Thanks for the tips! Never heard about the adrenaline compensation, but that makes a lot of sense. Have never been a good sleeper, so I will try ALL of it! Mental exhaustion is plenty, thank you very much - jeesh.
LOL too much anxiety over Theo quitting.
I love this Marc. Thank you.
I been reading a lot and following what @Tommo was saying about posting bullshit. And the responses. None of it is bullshit. I guess Tommo actually said rubbish. Iāve been wanting to chime in but lately Iāve been having trouble expressing my feelings. And kind of feeling the same way as you Tommo. But when I share my feelings I feel it is to help me. And of course if it helps someone else thatās just gravy.
Right now Iām struggling. But Iām not going to pick up over it. But I feel like I canāt post about it. Iām struggling with thoughts of the pandemic and the destruction of our American democracy. But I feel Iām not allowed to post the political part. I donāt want to get into any political debates. Iām not good at it. And then @anon12657779 will pop in and tell me about the serenity prayer. 
Which I appreciate Geoff. I really do. But I am still having a hard time accepting the things I cannot change. I cannot accept the 250,000 plus dead Americans and more to come. And our government does nothing but keep it politicalized. I hope I feel better after sharing this. And if any other people out there are struggling with this your not alone.
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Day 117 check in!
Just made chocolate chip pancakes into funny faces with whipped cream and cherries and then danced around the living room to Christmas music with my 2 year oldā¦ today is off to a good start!
I also woke up at 5 am and completed a yoga classā¦ who dis???
None of this would have been possible with a hang over and I feel very happy and filled with joy this morning. 
Hope you all have a great SOBER day!
Congrats on 90 days!! @Nicole_Brame_Weaver 
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Iām in the background dancing somewhere. Well done on your 90 days sober 
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Thatās just awesome. I can picture that. For me it wouldāve been 28 years ago. But I can picture you/me dancing to Christmas songs with my 2 year old. Iām going to sign off TS now after reading your joyous story. You so deserve this. Keep dancing Pdebs. They grow up so fast.
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Aww! That would be so fun! There is plenty of room on this dancefloor! 
I really feel like I am living the life todayā¦Hope you have a good one!! Thanks for always being so encouraging to us all.
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Iāve been having a lot of relapse dreams lately. Theyāre usually where I drink by āaccidentāā¦ and then half a glass in, I suddenly remember that Iām sober now and Iām so disappointed in myself. But last night was a whole other deal. I dreamt that I went to a coworkers wedding and got so drunk that I couldnāt find my car and wound up walking home the next morning 
Iām not sure what these dreams mean? If they even have a meaning? They are a bit alarming because I havenāt had relapse dreams since the first couple months. Perhaps itās just a reflection of the world today and feeling out of control. Gratefully, I feel secure in my sobriety and going into my first holiday season sober, I no longer feel like Iāll be missing out.
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Congrats, @Nicole_Brame_Weaver on the Big 
Days 
Yes, you made it!! Use this accomplishment to draw strength when you need it to accomplish what is next for you!
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I know all about procrastinating but for me writing, be it for school or for work, takes lots of time. It takes also a lot of time not actually writing but thinking about it, or not even that, just, well, sort of procrastinating really. I canāt just sit down and write something. I need time and quite a lot of it. As an aside, exactly this always made it very hard for me to put a price on an article I wrote. How much time did I spend to write it? The couple of hours I actually was writing or the days I spend procrastinating? Same goes for writing here too btw. It takes time. Isnāt something similar happening with you Jenna?
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Got a lunch break and got the idea of drinking secretly. It really pisses me off. Iām pretty sure itās the weather. The cold is back here and a new season means new associations with alcohol. Also Iām tired, had hard time falling asleep last night. Just needed to vent.
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Haha! You are right! Just so we dont find him in St Louis or Milwaukee!
Totally agree.
I was just pointing that sometime people put pressure on themselves to be positive and this pressure is sometime adding weights to their problems. Sometime you just feel like shit and got to validate that feeling before trying to add the pressure of being positive over that feeling of shit. Having hope of faith may be different then being positive i think.
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@WCan, I get pissed off when the consideration of drinking secretly even enters my mind. Iām not sure if thatās what you meant. But if it is, I sure can relate. You mentioned a few reasons why you might have been feeling that way. The concerning thing for me is, often there is no reason that I can think of as to why I would want to drink secretly or at all. Reading that makes me bust myself before even postingā¦of course there is a reason. For me, heading off the reason at the pass keeps me out of trouble. For the most part. It is those times I gave to look back after the fact and admit I should have seen it coming. OKā¦now I think Iām ramblingā¦
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And might I add. Today I am not going to drink. Tomorrow I will be happy that I didnāt.
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Yes that is exactly what I mean. The thoughts just pop up and thatās it, Iām frustrated. I know itās normal. How many times Iāve done that (drink) compared to the times I havenāt? A lot of days and seasons shall pass before I overcome those reflexes. But man itās heavy this week.
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Iām down to my lowest weight in YEARS!! Iām so excited and motivated. I think the lack of beer is finally showing some rewards, lol.
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