking and super manipulative. People are putty in his hands. Sigh. I’m going to tell him to just keep my daughter there for a while. I need to regroup. I’ve been trying to research this and I can’t find answers on how to fix it.
Anyway, here’s one of my recent photos This gives me a lot of joy. I took some at sunset last night, but have not downloaded them yet.
Checking in
Day 44: Trying really hard to get my ass out of bed before 7 am. Pain sucks but I haven’t exercised this week and I think it might help. I was kind of surprised more people didn’t respond regarding my post about healthcare in the USA yesterday, but I am guessing it’s a frustrating issue for more than just me! Not gonna lie, had some thoughts yesterday that romanticized the numbing of pain that booze offers, but thinking about the pain of recovering from the inevitable binge and the continued wreckage on my body, mind and spirit was all I needed to snap back to reality. I’m really grateful I haven’t used pills before and have even been hesitant to take the pain pills they’ve given me after dental work in the past. I know myself too well and cannot go down that road. Hang tight, everyone. Sending love out to those that need it.
Checking in day 2. I had time off this week and drank. I hadn’t been posting a day count but for honesty and transparency I am going back to doing that. Since this slip I have been going to meetings, gotten a sponsor, and will begin working the steps. Taking it one day at a time. Hope everyone has a decent sober Wednesday 
