I experience that the more I am working on my recovery and what is there from my past, the shorter these periods last. When still drinking I fell into that hole and kept in there like forever even digging me into it deeper.
Now, these feelings last not long, maybe some days or less and I can now be confident that it will change. I could never believe that that change is possible.
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youāve got absolutely nothing to lose and they wonāt throw you in the boot of a car and drive you out into the woods if you decide to leave.
Checking in. Iāve done 11 months without alcohol. Itās good. I still think about it sometimes but nowhere near the levels of craving as in the first weeks. Change is possible.
I was talking about this a little this morning. I found the first few weeks of no alcohol quite liberating and I had more energy, but around about day 60 ish had a period of quite unpleasant low mood that Iād not really had before. I felt just as low and lethargic as I did when I was drinking. I even said to my wife at one point āit was better when I was drinking, is this worth it?ā I think I always took the peaks and troughs off all my moods with alcohol (and pills) so I could temporarily escape a low mood with alcohol. I realise that all Iām doing in that moment is delaying the low mood rather than escaping it, but thereās something about the quick fix I think the brain latches onto. I found this low mood lasted a few weeks and has improved somewhat, perhaps as my brain is learning that itās old friend isnāt coming back. So hang in there, itās likely to improve. Are there other things you can do to give your brain a boost today? - some exercise, being outdoors, something which gets you out of your head and into your body, or something that you get absorbed in? Looking forward to hearing about your sober birthday ā¦
Itās different for everyone. There are so many variables. The more you work on your happiness in general life, then the easier it getsā¦well thats what Iāve found to be secret to my successā¦ I work on being and feeling happy everyday and the rest just falls into placeā¦some days are hard, itās a given, but ultimately they are good at this point of my journeyā¦ That may change, who knows. But as long as I donāt predict any uneasiness, itās likely not to occurā¦ I donāt manifest itā¦
You really need the reason to be you.
Well done on 15 days, the first two weeks are hard.
Spend some time reading around on here. Make a start on realising your worth!
Learn to love yourself.
Good to see you girl! You could smile though, you have a lovely smile! 
This used to be me. Sometimes I couldnāt shift it at all.
Something to remember in all this is you are exactly where you are supposed to be. I put absolutely everything that happened to me down to being part of the process and accepted it and moved on.
53 days is still early days.
I had the exact same sort of things happening to me as well.
Think of it as you mind suddenly realising that itās gotta sort the shit out instead of drowning it out.
What I found was I think I was dealing with stuff more subconsciously than anything else and it drained me.
Around this time I started working 4 days a week just so I could have a day to me at home. I even dropped to 3 a couple of times.
And when I was drinking I wouldnāt even think of doing a five day week I usually worked 7.
Day 9 free from Meth. Had my first therapy session yesterday (have been on a waiting list for a year) and felt really good getting a lot of stuff off my chest. One of the things she specialises in is Chemsex so was able to talk about everything. Had a whole heap of dreams last night, but all positive, very vivid. I am feeling positive about the future again.
She does, I show her what I post about us.
Wow amazing. Keep going!
Day 77
Continuing to indulge in mind-reading, and then getting upset about it. I wish my brain would learn to stay in its own lane. I would type it out, or talk to my husband, but it would sound so silly, I know. Yet it preys on my mind and makes me feel bad somehow.
Day 3 just checking in
Day 2 check in.Going to be more productive today,Hope everyone has a good day 
Day 267. So I didnāt realize I had a meeting with my therapist yesterday, so was nice after venting on here I was able to talk to him and bring it up. I again ask him wtf is wrong with me and he tells me nothing. Itās like Iām dying to here something is wrong with me, and be diagnosed with ADHD, or bpds. But nope he says itās all normal to bring things up from the past, he said itās good because Iām having a concious again.
Then I go to my a.a meeting, and what do we talk about. Resentment, jealousy, acceptance, procrastinating, all things ive been doin. So I did I told them itās time to work the steps. Yes I work my recovery in some ways, but I have also stopped working it in many other ways as well. I was starting to get lazy in some areas that I just canāt be lazy in bc it could lead to bad things. Anyways have a good Tuesday. I had a good lift session today. I definitely didnāt hit good sets today, but at least I was there
Everything happens for a reason Mike. Remember that you are exactly where you are supposed to be.
So the funniest thing is happening in my state of Victoria where I live. Well namely our actual city specifically, Melbourneā¦ Our whole city /state is hash tagging #getonthebeers ā¦ Because tonight at officially 11.59pm we are now officially out of lock down and it is like its Christmas Eve or new yrs eve here literallyā¦ Our premiere said the words āget on the beersā in one of his daily media press news conferences to āget on the beersā lolā¦ It has been turned into a trending song lolā¦ And literally every pub and bar and restraunt is opening at 11.59pm tonight specially for the re openingā¦ 11.59pm on a Tuesday night lolā¦ Its the funniest thingā¦ And I have never been so happy to be completely clean and sober at this moment in my life because if I was not, then tonight would be an epic night of all that lol ā¦ But like the good little poppett I am, I am having a cup of chamomile tea and hitting the hay by 10pm! ā¦ My city is going to on fire tonight and Iām not even a bit disappointed Iām not amongst itā¦ Loving my life just as it isā¦
Good morning! Checking in sober and ED free. I have no idea when the last time was that I went this long. It almost doesnāt seem real.
Having issues again with one of my brokers, heās just a wild child. I spent two hours with a new client needing multiple properties. Two office spaces and one warehouse. I split it up between my office guy (problem child) and my industrial guy. Met with them, briefed them, explained the process verbally and in writing. I updated the CRM with very detailed information. What does he do? Calls the client, spends an hour on the phone asking questions he already spent his valuable time answering when I originally met with him, and then took over the entire search. So my industrial guy is like WTF? He also monopolized the SEO for MY company and had a fit that I made him take everything down. I also had to put a complaint into BBB against Yelp because they refuse to remove his stupid profile.
I really wanted to give him a chance, but I found out heās been looking at my email via the CRM, so I had to make privacy changes. He also got upset that he canāt see my deals in there, so he doesnāt trust me. My deals are none of his business. I feed him extremely well. If I want to eat what I kill, I will. Iāve spent almost 15 years in this market building my network and I have given him amazing opportunities so far. I cringe when I hear him on the phone, he will talk a client to death and he doesnāt listen. I know what I need to do, but heās so fucking volatile. My industrial guy will be in when I talk to him today, hopefully that stops him from flying off the handle. Sorry for the long vent. Iām disappointed with myself for not cutting ties.
