Thanks for the nice words, much appreciated
Thanks a lot 
@Figgie Congrats on testing negative and your 80 days 
@Veganwannabe welcome 
@Lisa07 Happy Anniversary 
@apes2020 happy to see you checking in with a week again 
@Soll Congrats on 3 months
@Hidden Happy Soberversary 
@Penguin Congrats on 90 days
67 days.
Been awake since 1am. Foot hurts a lot from the shot yesterday, there’s a lump at the injection site.
I’ve had a busy and stressful day sorting out documents for the solicitor who’s overseeing the sale of my flat, only received the instructions yesterday but I didn’t want to hang around, so dropped those all off this afternoon, hopefully things will progress quickly. Being in limbo and having the anticipation of moving fairly soon is quite unsettling, but it is what it is.
I’ve got another interview lined up now. I hope I’m doing the right thing by looking for work again, if I get an offer I just pray I can cope this time. Some interview practice can’t hurt regardless, and if it’s meant to be it will be.
I am regretting starting to drink coffee again, I am finding myself drinking and buying more and more. It’s gets out of hand so quickly. I know it’s only coffee but it’s the nature of my use of caffeine that bothers me, having that insatiable desire back in my mind is not healthy. I will try to moderate and regain some semblance of control. I feel silly saying that over coffee, but if it continues this way then I won’t be buying any more when I’ve finished the ones I’ve just purchased.
Hoping the foot pain will ease up overnight so I can get out for a walk tomorrow afternoon. My mind doesn’t feel right from not being able to get out there in the cool fresh air today, though I’m conscious I’ve had very little sleep also so that doesn’t help mentally.
I’ve had a Chinese takeaway tonight. I’m trying not to be too hard on myself about it, I enjoyed it, but I want to draw a line under it once the leftovers are finished tomorrow, and then fully commit to my diet until Xmas, as I’m aiming for another stone off by then. 
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What does CT mean ?
No, I don’t live anywhere near Durban !! I’m from Ontario, Canada, but I live in Switzerland.
I was just in SA for some diving, but the weather wasn’t great, so really only got to do one day of diving.
I think its Cape Town…
Ah ! Good guess !
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Checking in, day 12. It was a great day, I worked, had fun with the kids, ordered some clothes, took a walk with our friends, went for a good evening run. I start to be present in my everyday life and I just realize how much I missed it.
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I’ve been waiting for this post, Chris. I knew it had to be coming soon. Congratulations man. This is awesome.
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Goodnight everyone
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@Hidden Congrats on one year! Brilliant!
@Penguin After the early buzz of early sobriety, people often hit a wall. Stay sober, keep pushing, and u will get thru it. And congrats!
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Checking in. Getting the house straightened more. Doing laundry. Some prayer and meditation. Daily readings. Talked with Mom. Nice chat with one of my housemates. I was recently saying I dont know some of my housemates very well, there is five of them. So my higher power lays me up on the couch in the middle of the house for about a week Lol I know my housemates better now🤔 Going to log onto another zoom NA tonight.
Stay strong everyone and God bless. 
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Rob, thank you.
If you’re talking about the Frozen meme, then yes, I can openly say it was triggering since I struggle with pmo. It was also disturbing bc now it’ll take time before I can watch that with kids, for my sake obviously.
For the internet in general:
Yes, I’m responsible how I deal with triggers and arising emotions.
Yes, people have different sense of humour and sensitivity.
So much of media is infested with sex and booze, mind you. Out of respect for fellow addicts I don’t post pictures of drinking/drugging here, I don’t want to trigger ppl.
So please understand that there is at least me who finds it awkward to flick thru sexually hinting / explicit content on a sobriety forum.
From this viewpoint, would you find it offending @anon60334405?
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Hello all,
Hope everyone is having a great day. Checking in sane and sober. Hit three weeks this weekend. I told myself I wasn’t going to post again till I got to 30 days or my cell phone back. To heck with that and tired of just reading. I was in such a bad place that I was acting on my defects and doing exactly opposite of what I should be doing - communicating. Anyway, I’m doing much better and going IOP (round 2). 
It’s been my favorite type of program to work. Glad to be back and sober.
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I apologise because no I do not. I can appreciate that you do. But unfortunately it’s out there everywhere, even for me on FB and in real life and I can only control my actions and not get offended by what other ppl think Is funny. I see coke memes all day of fb, yes sure at first it bothered me and seeing ppl go to coke dealers houses bugged me. But I can’t let it control me, I just keep scrolling and move on. I think your a sweet person so I accept that it bugs you and I’ll be mindful of it. But I can only control my actions and move on from things
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Appreciate it, thank you. Awesome to see you racking up some solid time as well. Keep it up!!
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- I spent a ton of money on meditation/prayer beads, books, Buddhas, and candles. Living my best Recovery Dharma life over here. I am definitely not cocky, but so driven to do the work, harder and more in-depth than before. I have struggled with anger over these single digit days I am building up - because they don’t make sense. I had no reason to relapse. I was happy. I wasn’t really craving. I DECIDED to shut down and pick up - just because I could, because it was easy to, because my thoughts were like, “What’s the difference?”
From The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober, “No matter how much ‘I want a drink, I need a drink, I could have a drink, there’s a drink, pick up the drink’ echoes in your head, a thought cannot make you pick up that drink and put it in your mouth…only picking up a drink and putting it in my mouth, could lead me to drinking…Thoughts are in your head. They can’t move your hand.”
Nothing else but that my friend. Make your thoughts your friend, not your enemy.
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You’re welcome @Olivia I didn’t know it was also from a movie too my bad. I’m sorry I posted that and I hope you can forgive me and accept my apology. Have a good night Olivia.
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