Thank you for that. Like childbirth - you only remember the good parts, not the pain!
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@TSan Congrats on 40 days 
@anon35096624 Congrats on 2 weeks
@PinkyP Congrats on double digits!
@Mno Happy Birthday 
@aco998 Welcome and I hope your recovery goes well 
@apes2020 Woohoooo! Yay for 200 
@anon28001181 Congrats on your milestone
@Figgie Congrats on 70
56 days, so 8 weeks. It feels like soooo much longer though!
Managed one walk today, so an improvement on yesterday. Still very sad because I have a very sad cat that isn’t eating very much at all and showing no signs of being happy, I feel very lonely because he’s also staying away from me most of the time, whereas usually he’s my little shadow. It hurts a lot because I just feel like he’s really suffering and the vets should have taken better care of my baby 
I am mediating a lot more than usual, to keep my emotions at a tolerable level, but if this is how it’s going to feel for 6 weeks I don’t know what state I’ll be in by the end of it!
Had DBT this afternoon. We have a 2 week break now because of scheduling issues then we start the Emotional Regulation module.
Had my shot this morning, thankfully it was the side that doesn’t hurt too much.
I really want to feel better, but I’m working on acceptance that this is how it is right now, and for quite some time, so I just need to focus on taking it one day at a time.
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I needed to hear this. Was at 65 days for the first time ever and then started with an IPA, the next day more beer, next day it was wine… 5 days later 🤦… And now im struggling to get my first day back while the boyfriend is sitting here with a case of beer. I had decided to drink just one… But instead started scrolling through ST.
Thank you.
I think I will curl up in bed and read a book. 
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Thanks so much for the video!! You are soooo sweet. It really helped me yesterday! After I watched it I finally got out of the house and did some stuff (2 mile walk, stopped at a pond, donuts, teeny bit of yoga) and then woke up today feeling a lot better!! Its an uphill battle but just doing the little things helps a lot! I appreciate you!!
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I’m so sorry. I lost my best friend on Jan. 28, 2010. He died in a car crash, head on collision with a Coors beer truck, he was sober it was just bad weather. It took me a long time to heal, i even left some of his beer in my fridge in case he came back. I still miss his infectious laugh and kind heart.
You will slowly get better, most of you will move on because that’s what has to happen. A piece of you will be left with her i think because that exact relationship cannot happen with another person. My advice is to let the grieving process do its thing. Cry, sleep, repeat… just don’t use, it won’t fix anything, it’ll only make it worse. Hugs
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Dude. OMFG. I can’t even imagine. Wow I’m sorry
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Aww I am so sorry! Yeah, you totally get it!! Like, she brought out this side of me I didnt even know I had. She would have told you I am super outgoing and not shy at all like I think of myself. She was the very definition of FUN… So it makes me really sad when I think of what I lost in that person who made me feel so special and happy.
People like that dont come around often! I guess I should just be grateful for the 7 years I had with her but that doesnt make me miss her any less.
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yeah and we don’t talk about fight club. 
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Checking in on day 1. Back on track. It was bad having hangover all day long, now it’s a bit better. I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow to have a fully sober, hangover-free day again. I will lot more appreciate my sober days than ever before.
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Thank you @Dan53 I appreciate that. Sometimes I’m surprised myself with all that’s happened. It doesn’t get better it just gets different as in the intensity of the feelings if that makes sense. Have a great day today Dan thanks again. 
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Day 60: I am so enjoying this lovely weather! My mind keeps trying to push in thoughts of all the things on my to-do list, and at the end of the day yesterday I had a few thoughts of not having accomplished enough tasks lately or done all that I had planned, but today I choose to enjoy my time at a natural pace, which is a bit slower. I have a hearty thyme plant in a pot on my back porch which I’ve just trimmed branches off to dry and store. I decided, why not, I’m going to take a chance on it and plant it out front rather than throw it away in the lawn waste bin. The tag says perennial and hardy to -30 F. I probably should have planted it sooner, but like everything else for me at the moment, there’s no time like the present. My past self was stuck in what if’s, fears and anxieties, but the longer I work on my recovery, the more I am able to manage those feelings. I am excited to be in developmental mode, happy to be working on myself and addressing the challenges while moving toward opportunities. It’s not all shiny, but it’s all me, and I’m good with that. Happy to see people here, taking each day as it comes.
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I’ve gotta be quick bc I gotta get in a meeting but before I go… 60 days is huge and I for one have loved watching your journey. So proud of you over here and would like to wish you one more blessed sober day. 
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- Headed to Ms.
’s house after work. Baking an apple pie and a cake. Then we are headed to her daughters for a celebration. Today makes 1 full year of life for her daughter. A year ago her daughter tried to commit suicide. My yearly sobriety anniversary also marks a similar thing for me. So I get her wanting to celebrate. Should be a fun and emotional night.
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I absolutely love this. What a wonderful way to remove the shame that one can carry and turn it into a celebration of living and love.
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So sorry to hear about your friend. Addiction takes close friends too early. It is a terrible affliction. My thoughts are with you.
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