Just watched The Way Back with Ben Affleck. A good movie that portrays the harsh reality of alcohol dependency and the perils and torture it can bring. Heal your heart and you’ll heal your soul. Know that you’re here because you matter. You are worthy of love and joy. You are. 
Wishing everyone a day & night full of blessings and many smiles.
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Love you too Eric! 
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Checking in at 5 days 14 hours. Good morning to all of you east coasters!
Today is gonna be rough, but hey, a little positivity never hurt! I am positive today will be rough!
But, in all seriousness, I am trying to remember that I am stronger than all this crap in my head. It’s just hard sometimes…
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Congratulations my sweet lil Emm!! I’m so freakin proud of you.
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Afternoon peeps. Cravings are bad today. Im not overly stressed but i have just had a Councelling session and im back at work. Im close to relapsing again. Also this particular day is difficult for me as.im going into my rest days from. Work which means i dont really have to do anything! The first night off from work is always the hardest 
Going home as well driving past all the places i would normally buy my booze is going to be tough!!!
Im 21 days into Sobriety and 18 for cigarettes! Part of me just wants to drink and just reset my clock 
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Gooood morning!!! Day 131 clean and sober today. Work went well yesterday and though I’m supposed to be off today for school they’re having me come in to do a job before class starts. I need to set boundaries with this as I won’t be able to complete the assignments I had due today and was planning on doing. The boss said something about getting back into reality in reference to me attending music college and I had a feeling that he’s just a hater because I’m doing something that maybe he would’ve wanted to do. I believe that you never know what God and the universe have in store if you just do the footwork. I’m going to continue to believe this and follow my heart. Have a great day everyone I’m super proud of all of you and love that we all check in and have each other! Love you guys!!!
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Whew… Passed a heavy craving and it’s only almost 9am
Only a addict/alcoholic would want to use this early
So today I have a noon meeting and be4 that I volunteer at the food pantry
God’s giving me streignth through prayer and free will
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Hang in there. That’s the addicted brain talking, it does NOT have YOUR best interest in mind. There is no resetting going back to addiction, only F###ING UP, big time.
Could you do something that would break your routine? Take a totally different route, get some take-out and go watch the sunset? Idk, just throwing out ideas. My cravings are of different things but I’ve tried the dark shower; meaning you take a shower with lights switched off and stay under the spray as long as you like, breathe, listen, feel.
You can do this. It’s not impossible. Keep making smart choices one minute at the time. We’re here! 
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So i had things in place going round a friends for dinner but weve gone into lock down again so it’s just me till the weekend as im in a bubble with my partner. But ya right. If i relapsed id feel like crap tomorrow
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Thank you that’s so kind of you I’m working hard for a better life. Xx lots of love. Xx
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@Dazercat I was really sad to hear you had such a rough day yesterday. I didn’t have time to reply earlier because of work but I kept you in my thoughts and I know a ton of others here have already sent their thoughts as well.
I hope you have a much better sober day today, I can so relate to your comment about being an emotional person. It’s not easy but I believe we get much more out of life.
@RosaCanDo I’m so sorry to hear your in pain but good for you for realizing that the booze will just wreak havoc on your body and make everything worse while only providing the illusion of pain relief. I hope you find something that provides relief today…I don’t know if stretching or yoga would help but I know there are a lot of free guide videos you could search for on YouTube. Just a thought!
@Rockstar24777 Congrats on day 131 man! Forget your boss for belittling music college, he definitely is just being a hater. I’m sure he has no way of understanding what it means to you or how much of an accomplishment it is; maybe he’s unhappy with a stagnant life so he can’t stand to see others thriving. Keep kicking ass in sobriety 
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Rosa, I have a ton of experience with US healthcare. If your insurance is through your employer, find out who the broker is and contact them to help you. I currently work for a broker and help employees all the time. Feel free to PM if you have any questions.
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That really sucks that you’ve gone into lock down again, I’m sorry. Maybe find a new show to binge or start a new book? Anything to break up the monotony and keep you away from that first drink. Good luck and stay strong 
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Thank you so much for the support!!!
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Cool, you know these feelings are there. Remember that is all they are, just feeling and they are not real.
The only thing that is real is what you actually do.
You drive past those stores you don’t even look at them. When you mind starts to drift towards thoughts change the thought. Think of something else, what you are going to have for dinner, what film do you want to watch. Whatever it takes.
As for your days off, can you go to meetings, can you go and find some volunteer jobs you can do?
There is absolutely no excuse to sit worrying over drinking.
Get out there and do something.
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I hear you, lockdown complicates things. I’m sorry it’s been a hard day for you.
You know what I would do? If I had a partner, I would take a dark shower with him and see how things develope 
Disclaimer:
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Not the first time you post about that dude adding weights when you don’t want too. I don’t know but I would just keep going and doing my thing. No reason to quit the gym for someone else pushing your ass. You got to keep doing what makes you feel good. And as I see it, working out is something you enjoy and make you feel better overall. Back on fire? Just take a recovery week working on your weakness, on your core, on some unusual stuff like shoulder stability, maybe do more cardio, work on your mobility or stretches. Don’t know , just do what you feel you’ve got to do.
Don’t fall under the pressure of others ego; we’ve working wayyy too hard about letting our addict ego out of the door to being overcome by someone else’s ego.
It’s like if someone else’s trying to make you drink, you just don’t. You just be sober and be you. So just do ya thing and be you?
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Thank you, Lisa. I’ll try that. I’m having more issues with providers than insurance now but it is still worth a shot!
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That’s awesome to hear! Congratulations!
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Yeah you’re right. That’s all he is doing is pushing me bc he sees alot of potential he says. It’s not my lower back, it’s my lats. We did a battle rope session last week and they have hurt since, then we did bench yesterday so they are sore from that. Then today was rows which Is for my already beat to shit lats. I’m probably just being a winey ass lil bitch and will be all better tomorrow
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