Fuck shit bollocks!
I am trying my hardest and I mean my hardest to stay on track with my SA! 
How do people stay focused…
If I just stick to like one person regular as bed partner am I in the wrong to see where it goes!
Yup ima screwed up person.
… As for me, I had weird dreams last night, weird using dreams. I really don’t like waking up remembering them… It blows my mind how our minds and subconscious works. Amazing.
unfortunately for you this is the norm for most people but fortunately for you you may find the love of a good person.
@Petri Well done!
@Tomek Some great advice from @anon27760155 and @CapriciousCapricorn. I cannot begin to understand your personal situation, but I do understand what it is like to have a parent who does not give unconditional love. My mother screamed at me that I meant nothing to her and tried to throw me out of the house when I was 7. It causes great pain, insecurity and wounds that do not heal easily. I have only just started to think that maybe my mum was just doing the best that she could. It wasn’t enough, and it hurt me, but it was all she was capable of. It comforts me somehow. And as for you and your children, if you provide that unconditional love to your kids, they will be strong and secure emotionally. They need a happy and able-to-be-themselves parent to provide that unconditional love.
Day 67. Just finished an 18 hour workday supervising an election. My son offered to be my sponsor if I wanted a drink. Normally I would be chugging wine. Now I just want a hot bath and a cold spicy gingerale. Record turn out. Que sera, sera!
Checking in on day 38. Just got done with phone calls from both my parents and my grandparents who are all very worried about the election results tonight. Had to reassure all parties that I’m home with Max, and we are fine.
Four years ago, I watched the election results with a dear friend at a bar. I cannot remember how many drinks I had that night, but I do know that I’d had enough of them that I agreed to meet my narcissist ex (we were on a break at the time) for a talk. I remember vividly sitting on a sidewalk, stomach churning as I had another beer and let him weave another bunch of bullshit tales that I so wanted to believe. In my alcohol soaked brain, I thought “well, not one part of today has turned out as expected.” He was mad when I stood up and went home, which was the only smart decision I made that night.
I can’t help but notice how different tonight is. Came home, walked Max, made dinner, and fielded some phone calls. Drank an AHA seltzer water. Brushed my teeth. I’m in bed, listening to an audiobook and catching up on TS and will be asleep soon. I’m sober, and I don’t feel any of that stomach churning anxiety that I felt four years ago. Worrying never got me anywhere, and drinking to numb the worry only got me in trouble. I feel so fortunate to be here, with my awesome dog, fully in my sober mind and body.
Welcome to full term recovery, Mike!
That’s a great share right here. Unfortunately I’m glued to my tv. But I’m not drinking tonight.
And probably not tomorrow.
It is so nice to get through this with a clear level head no matter how you decide to get through it. Hey! At least we’re sober.
Give Max a nice scratch on the head.
Heyy I just got back home
Well today I didn’t get a chance to accomplish much
Right now I’m going to sit and read a bit.
I took a 2 hour snoozer but ya know what that’s ok. Like others have said a nap is like a hug to yourself lol
I managed to keep it in the moment and today I stayed sober without any issues
I wantedd to get to a meeting at noon in person but covid is starting to spike again it’s hard when I’m pulled in so many directions. People love to have me around but , man it gets overwhelming.
So. . . . My plan for tomorrow is to be up by 7am so I’m awake instead of rushing to get to volunteer.
So 7am I want to be awake
Take meds when I see my viseting nurse then run to volunteer
I don’t think aa tomorrow in person is a good idea due to covid
I’ve been doing online meetings at midnight here in the north east usa. I’m not too sure what time that is in the uk.
I love those online meeting
So many great people sharing their experience streigth and hope. And also compassion and empathy
I saw on @anon27760155 post that opinion is really a low form of communication and empathy is much better. That got me
I just to tell everyone , opinion is a great way to keep up in a convo but I was really dead wrong. Understanding and compassion… That is what a good communication is all about
I have a friend I like to reach out to. He is very much a great influence for me. We have been chillin for 8 years a lot. Great guy. I’ve been practicing that understanding and compassion communication with him and it’s really working. I think all he wants is someone to trust. And I’m that guy. My door will always be opened for him. It’s almost like I teach him empathy and he teaches me confidence. He doesn’t like a lot a lot of people but he has always in the eight years liked me and vice versa. He supports my sobriety. He has completely turned around his life for the better many times. For a while he called me a lot and it drove me crazy and even kind of away sometimes. But understanding, compassion, and empathy really changed the game with our friendship. Of course I come first and so does my sobriety. I try so hard to understand why he treats me so good and does so much for me. Our personalities just click right yet we are very much opposite. He’s a big rough tough tumbler and I’m a little ray of sunshine 
. It’s just interesting to me how we managed to get to such a good friendship. Understanding and compassion brought me closer to him. Showed me how much he does actually care.
I decided not to spread myself too thin over others ever again. Just me and my buddy 
So that’s what’s on my mind tonight I guess it was actually a good day
Better late than never.
9 months.
Congratulations 
So proud of you!! So awesome Mike 
Woo hoo! Congratulations @anon60334405 . You worked hard to get where you’re at and I’m really proud of you.
I just want to say thank you for this community.
I cannot quite believe that is today already 2 years of sobriety. I am proud a little bit although this slowly became my new normal: I don’t drink.
So much changed in these two years.
That’s amazing!! Congratulations 
your an inspiration
Well done! Two years is awesome.
So glad you are here. You’re also so supportive.
Amazing! Congratulations!!!
