nice one!!
I would spend less time on my body and more time on my mind. There’s nothing a matter with your legs if you can walk to the bar. It’s time for a good mental workout. I’m always about if you want to chat instead of a drink.
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@Dolse71 Thanks so much 
You are right I won’t be alone going through my inventory and I know it needs to be done… it just feels a bit daunting… plus my memory is shot from all the booze… I know i will get it all out though… and it will be nothing to drink over… Well wishes to you as you work your way through the steps 
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if you are trying to control your drinking you have already lost control. If you truly believe you are happy drinking a few times a month why are you on a sobriety app. Don’t lie to yourself my friend, you know the answer to that.
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That’s you that is 
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I have a crap memory to and told my sponsor I don’t dwell on the past, he said OK but let’s do it anyway and just write down the name of anyone who has pissed you off. I’m currently at over 100 
I’m laughing but I’m not joking, then he gave me a prompt sheet of things that aren’t people I know. 
Better grab myself that pen 
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Good morning! Day 41. Woke up feeling pretty lousy- I thought it might be allergies, but I think I actually have a head cold. Got on here to see how everyone is doing, and it’s a real bright spot! @PinkyP hit double digits today, which is awesome! @anon35096624 has two whole weeks! Well done! Congratulations on 200 days, @apes2020! Happy, happy birthday, @Mno!
I just want to say thank you to everyone on this app for being so welcoming and supportive. In my every day life, I have very little support for my sobriety. Alcohol is literally the family business (my family owns several bars/restaurants), and since taking a step away from that, I’ve learned how few true friends I really have. Being able to come here and read about everyone’s struggles and successes makes me feel a lot less awkward and alone in what I’m trying to accomplish, so thank you all!
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This is paradoxal. Sobriety is NOT about motivation at all. There is nothing to do with it. Internal motivation follows ACTION, not the contrary, especially in addictive behavior. If I’d waited for motivation to stay sober I’d have never done it. Because after 1-2-3 days sober when actively using, even if I had the “goal” to get sober, the motivation to drink will come wayyyy faster than the motivation to not pick up. It is just basic behavioral science: we are wired like this. We tend to be motivated to get to the easiest way out to get our dopamine fix, or in other words to get a “feeling good” or “better” feeling, even if it’s induced and temporary (the brain does not care).
Yesterday night I had one of a crazy craving - it wasn’t really a craving it was more like I watched a movie and after it I was visualizing myself drinking some of my favorite booze, I was seeing myself going to the store and chug some, I saw the thinking coming back like “No one cares if I drink” it will be alright… and let me tell you I had a TON of motivation to DRINK, and I had no motivation at all to stay in my bed and stay into that horrible feeling of not knowing what to do. I was afraid because I red on this forum about relapses story and it made me think that I could do the same thing, that I could do like I’ve done before, just to have the taste again, because it would be good and, because, how cares anyway? But instead of relying on motivation I relayed on my plan that I’ve put in place to stay sober - because I know that deeply I want to become the best person I can be for myself because that’s all that matter. And for that I have to stay sober. If I don’t I’ll loose myself again.
Today as I wake up I have the motivation to keep going that road I’ve chosen to take, because as I take action towards my goal, it reinforce the choices I make everyday, and so my capacity to choose from within my self. Fuck alcohol. I won’t let that shit choose anything for me again.
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Happy Birthday, Menno!!! 
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D97 D46
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Hope your birthday is as amazing as you!! 
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Good morning TS folks. 
Day 13 and it is a beautiful sunny fall day here. I have some things to keep me busy but not overwhelmed today. I’ve got somewhat of a plan laid out and I am going to stay positive and motivated. I’m so thankful for sobriety today. I feel clear headed and happy today. Have a fantastic sober Friday everyone!!!
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Day 147 clean and sober today. I’m tripping out on the fact that the things that have happened when I was a kid have given me a distorted view and sense of myself and the world around me. I could see it 100% in my relationship with Faith, the way I have to hold back saying or acting certain ways because I know it’s just me that’s being triggered by something in my past but it occurred to me that if my view is warped then it must be able to effect or skew every area of my life right? I had a horrible day at work yesterday but inside of my head. I was struggling so badly with thoughts of wanting to run away from work and that everyone is thinking I’m a horrible worker. I got home from work yesterday very depressed and the boss texted me and said I did a great job. I really need to work on maybe not taking my thoughts so seriously. When he said that my instinct told me he’s just saying that so I won’t quit because they’re making a lot of money off of me and I’m definitely not being paid what I should be. I don’t trust my perspective anymore and will just keep quiet and see what happens. Long rant and not sure if it even came out the right way. Have a great day everyone, love you guys!!! 
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Happy birthday Menno! You have been one of the best things to come from signing on to TS. Enjoy your day!
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Congrats on 200 days!!! 
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Not really one of the more traditional milestones and I know everyday is important, but this marks the most consecutive days of sobriety I’ve strung together since stumbling across TS last November. It’s definitely the most I’ve strung together in well over a year.
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Amazing work, keep pushing.
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Happy 300 days!! Sorry I am a little late but SUPER proud of youuu!!
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