I haven’t checked in for at least 80 days however quickly scrolling through I recognize too many names to mention them all which is such a nice feeling for a few examples. @anon79808082 @Dazercat @anon28001181 @Lisa @Mno …
so back to checking in Day 270 clean and sober. Day 46 without cigarettes.
I’m living in a shared continuing care sober house through wayside in Hamilton. I am very grateful for that. Talked with my sponsor today. Getting another new addiction counsellor and have first one on one session this Thursday. Been praying and meditating regularly. I go into the treatment center every day and volunteer cook which fills my time and keeps me grounded. This allows me to support the new clients and receive support from them and keep a.strong connection with the staff there. Some days it’s overwhelming with covid protocols obviously still going strong and the sheer number of addicts I’ve met in the last roughly six months of being a wayside client. I take turns chairing NA and AA meetings every Saturday for in-house clients such a blessing as I usually resort to zoom meetings two or three times a week so the in person is a bonus. In others I’ve been busy however the plan is to get reconnected here again. I enjoy reading the check ins and doing my own as well as the gratitude section and more. Anyway I’ve rambled enough so for now. 
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Day 197. Just checkin in. Been really busy with my new job. Pulled a 50 hour week last week and trying not to do anymore overtime this week. Got a teledoc appt this friday my sting ray attack seems to showing some signs it could be infected. Better to play it safe so I can get back out in the water. Had a close call today when my weight bench collapsed on me whole I was doing leg curls. Luckily nothing serious happened. If I was still drinking these things would be driving me up the walls but Im just relaxing and keepin on. My new sponsee definitely decided not to do the work outlined in the program. My sponser said not to chase him so I will let it be. Better than loosing sleep over somebody who wants to do it their way. Been hot again and looking forward to some cooler weather soon so I can start work on my next project which is finishing the tile and counters in my bathroom. Sorry for the long post just catching up.
Great job on the 270 days Brian. That’s awesome 
It sounds like your working a really good plan. Keep it up.
well shit. i didn’t know about prime day! now i’m switching over to amazon to see what i want to buy myself.
Day 106.
Ugh. First day back in the office in 7 months. Didn’t think I was stressed, but my sleep was sleepless and I was cranky this morning. I didn’t realize until I was on my way home today that 7 months ago, I would have been able to justify, by mid-afternoon, stopping off at any one of the 6 liquor stores I pass along the 10 min drive home.
The last 106 days, I’ve turned my home from the equivalent of a “fully-licensed – open 24hrs” establishment to a largely trigger-free, safe and sober bubble. Time to step out of the bubble. I guess going back to work is like dialing up the trigger button a notch, but triggers will be everywhere, so I might as well practice staring them down. At least I look forward to coming home to a sober evening and my projects here. I know some days that will be harder than others – but that’s where TS and you all come in. 
Grateful. Big love to all. 
@anon28001181, @CapriciousCapricorn, @Dazercat, @CATMANCAM, @IcanIwill, @Imcrafty, @Misokatsu - all kinds of funks. Hoping for better days ahead for you, friends. Please know - funk or no funk, you still shine a lotta light here for others…
Congratulations on your 106 days. And keeping it going one day at a time after going back to the office first time in 7 months? Wow!! What a test for you that you passed with flying colors. Thanks for your nightly check ins. They are a great way for me to top off my night.
God Bless.
Thank you. And back at’cha.
And don’t be hard on yourself for feeling a bit untethered these days, k? 
that counter is not accurate bc after what you’ve been through I bet your heart skipped a few beats. Anyway have a good day you and everyone else. I was thinking the other day my Higher Power is the reason we have covid, without it I wouldn’t have online meetings 24 hours a day and I wouldn’t have a sponsor and be sober, Thank god for covid. but I have all this now so you can fuck off and let us go out and actually enjoy it, down with covid 
Day 322. So happy not to be drinking. I think a lot about my different alternate life, if I’d quit drinking twenty years ago. It might have looked much the same, or not, but it would have felt different. Being sober doesn’t solve every issue in life, but it gives me more chance to be aware and do my best, whatever that means today.
checking in. it’s somewhere between day 30 and 35.
I actually had convinced myself that I should drink again earlier tonight. I was longing for the days of drinking. I was imagining next summer and told myself that I could drink then. I was already (in my day dream) imposing moderation rules. No weeknights? Only drink if it’s social? COME ON HEATHER. I refuse to drink away the rest of my 30’s. Drinking is pointless. All of those fun times i was imagining will probably be more fun sober because i’ll be happy.
I have a sister who has always had her shit together. I don’t talk to her much because of the usual guilt/shame fog that got in the way of a normal life. Earlier today we talked on the phone for 40 minutes. It flew by. We were just chatting away. Planning vacations for next year. That is because i’m sober.
I’m also feeling really good about being single. I broke up with my bf of 8 years on day 10. At first I was scared that I was just trying to quit everything that wasn’t going right. And now I’m like…hell yes I am quitting things that aren’t right. I deserve to be happy.
Keeping my eye on the prize - stay sober everyone 
Also - I’m SO glad I found TS. Night all!
Day 280. Taking things day by day. There’s some strength in that.
I am reaching out to a therapist this week. It will help me a lot I think.
Have good one!
It will definitely help. Good luck with it! Things will get better, just give them time.
Morning all. Managed to sleep well and I feel ok this morning, maybe just on the side of feeling alittle low but not too bad. Ive got a counselling session this morning. Im blessed to be able to have counselling and im grateful but I just dont think this particular councillor is right for me. Still im going.
Then im going to help my friends paint their house which will keep me busy today. Cravings are at a 3/4 out of 10 today which is where it normally sits at the moment unless I have a period like I did two days ago where the cravings go up to 10/12 out of 10.
Back to work tomorrow aswell which im not exactly excited about but again im blessed and grateful to have a job.
God bless everyone have a good day
Thanks! yea its really helped me to articulate how im feeling. Its normally sits at 3 to 4 out of 10 which is manageable for me.
More referring to your earlier post, @Dazercat I just want to say that I’m sorry you’re that things are not so good. From following the the news, I can totally understand why you would feel that way. But I think I’m not in a place to say anything about politics in other countries, so I’ll leave it at that.
Anyhow, you know, you’re definitely one of the most supportive people here. If I could I’d give you a big long hug right now!!! But I’ll settle with this instead: please know that you are loved. And please give your pets a pet from me!
Good morning, here in Dorset we have the most clear beautiful autumn sky cold and fresh, makes me feel so grounded, checking in on day 83 and day 23 smoke free, hitting the gym 3 x a week eating well, FEEELING GREAT. have a blessed Wednesday love Emma 
Hi all! I am 1 day in! Was on here 2 years ago and managed 3 months. My drinking has escalated again especially when I’m feeling stressed so thought I better go sober. Realistically I think being sober indefinitely is the only way it’s going to work for me. Hopefully I can stay on the straight and narrow this time!
I love the saying “Life might be giving you a cactus, but you don’t have to sit on it” no idea where the original came from but it’s coming up in memes from time to time 
And it makes me giggle imagine a strict guy in a suit accidentally sitting on a cactus and getting mad at the world.