Thank you! 
Maybe we have to meet some day when Covid is gone and the sun is shining. Would be nice to see you in person.
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We could have a walk. Sounds nice!
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Checking in, day 33. Yesterday I still felt depressed I was sick, had fever, so I thought, this is the perfect time to tell my best friend, that I have a crush on her. Yes, Iām THAT stupid.
We were chatting and she told me about other guys so I stopped her and told her that I feel more towards her than I should as her friend, that Iām really sorry and had no other intention than forgetting her (romantic-wise). But at the moment itās hurtful for me to read her stories about others. She handled it very well, our friendship is the most important for both of us, so now we will keep distance for a while while still communicating occasionally, and later we will just catch up, where we left off.
I guess we got closer to each other than ever and for me personally itās a great feeling to put this burden off my shoulders, that I donāt have this secret any more. I felt really bad as a friend and as a spouse to have this emotion. Now that I told it, it will be easier to let it go.
I had to close this chapter so that I can work on moving on, focusing my real life and present days.
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Then we have a deal! 
Love to hike
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That is beautiful!!!
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Well done for being open and honestā¦ That is a brave step esp as she is your best friend. I hope the time apart helps you to heal and move forward. X
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Yes, I will miss her so much as a friend as well. But Iāve tried everything else, because I didnāt want to endanger our relationship, but that didnāt work out, so I had no other option left I guess.
But Iām really glad, that sheās not mad at me, we could talk about it as real friends and it didnāt distance us.
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Happy Birthday Mr Misikatsu.
Blessings and sobriety dear!
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Thank you! Iām very happy with it too, still a few sessions to go. No pain, no gain 
First week sober, A huge thank you to everyone posting here 
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D. 7 tobacco
D. 991, alcohol. I dont remember waking up and instantly craving a drink. As soon as I opened my eyes, I was wanting some nicotine. Not going to give in. Little meditation, some prayerā¦then get ready for work
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Panic mode setting in!
I have a social distance conference where Iām a guest speaker I used to do well at speaking because I was on some form of drugā¦ This is going to be my first time speaking drug free my fucking nerves and my stomach are all over the place!
Can I go fucking hide under the quilt anybody got any tips?!!
I seriously think Iām gonna crap myself in front of people. This was booked last year.
I have this belief that Iām better on the drugs then off them, its always been my secure blanket for things I just canāt do!
Do you think if I cancel now Iāll get away with itā¦ Anybody got a fever or a sickness bug (not corna) they can spread!!!
š¤¦ Iām done.
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You can do it! You THINK you did it better on drugs, actually sober you can prepare, etc, and actually learn skills from the experience. Donāt give in before you even try!
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You can do it girl! If you can do it on drugs you can do it clean. I never presented pissed or stoned - itās too much like hard work. And you will feel great afterwards. Just remember to breath and pace yourself. Go knock their socks off! 
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Day 309. So after work, I went and did some more Christmas shopping after work for my beautiful girls. This is gonna be the first Christmas I didnāt scramble for gifts, Iām actually trying. Iām not being selfish, I didnāt look at a damn thing for myself itās all about my girls. It feels goodā¦ I stayed up for like 30 hours lol. @Rockstar24777 hope your having a good day manā¦ @anon27760155 you got this girl, I get that feeling of worry but youāll do greatā¦ I see alot of newcomers on here so welcome to all of you hope everyone has a good day.
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Checking in December 8th 2020
Hello Morning we meet again with ice cold wind i can see my breath as i inhale exhale this is going to be an AMAZING DAY because i choose to make it just that i understand now sober the mindset is a powerful tool and right now i choose to be amazing for an amazing day working with amazing people LETS GOOOO !!! 
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Danni, stop worrying. I know itās easier said than done but treat this like sobriety. Break it down to being in each minute and do what you need to do to get you to the next moment.
You are not in that moment yet are you? Donāt waste your energy on it now!
Itās a technique Iāve used to get me through some times when anxiety would have crippled me.
We tend to waste too much energy worrying about things and when we actually get there we donāt have to energy to actually be our best.
If you have done this before, doesnāt matter if you were drugging or not, you have done it before.
Clear your mind and just concentrate on the here and now!
And you have got this girl. I know you have. Youāre strong.
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Thank you Conor!
#workinprogress
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