Checking in Daily to Maintain Focus #22

Great job getting that week under your belt! And a strong way to start your second weekend. Congratulations.

“I haven’t stated my non-drinking stand out loud.”
I waited a few weeks before telling the wife about this TS App. And that I was going to get support this time. We had a great conversation about it. She’s still drinking. A lot. But she is very supportive. I guess I wanted to make sure I could get in a few sober weeks before I told here.
Have a nice sober weekend. Your worth it.
:pray:t2::heart:

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You are definitely worthy of care and love and all things beautiful. Great job on your 120 days. You are definitely worth it.
:pray:t2::heart:

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I’m so sorry to hear you relapsed. Definitely rest. You will pick yourself back up. I know it. Sometimes it happens, but practice makes perfect and we are all here for you. Sending good thoughts your way. You can do this. I believe in you.

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How are you all keeping busy during quarantine? My state just entered another complete lockdown. I’ve been working from home full time since March and I live alone. I know I’m lucky to have that option but I’m struggling mentally.

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I have never caused too much damage from my drinking. Well, physically to my body probably more than I know. But my relationships are fine. I function fine. Not a day drinker. Sure, hubby noticed, but… Maybe I am in denial, but I feel it is my own healing, not OUR healing, I need, at least for now. Of course, I first found this app 4 years ago. And now only 7 days. So there is that.
Sorry, just mumbling!

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Awwww you’re the sweetest person in the world @M-be-free49 I feel your sadness from here. I’ve been having the same thoughts lately so I can totally relate to what you’re going through. I hope that you have sweet dreams and wake up feeling better. Have a good night lil sis. :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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Day 171 clean and sober today and I am feeling lost. The doctor wrote me off for a week from work to allow my back to have a break and I’ve been thinking about what to do with my job. I in fact have caught the boss in a couple lies and I will not tolerate lies or deception in my life today. I interviewed for a job that wants me to start training tonight and it’s night shift from 2:00pm-11:30pm and working weekends. I felt unsure about it because of the hours and on the way home my transmission started slipping again and I’m not sure I can make it to work and back. I can take the bus there but there’s no busses running that late to get back home. I don’t know if that was a sign or not. I feel like I’m making my life more complicated and failing at trying to figure out what to do. I’ve heard it said that when you don’t know what to do be still and don’t do anything and I think that’s what I may need to do. I’m trying to do the right thing for myself for once but I don’t know which way to go so maybe I should just lay low like the doc wants me too for the week and let the answers come. If you guys have any suggestions or ideas I’d really appreciate it. Have a great day everyone, I love you guys! :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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I didn’t drink it I threw it away, I know all where it will lead me period, before I’d even put it to my lips I was planning the great escape in my head to the nearest drug score hense why it was chucked down the drain been there a million time before, thank god I have enough recovery in me to see it for what it is ALOAD OF BULLSHIT

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I meant to give you a big huge friggin shout out and congrats on your 2 months man. Super super proud of you.

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First time posting in almost a year… I’m back and 5 days sober from alcohol. Accountability is what I need, so here I am! Love and light✌

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Still day 5 here. Made a long walk instead of drinking. Still mixed feelings, but more confident. Looking really forward to have another good sleep and awakening. Tomorrow in the early morning I will go to a beautiful market in the middle of the forest to buy salad, chicken and bread for my beloved boyfriend, who wants to hurry up to me not this evening, but tomorrow morning. So the fog of unhappiness is slightly disappearing. The circumstances haven’t changed. But my attitude to deal with has changed a little bit. Alcohol would have lead me to the well known black whole of self-pity.
Thank you for listening.

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70 days :raised_hands:t2:

Every day that ends sober is a blessing, but it sure does feel extra good each time I rack up another 10 on my day counter :blush:

I’ve managed 2 walks today, they were painful but felt so good, despite the cold and rain, just feels more rewarding that I’ve got myself out there meeting my exercise committment for the day.

Had interview #1 today, I was very nervous beforehand but it wasn’t actually too bad, there was one question I completely blanked on and couldn’t answer, but the rest came easily. It’s my back-up option and I’d prefer the recovery related role and will definitely be more prepared for interview #2 on 1st Dec. :crossed_fingers:t2::pray:t2:

So here we are at another weekend, I’m so grateful that Fridays are no longer an issue, they haven’t been for some time now. A friend of mine just told me shes just ordered loads of drugs for tonight because she wants to party. It was never fun for me though, it really was hell that I experienced in active addiction, it’s absolutely terrifying to think of ever being trapped there again. This is why I like to stick to my rountine, every single day, because it’s working :raised_hands:t2:

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You already answered my suggestion brother. If you don’t know what to do, don’t do anything… listen to your body. I absolutely hate my fucking job, it’s the easiest job I’ve ever had, with great benefits. I’m stuck as well, so for now I’m staying stuck and just not doing anything. Are paths will be answered in time, we still have alot of healig to do. Don’t make the healing more painful

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17079 congrata on 5 days

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If the old job isn’t bearable and to come home after work of the new job is that difficult, maybe there is a possibility to look for another third job?
I like the idea to do nothing, if you can’t decide now.

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Thanks Mike I really appreciate that and it makes sense. Have a great day :sunglasses::metal:t2:

Awesome thank you @Joyce19 that’s a great idea! I didn’t even think about a third option lmao wow I really appreciate this forum. Yes I don’t have to do this new job tonight and I have a week off from the other job so maybe instead of jumping in so fast I can take this week to heal and look at many other options. Thank you again so much!!! :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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Thanks man.

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Day 111

Having a lumber puncture sucks big time… But I’m not gonna pick up because sobrietys all I’ve got, I racked my brain for the positives and this is it for me… I have being clean my new happiness.

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Cheers Tommo, Fridays were always like that for me too, well, most days were really, but even when I’d pulled together a few clean days here and there in my attempts, it was always Fridays that caught me out, until it wasn’t :raised_hands:t2::muscle:t2: Enjoy your weekend too, there definitely is something calming and peaceful about sober Fridays, and I’m already in bed :sweat_smile: