No problems with the Bills here! Glad to see them doing well after so many years of struggle. Josh Allen is a hell of a QB and fits into the Buffalo culture so well.
There I don’t agree. At least after my experiences. There were no other problems that I was able to solve before getting sober. No way. It was not possible. My mind was busy scheduling how and when to organise the booze or how to manage finally dying. Nothing could be done, nothing lasted in the foggy mind that was poisend with alcohol.
F****, my mother just asked me whether I would come home for Christmas. I haven’t been home for Christmas the last 3 years and it was soooo good. This year is different, of course, due to the pandemic, I won’t be able to go to the ashram where I was the last 2 years. And I know that we will clash, that it won’t work. She will try to manipulate me as it was the last time end of July at the birthday of my grandma. I am the black sheep and she has nothing to do with it whatsoever. And me trying to change, make things work, won’t work.
My grandma’s are 89 and 95 and I have a bad conscious already. That bad conscious is f*** part, the glue that sticks our family together.
I am not feeling good about it. I wrote her that normally I don’t plan to come. I feel bad about it and I know exactly how I will feel when I go. Even worse.
Drink plenty water
Checking in, day 10. Another day went by when I didn’t text my friend - yay! It’s harder than not to drink at the moment. I’m still very sleepy, went for a run, it was drizzling so I was almost alone on the hill, it was very cozy. I also worked a bit, but I’m a big procrastinator, Tuesday is the deadline, so of course I postponed the main part to tomorrow. Homeschooling will be probably over from Wednesday, because schools will partly reopen, my son can go to the kindergarten as well, so from mid-next week hopefully I will be able to focus better on my job.
you can post when drunk just use the seeking help section that way people know your current situation and will be more lenient if you get mouthy. Helps if you actually do want help though bc I doubt your helping anybody, including yourself, by coming on here every day saying you are drinking. Reach out if you need to it’s what we are here for, I’m more than willing to point you in the right direction but you have got to want this not just play at it.
Huge congrats for getting that first week out and the way. Seems so far away at the start doesn’t it but one day at a time and it’s amazing where we find ourselves.
There is a seeking help thread i think. It seems like everyday i come on here you’re on day 0 or 1 which tells me whatever you’re doing isn’t working. Time to try something different maybe? Maybe treatment center would be good. In any case i hope you find a way out of your active addiction.
Congratulations on 9 months Courtney!
tattoo this post on your forehead and read it every morning when you look in the mirror. write it in reverse or it won’t work You CAN do this.
NEVER going to see 7 again, unless it’s part of a bigger number.
That’s the attitude
Checking in November 15 2020
Its a very gloomy greyish day today in my town
Doesnt stop me and the wife to take our pittie out to the park everyday is a good day when you get to be above ground god bless everyone have a great one
Yeah and while doing so create your own thread so we know where to go to if we want to get triggered by someone who laughs at people advices on sobriety on a sobriety forum. Until then why don’t you wait another day without drinking before coming here. Or go on the seeking help section. Nobody here have a goal to be a DayOner. We looking for a place to recover. Again, come back when you’ll be in recovery, not laughing at peoples recovery.
A statement like this just shows sobriety is a joke to you. The rest of us are taking sobriety seriously.
I mean no harm and seriously wish you’d be well. But not at the price of laughing at people advice here especially if you drank today. I am currently working hard myself today and you’re just there pretending it’s ok to be a day-oner guy? Come on man. That’s not the way it works. Go watch a movie, take a nap, have a popcorn and come back with you head clear and your mind open.
Thank you @Dan531, @WCan, @Dolse71, and @Lisa07. I didn’t want to get involved, but the last post from @zzz is troubling, and could cause a lot of instability for many of us.
This is a community where we all seek, and provide, support. In doing so, I try not to speak against anyone, unless I feel others, or myself, could be in harm’s way by reading a post.
If you are not taking responsibility for your sobriety, @zzz, no one else can or will for you. Please do what others have asked, and use the Seeking Help thread until you are here to contribute to our collective sobriety. It’s one day at a time, yes, but the idea and the goal is that we repeat that movie, every day, and our struggles become part of a beautiful sober life.
I wish you well.
Day 355. It is so helpful to me to check this thread and know this forum is always here. I get overwhelmed with how long it is to check through and how many people are on, but I’m truly grateful to all of you for being here and being on your awesome journeys to be better.
Today is the funeral of a high school teacher of mine who was really important to me. She had breast cancer. She was a very good teacher. I remember her intervening in a toxic situation I was in with another girl, both of us worried about grades, and the teacher managed to acknowledge both our feelings, and help us get beyond our anxieties. She said, in life, all you need to be good at is being yourself. I’m thinking of her today, and how she was good at being her, and she helped others be themselves, their best selves, too. It’s a beautiful thing.
I’ve had a handful of resets myself. One thing that i know is that a real honest run at sobriety takes everything out of a person, half assed attempts make a real shot much harder. We can either be a reminder or an example for others on here. I would strongly suggest using the seeking help thread. We all wish you well.