Thank you Eric, hopefully he decides to turn his life around for the better. I try to lead by example and show them if they want what I got they have to do what I do. Happy, joyous and free… Having peace and serenity in my life is the only thing that matters. Staying clean and sober is the only pathway that allows that to exist in my life.
Just been extremely busy this time of year @Dazercat I have still been able to maintain my threads. I have not missed a single night posting on them… Sometimes I’m exhausted and it is definitely can seam like a chore at times to do but it helps keep me sober and someone might read something that will help keep them clean and sober. That’s a beautiful thing. 
now back to meme wars… lol 
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masks even outside?!, that must have sucked big time. We only have to wear them in shops here and they’ve somehow still found their way into my dreams :u
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I went to my usual womans AA meeting tonight followed by dinner with the ladies. I used to dread Saturday nights because that’s when I would get most cravings and now I can’t wait. How times have changed. It’s all about finding new and fun sober activities.
@Edmund…I truly believe you were meant to save that person tonight. Hopefully he takes advantage of having a second chance at life. We all have another relapse in us but not all of us have another recovery.
@Mno…I love watching you spruce up your place. You’re inspiring me to redecorate my house. How about a pic of your latest paint job?
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Day 35 no meth. Feeling pretty good. Haven’t been to a 12 step meeting in a few weeks though. I’d like to but I don’t really have anything to contribute and i’m not craving meth. I feel like my time is better focussing on my hobby/passion/job of writing music and re-establishing that as my main source of income. Having said that though, there will be a point down the line where i’ll be craving drug sex and will need the meetings/support network. Hope you’re all doing well.
@Joy well done on 500 days that’s huge 
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WOW $25k savings, that’s a real motivator right there.
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I honestly don’t know how I kept up my addiction as long as I did now that I see how much it was costing me. You’re right though, the savings is a huge motivator.
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Good morning from the artic circle! It’s been a while since I’ve checked in on this thread. Have been struggling with some things but day it’ll be day 86 for me.
But yesterday I heard some good news. It’s a bit long, so thank you if you make it to the end.
So when my mum who has Alzheimer’s, was in the hospital this summer she broke her hip. Now, because of the trauma that she went through, with dad’s death and the hip operation, she got what the doctor called a delirium. Apparently that’s quite common with geriatric folk especially with dementia issues, that after some kind of trauma, or operation this delirium can occur.
When I saw my mum this last summer, she was restless and her memory loss just got worse.
Today I called the nursing home she is in, just to ask how she is. They told me that she is doing really great! They said that she has made friends with the other residents and that she is a real sunshine of that place! The nurse told me that when she came to this nursing home from having spend some time in the hospital and then compared to what she is like now, it’s like night and day. Even they are a bit baffled how that happened.
The nurse also told me that she has now settled really well in there and is actively involved with their daily things.
Obviously she still has the memory issues and needs help and asks a lot of questions on when’s meals and things.
But today as I got to talk with her a bit (we mostly talked about food and food times 
), the nurse said that he saw a smile on my mum’s face when I told her who I was. Obviously it is hard to say how much she actually remembers, but this is definitely some great news.
Now to me, this is a miracle that she is not suffering from the delirium any more. Also, I told one nurse friend of mine and she said that this is quite rare. This was the news I think I really needed to hear.
Anyhow, thanks for making it here. 
I hope everyone is doing well!
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Day 90
Haven’t checked in for a while. Not sure how I’ve been the last while. Know I can get quite agitated at things so I have to keep myself in check on that part, it’s mostly work stuff that causes it and there’s actually no need. When I actually think about it I realise there is no need for getting worked up, it’s all in my head
Have been reading and great to see people doing well, it’s also great to see people who may not be doing so well but still here, it’s important 
Do think about drinking every so often but that’s all it is, a thought.
Think I’ll head back in to the office after this week, some sort of normality
Have a great Sunday everyone 
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Thank you Conor! I’m over the moon!
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Just when I was feeling good about my back again (after that slight aggravation of it at the end of Sept), it’s gone out again. Worse this time. I didn’t even do anything. My last 3 workout cycles have been 6 weeks on, 1 week off. Just wrapped up week 6, and I finally felt I was ready to get back to 8-12 week cycles…lifts were going great, run times were actually moving back in the right direction. I’ve actually been really pleased with my fitness for once, I’m usually very self-critical. I’ve been in some of my best form in years. Today was going to be the start of week 7. Guess not.
Yesterday morning, woke up fine, felt great actually. Usually I stretch first thing. Scheduled day off from working out. Because of the time, I decided to take Chief to play ball first and then stretch when I got home. Pretty minimal activity needed on my part – I use one of those ball chuckers, so no bending over and it’s pretty much no effort to throw it. But, about a third of the way through, I knew I had done something. Progressively worse since. Have the dreaded lateral shift since everything on the left side of my lower back and pelvis is locked up. The muscles are so spasmed that I can’t even get the lacrosse ball in there on the SI joint, which is one thing that helps.
Its just so frustrating. I’ve moaned about it here before, but its been 3 years dealing with this and I feel like its taken such a toll on my mental health and quality of life. I spend HOURS tending to it each day, preventative stuff. Chronic injury really weighs on you after a while and the thought of having to live my life with this is daunting, especially if its progressive. The worst thing is that I get so irritable when its bothering me. I hate being that person. It already took away my speed, my ability to play soccer (my passion). I feel it just takes another chunk off me every time. I’m only 32, and my health is literally the number 1 priority in my life - I make NO sacrifices at the expense of my health. And yet, this is the hand I’ve been dealt.
Unrelated visit to my doctor next week, may ask for a new MRI since its been 2 years. Maybe focus more on the SI area instead of the lumbar, idk, I’m just trying anything.
I’ve taken a full month off from exercise before, once, but it didnt solve it. Its always just been a week or two otherwise. Part of me wants to try 3 months off, which is scary but who knows. Might be a good time since the gyms will probably be closing soon anyhow, running in the frigid cold sucks, and in the winter you can cover up so losing a bit of form isn’t as obvious. It’ll just be hard to do it, psychologically. I rely on my fitness stuff in so many ways, so going 3 months is really scary for me.
Anyhow. Could be worse. Just tired of it constantly beating me down, mentally and physically. I’m still relatively young, and like I said, I cut no corners on my physical health - so why am I unable to get back to normal, full health? Why can’t I get better?
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Praying for a quick recovery Courtney. Get lots of rest
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Good Morning! Two Weeks!
Last night was not the night the sleep kicked in. 4.5 or 5 hours. That’s not enough but I got up because I was just tossing about. I have too much homework and too in-depth for the way my brain is working this morning. Maybe I can find the magic sleep video that @Yoda-Stevie posted way back.
And speaking of that guy, every time I get in the shower, during sober stretches or otherwise, I always think about him saying, “The water doesn’t change, you do.” It’s brilliant. So, sleep or not, water too hot or too cold, I am changing, unfortunately much more slowly than my body adjusts to water temperature.
Onward and upward, my people!
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I feel every word of this post. I am a couple decades older, but have been struggling with my back for about 15 years and it is exhausting. I am sorry that you are going through this. It just sucks.
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- A piece if Chocolate cake, some bacon…that is a good breakfast right? Then off to Ms.
’s last radiation appointment.
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That is great to hear! My father suffered from that awful disease. All good news, however small it may be, is worth celebrating. 
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- Part 2. Got to put a pink ribbon on the tree, she is done with treatment. Praying that we never have to come back.
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That’s great news, Scott! May neither of you ever need to set foot in there ever again. Hope there’s some celebrating lined up for today.
Here’s to many years of health and happiness for you both.
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Thank you so much! It definitely is an awful disease - sorry to hear about your father.
Oh yes, I’m glad of this news, because ever since summer I’ve worried about her, how she settles in, and all. And although I didn’t have long conversation with her, she seemed more like herself, if that’s a phrase that can me used in this case. Anyhow, this is good news.
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Thanks Dan 