Reading stories like this always help me in my struggle with cravings - thanks for sharing!
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Day 95 Drugs and Alcohol
44… S.A
Soo something tells me that what comes next isnt going to be easy… So I had a phone call this morning and in the post I’ve had two appointments one is for a CT scan and the other is a neurologist (both next week, rushed through) Something that I thought was going to be finished once I had my operation actually isn’t. Everything is running through my mind right now! Today is going to be a minute by minute kind of day, I can feel the scared and Anixety part of me starting to take over, old coping ways feel just on the edge of being my way through this. I dont have that person to lean on right now… When will life give me that fucking break… Or is it just my time to just break.
I know we all have our challenges and normally I plow through with seizing the positives but I can’t today. I just want a break from life right now… There’s no one here to hold my fucking hand.
I deserve to have no one right now I know this but I want somebody fighting my corner this time.
Fucking gutted this curveball isn’t one I can’t see the outcome right now!
I’ll be flicking through everyone’s numbers and there recovery because I know so many have had crap life situations and they overcame them!
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You don’t have to be positive about it, but you have to go through this. One step after another. Just concentrate on the next step, just one step forward at a time. There will be better times. Wait for it.
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Day 620
I’ve pretty much not left the house for 3 days so really had to force myself to get out. Glad I did tho, I do feel a bit better for it.
Have a good day folks.
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An hour away from day 86, stayed up late grading papers and endlessly checking a blue and red map. I am helping out a friend by walking her dog while she is away so gotta be up early tomorrow to do it b4 work but awake. My husband bought me a nice jumper from a second hand shop today, which was thoughtful. He was instrumental in causing my son’s meltdown over his lego earlier, which was less than desirable. Aah, the minutiae of sober life.
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I’m sorry you had that unexpected challenge come up but you will get through it. I like what @Tomek said, that is a great sentiment that you don’t have to be positive but you do have to navigate the new challenge.
Keep us posted; I sincerely hope everything turns out okay and I’ll keep you in my thoughts. You are strong as hell and you will handle this with grace, I know it! The good thing is you’re able to approach the new hurdle with a sober mind 
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Day 145 clean and sober today. I have the day off today and I’m loving it! Going to get back in the gym, I’ve gained back 7.5 pounds gross 
lol… I just have to do what I was doing before and I will be back feeling better like I was physically, mentally and spiritually. Have a great day everyone, love you guys!!! 
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Congratulations 
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Loneliness has been getting to me lately. As a drinker i always had someone wanting to hangout. But i cant be near alchohol and when i was drinking i never liked being around sober people. Just in a funk that I’ll soon be out of hopefully
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Checking in sober, Day 302. Not fun being in the US right now awaiting election results to be final. The old me would be day drinking to escape the stress (then, depending on the results, drinking to escape the outcome!) Sober me… well, I admit to stress eating leftover Halloween candy for breakfast this morning 
but at least I’m SOBER! Wishing everyone a safe and sober day!!!
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I can totally relate to the asking my significant other if they wanted to drink so I could get the go ahead to drink lol, proud of you for hanging in there and being strong!!!
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In your corner Danni! We all are.
You will get through this because you is fooking strong girl!
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Lil sis you have some of the best wisdom and advice around here. I’m amazed at your ability to empathize with others pain and your ability to love others through it. Really proud of the person you are and are becoming! Lots of love and respect have a great day!!!
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yeah chocolate in general bc I’m getting fat but it’s pointless really bc there are lots of cakes and biscuits that don’t have chocolate in them. it’s that addict in me if I open the packet I have to eat the whole lot. 
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Damn! Good job you! 
Good to see! Always have hope.
Edit: I found this heartwarming considering Delonte was found pan handling when Mark heard about it. I think it’s great that he took the time to find him and help him.
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Yes! Go you!!! I love the pix too!
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Day 46 for me! Feeling good about it. Doing all the things therapy lady says I should be doing like meditating and sitting with my anxiety feelings and crap. Lol.
I have started exposure therapy for my phobias and it’s SO hard. I cry a lot but I’m doing it and eventually my life will be better for it. I know.
Also doing marriage counseling to iron out some kinks in communication with my husband. We figured we’d better just hit the ground running on that instead of waiting till it got too bad. I’m really hopeful that it will help.
I gotta tell you though all this freakin therapy feels like a full time job. lol. It’s hard to do all the work you really need to do and give it the time it needs for the at home work and still have a job and a life and not feel overrun by therapy. I guess in this moment I am thankful that we are social distancing and I’m spending more time at home that usual cause it IS giving me the time I need to work on this stuff.
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