Certainly is bc the blanket will not come to you, if you want comfort you have to get of your arse and reach out and take it. Once you have it let it embrace your body and soul and never let go. You’ll never be alone in the cold and dark again.
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That’s beautiful, Paul. 
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Day 64: I’ve felt the need to take a break from internet again and get grounded. I meant to come back yesterday and spend time responding to folks, but time escaped me and now I’m just here to check in, click on some 
s and boogie on out for some self care. Been thinking about hypothetical situations and drinking, futurecasting (as the meteorologists like to say these days) and struggling with the idea of never drinking again. Been thinking about TS family more, though. It amazes me that this family has grown to be important in my life and recovery. Big love to you all.
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Been thinking about hypothetical situations and drinking, futurecasting (as the meteorologists like to say these days) and struggling with the idea of never drinking again. Been thinking about TS family more, though. It amazes me that this family has grown to be important in my life and recovery.
I relate to much of this. Glad to know I’m not alone 
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Paul - you’re one of the folks I wanted to express gratitude for. Thank you for being such a reliable and supportive fella on TS! I’ve read your posts pretty much since I joined over a year ago and I’m so happy to see your progress. You always seem to know just what to say and when to say it. 
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Oh gosh!! 
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Lol! But honestly? You are a huge inspiration to me. Thank you. (Cutie 
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@Dolse71 Congrats on 50 days! 
60 days clean from Cocaine 
I am actually overjoyed by this milestone, I wasn’t expecting to feel any sense of accomplishment until I hit 90 as I relapsed on day 88 last time, so it’s a very welcome feeling to have a sense of achievement.
I found it really hard again but managed both of my walks today, so that’s good too but my heel is hurting so much, I think it might be time to get the steroid injection my GP offered as this hasn’t let up in 2 months now. Might ice it before I sleep.
I took Prince back to the vets today because he hasn’t pooped for 8 days. At first I wasn’t overly worried because he didn’t eat for 3 days, but he’s eaten his wet food and plenty of tuna since Friday and still hasn’t been. He has lost 0.5kg in the last week, but I’m still not allowed to feed him any dry food, and he usually eats a lot of that and it’s full of fibre so I think his system is missing it. He hadn’t drank in a week but did last night finally. The vet said she couldn’t feel any signs of constipation so he must be going elsewhere, but I’ve searched my apartment and there is no poop anywhere! I’m glad I took him regardless, because it’s surely the right thing to do, but I am praying he leaves me something in the litter trays soon 
The other positive thing is the vet checked how his mouth was doing and said it’s all a healthy colour now and things are looking good, so that’s reassuring after everything he’s been through.
I really concentrated and read some of the book I’m reading today, it made me feel good. It’s Meredith Bell’s book about a sober year, and it’s got something for each day. Positivity.
I have a viewing on my flat on Thursday, and a video call booked with a pain therapist on Friday. Tomorrow, I will clean 
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I know what you mean but then I remember how hard it has been to get one whole day so now I am grateful for every one. I’m also well aware that this can all be gone in a heartbeat and may never return again.
On that basis I am genuinely as proud of you today as I was for you on day 9. Well done 
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Day 134.
Day 133 got away on me - worked late into the night, the early morning, on assignments that don’t feel like work. It’s a nice feeling, and I crashed into bed without checking in.
Will be have to be careful to not use my courses (and work busy-ness) as a way of numbing from the things I know I need to make time to feel. Need to take the time to journal, do my yoga, and check in here. I know how important this place is especially - I’m sure I wouldn’t have 134 Days if it weren’t for this TS family to show up to, to be supported by.
Grateful for all of you. 
And excited about your milestones! Congrats @anon28001181 on 90 days and @Ravikamor on 5 months and @Rockstar24777 on 150 days and @PinkyP on 2 weeks!
@apes2020 and @Charlie_C You’re not done fighting yet. We’re right here with you.
@Dragonflygirl82 omg the egg story. 
i’m so sorry but that was my best laugh of yesterday! what have you got against eggs!? i love how you can laugh at yourself. you’re beautiful - inside and out.
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Oh man you’re so lucky. I LOVE flagstaff.
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Been thinking about hypothetical situations and drinking, futurecasting (as the meteorologists like to say these days) and struggling with the idea of never drinking again.
I’ve heard it said “My mind is a dangerous neighborhood, it’s better I don’t go in alone”. And this is why, all the future thinking is a trap I set to make sure I fail.
When I was being investigated by the state police as part of reinstating my revoked drivers license, the captain asked me “So, you’re never going to drink again? Not even at your child’s wedding, just one champagne toast?” I told him that I could not promise to never drink again. But it is not on my agenda, staying sober is the central principle of my life, and I’m not drinking today. That was 12 years ago and it’s still true. And my license was reinstated, so happy ending on that one!
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So what’s up now? Let’s make a plan.
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Day 109 check in!
I feel like I am moving slower than molasses today and I have sooo much to get done. Its days like today I miss Adderall which I havent missed in forever up until recently… I have suddenly noticed Ive been fantasizing about it. Ive just felt so distracted like I cant focus and lazy. I dont even have ADD. Oh well. 11 months clean of Adderall and I swear I am never going back ever. That shit was sooo bad for me and I know it.
I have till tomorrow to get this whole 3bdrm house ready for the next guest to arrive so I have plenty of time. I am just going to drink more coffee and pray that cup #3 does the trick. Hope you all have a great sober day! Proud of each and every one of you!!
Congrats @CATMANCAM on 60 days!! Thats amazing!! I hope poor kitty is better soon!
@CapriciousCapricorn Thanks!! I hope you feel a glimmer of joy today knowing how loved you are by everyone here!! 
@apes2020 Glad you are still here!!
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Haha thank you, that means alot 
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Checking in, day 5. I was at my shrink today, had a great session, talked more than ever before, which is a big achievement for me. I gave myself a day off, but still feeling really tired, it’s probably seasonal. Also my tooth became sensitive and my cheekbone hurts for about a week now, I have to take pills. I should probably see the dentist, but I hate to go to the doctors’. I couldn’t bring myself to see a doctor even when I got pissed off, kicked the wall and broke my toe. I know, that it will just get worse and worse, but arrgh… don’t want to do it.
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Omg… we are having the same day! Just about to make cup #3 myself. Let’s hope it kicks in is right. (I am light years away from setting a caffeine counter. sorry peeps!)
And even if we don’t get it all done? It’s all good when we end the day sober. 
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Looking good ! What’s the ratio oatmeal/peanut butter ? I’d like to do some with protein powder inside to make some protein cookies 
I like peanut butter too much.
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You always crack me up M!! Yes, even if we just sit and watch the grass grow at least we are sober.
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