Congrats mate, 9 months is awesome. Keep on keeping on ODAAT! 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Thanks for your support! It really does feel like a big family here, I’m previliged to be a part of it.
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This thread wouldn’t be the same without you, you inspire more than you’d ever know.
Blessings and sobriety my favorite sober friend!
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Thank you for your words!
I can accept, that she cannot accept me. My father doesn’t accept me either, but he does it gently and considerately and it’s completely ok for me.
What hurts is that she hurts me with her words and thoughts. She is assuming so many bad things about me. She thinks, that I’m ruining my kids’ lives by being myself and I do it deliberately, I don’t care about them. That they are or will be traumatized because they are raised by me.
Maybe she loves me somehow. In her way. She loves me, but… And there is always a ‘but’. It’s not unconditional. It’s not a love what another person needs. It doesn’t give freedom, freedom to feel what you feel, to be who you are even, if the other party cannot accept it. Freedom is the foundation of love and I don’t have it in our relationship.
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@anon60334405 Congrats on 9 months!
@WCan Congrats on 50 days!
53 days.
I’ve had an emotional day.
So Prince went back to the vets to have the rest of his teeth removed today, well that was the plan anyway …but I got a call around 1:30pm to say the during surgery, his jaw became unstable so they had to wire it and stop the procedure. So thankfully they manage to remove all the back teeth, the main culprits, and his top row of front teeth, but he still has his 4 canines and his lower front teeth, and a wired jaw! Honestly, I did not cope well this afternoon while I was waiting to collect him, my disordered mind was catastrophizing it and telling me he wasn’t going to want to eat and then he’d die of starvation and he was going to look injured and I was going to burst into tears upon seeing him. Anyway, we are home now, the wire sticks out about a centimetre downwards from under his chin, I hope it doesn’t catch on things considering it has to be in place for 6 weeks. The vet said although it’s rare to happen during dental work, it is seen commonly in cats who fall from Windows, so the wiring itself is a common practice and it should heal well. He seems irritated by it and keeps licking at his mouth, poor little guy, and he’s only allowed soft food for the next 6 weeks, then he’s back at the vets for the wire removal on 15th December and I’m really hoping this inflammation in his gums stops and his immune system stops attacking the remaining teeth, because if he has to have those removed at a later date I will be worried of today’s events repeating. The emotions I experienced this.afternoon were not a fun ride, my stomach was doing summersaults, I kept getting waves of hot lava going through my body. Since starting testosterone in 2014, I have only managed to cry a handful of times, it would have felt good today but it didn’t happen, I think I knew I needed to be strong for him. My poor baby 
I must also add that I am unbelievably grateful to have him home atleast, and he can have all the love he wants from me, as he always does. He’s restless at the moment and keeps wandering around sniffing everything and himself, then coming to me trying to rub his mouth on me bless him, it’s time to.give him his pain meds now so I’ll be off to do that.
Apologies for the long ramble, I just typed as I was thinking and it’s good to let it out. Grateful to be sober, though I’ll admit I did attempt to get McDonald’s today but thankfully their system was down and I took it as a sign to stick to my diet, came home and had a product, so I’m pleased about that too. I got through an emotional day without my unhealthy coping mechanisms 
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Checking in. Stressful day. But I’m not drinking.
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I really hope the the elections will end peacefully. 
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Thank you. and that is some really scary stuff happening, I’m happy you are managing through them sober, so is your kitty man. He is able to get his full proper care and your attention that he needs, congrats on your 53 days. Super proud of you
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Day 57: I am so grateful to be sober! That is my focus today, in addition to what I shared on the thread about staying sober on Election Day. I spent some time catching up here, and am happy to see so many days racking up for folks.
@Penguin I was so shocked and saddened to hear about the attack in Vienna. Sending you and the city healing and loving vibes.
@Clarity 100 is wonderful. I am sorry that depression is visiting you for the time being. It sounds like you’re not strangers, so hopefully you can take some time to sit with it but use what has worked for you to send it on its way soon. I hope you can come here for support when you need it.
@marcusmaximus2000 Congrats on 300 days/43 weeks!!!
@anon60334405 rock on with your 9 months!
@anon12657779 and you with your 2 years!
@Englishd and you with your 3! Hot damn! Sometimes I wish there was a button to flag a post when I want to see your response to someone on here…
@M-be-free49 I hope that being close to your mom for a while will help. I’ll be thinking about you. I have never snowshoed before, but I am shopping for some…if you have any suggestions, I’d welcome them! It’s part of my “embracing the wintertime” mission this year.
@Dragonflygirl82 Congrats on your shop opening, and on your mindset of reducing the negativity in your life. It’s so important.
@TMAC thanks for the monumental share, and I especially appreciated what you said about putting yourself into positions both in action and mindset for those opportunities to reach you. This has been on my mind a ton, and putting thoughts into action is where I am right now.
@CapriciousCapricorn thanks for your response about needing to be heard to heal. That is so on point! I appreciate you!
TS Fam, I am grateful for this forum today and everyday.
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Well done my friend. You fought hard for this milestone so enjoy it! Keep on killing bro
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Can you call your sponsor? I’ve heard it a lot here but it is true, feelings pass. Call that cute little buddy of yours!
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Goodnight everyone.
And to those of you who are American, I hope that things go peacefully enough with your election.
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Just wanted to check in with you guys
Today was good
Took a nap 
and now dinner is in the oven 
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explosions and poses and 100 days, shit don’t get better than this. (Disclaimer - it does, trust me)
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And how you doing really?
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Hoping we will be able to go visit the pups tomorrow and confirm things… They were expecting to have more so I guess it just depends if they have promised them to anyone else. Figners crossed! Although it would be January before we could bring one home, so it can have 8 - 10 weeks with mum. Will definitely update when I have news!
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Fingers crossed for ya!
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Thank you, it would be nice to have a win at the minute!
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