Checking in daily to maintain focus #20

[anon74766472]

Happy b-day @Dragonflygirl82 and @Frank68!

Hope you have a nice day

[Lisa07]

402 Days. In the past, I’ve allowed my loved ones to take advantage of my kindness. I’ve always been the one to bend in order to make it easier for them or change my plans to suit their needs. It’s never reciprocated. Now, I’m not being as flexible and it’s not being received well. I’m met with hostility and anger. This has to be a two way street. I put my foot down and I refuse to let up. Don’t get me wrong, I will continue to do for others but I also expect to get the same respect in return. I’m no longer a doormat. Today has been an eye opener for a few and it didn’t end well but I’m not allowing it to bring me down.

[apes2020]

Today is an amazing day… After 9 months since my industry was shut down in covid lock down and being unemployed and having no money coming in for the last 6 months, I am over the moon with joy to find out today that I will be returning to work on the 23rd November in exactly 28 days!!! looks like Christmas may not be cancelled after all so the Grinch Can go suck it hehehe

[Lisa07]

Woo hoo! That’s great news April!! I’m so happy for you. I stayed employed during lockdown but I was working remote which eventually got to me. Returning to the office was such a relief. I felt some normalcy return to my life. I think the routine and getting out and being around people made the biggest difference.

[Mark2]

Day 94 booze. Day 7 (one week!) pills
Today’s thoughts …
“It wasn’t so bad was it?”
“You were managing ok, didn’t lose your job and your family.”
“All this sobriety stuff is a bit of an over reaction, isn’t it?”
“Just drink or pill occasionally, as a treat, it wasn’t so bad you need to stop forever!”

Did anyone here read Rational Recovery? It was all the rage once. Maybe it still is.
The ‘lizard brain’ doesn’t give up, huh?
I know this place and have been here several times before. Need to keep focused …

[manishc]

Hey thanks. I did not realise that my words could trigger someone. But you are right. My words are very violent and crude. That’s my writing style. Anyways. I won’t post my stuff here anymore.

[apes2020]

normally I would of been having a glass of wine to celebrate but that is no longer my life lol so I will just be playing this song super loud and will be dancing around the apartment till I cant dance no more

[Lisa07]

@Dragonflygirl82 and @Frank68 by the time you see this you’ll be celebrating. I hope you both enjoy your day.

[manishc]

Back here. Life is complicated right now. Just trying to hang on to my sanity. Stay safe everyone.

[Misokatsu]

Day 76

Some probably all-in-my-head shit is making me feel rejected or worried that I was accidentally rude, and people are offended. Over-thinking sucks. I also gotta get a handle on my eating again, making myself feel ill.
On the plus side reached out to get an online sponsor.

[anon27760155]

A big amen from me!!

[Olivia]

Oh Lisa, I’m so glad and proud you’re putting your foot down and setting boundaries. I bet it’s not easy but yet so necessary. You’re definitely not a door mat!! I hope your husband finds whatwver it is he needs to stay sober. All the best to you!

[anon27760155]

Day 86…

Courage doesn’t mean you don’t get afraid. Courage means you don’t let fear stop you

Today I have to share my past in a set of questions, I’m not one in Real life to share, my emotions are never expressed correctly, people think I’m angry when it’s fear or I’m scared!

I am today going to share the wreckage I caused, there’s gonna be so many tears down my face as this emotion is the one I bottle up so much. I was taught from a young age you don’t cry… But today I will cry as I want people to see who I am. A small girl learning to love herself!

[Luckyredz]

thanks, not my first clean week ever but hopeful this is my last time around

[apes2020]

I couldn’t choose one so you got all of them @Dragonflygirl82

[Luckyredz]

Day 8 clean from Meth, had some difficulty sleeping, could smell stale meth smoke whilst lying in bed, not sure if imagined or not. Onwards and upwards for week 2. Hope you all are well

[TMAC]

@Frank68

27th here

Happy bday to the both of you!

[apes2020]

I had a dream the other night and In the dream I could smell the pipe, when I woke up i could still remember the smell. Very triggering… Can’t control our dreams tho lol …congrats on week one!!

[Mno]

506. Coffee. Better rested. I have three late shifts left before my autumn vacation. 2.5 Weeks that could be very well spent by myself as we might be heading for a very serious lockdown here. Actually, come to think of it, it might be an idea to go to a DIY store very soon and get some paint and stuff to work on my place a bit more. They might close down too. Thanks god I’m sober and clean so I don’t have to stock up on booze and drugs. Have a good week all. Clean and sober of course. Love from Amsterdam.
     
     
     
     @Dragonflygirl82 & @Frank68 Happy 26th birthday you both!
     @anon27760155 You’re showing plenty of courage here Danni. Have a great day of learning and sharing lady.
     @apes2020 Big congrats on getting back to work April.
     @Lisa07 We have to learn and we are Lisa. A two way street indeed. You are growing. Growing pains are there, both inside ourselves in our relations to others. Keep going. You’re doing great.

[Tomek]

It’s a huge step and you’re so brave to face it!
Don’t withhold the tears - the pain which once got in, has to get out.
You can do this, fellow warrior!