Gosh @Thirdmonkey that photo just brought a tear to my eye… I hope your partner is done with treatment…
@Milele glad you got some good news regarding your mum, its a tough thing your going through x
@Dragonflygirl82 I hope your test comes back negative and if it doesn’t please look after yourself!
I’m 113 days clean, I got my first keyring from a NA meeting, I’m trying hard not to do anything stupid… I’m mainoy focusing on my health and recovery…
I can’t wait to get all this holiday stuff over and I’m hoping to be on the road come January… Funny how you view life different when shit hits the fan. I decided to quit my studying for now as I know I have a month of more tests and operations.
I want my 180 days clean… I want to get my first sobriety tattoo. I want to be proud of my acheivement… Its not easy, some days the addict inside me tells me every possible reason why I should pick up.
i can totally relate to kind of drifting out of things with friends after we stop drinking. Same thing happened to me. The get-togethers were always focused on drinking, smoking, sometimes cocaine.
It became pretty obvious, pretty quickly, that hanging out sober while they did what they did - we were just on different wavelengths. I wasn’t the wild party guy any more. I wasn’t willing to stay up til 3 AM anymore. Hell, they usually don’t even start their hangouts until times when I’m getting ready for bed!
They were supportive of my sobriety and understood why, that was cool. But drifting apart just naturally happened after it seemed an inevitability.
It’s hard, but I think it’s OK. At the end of the day, we have to do whats best for ourselves and our own wellbeing. Trust that as long as you do that, things will work out for the better. It’s just up to us to position ourselves for that to happen - being sober is part of that.
Hope you feel better soon, that the illness (whatever it may be) passes soon, and that you can soon return to being around your loved ones. I am proud of you for isolating and doing your best to protect them, in case it is COVID, because many people just continue to do whatever. The sacrifice you’re making right now is the responsible one and is done out of love for them.
Checking in on day 7. I have out families Thanksgiving today, where there will be plenty of booze around. Though the alcohol is not what I’m worried about, I’m worried about not being able to handle my drunk brother, he is ridiculous at times. Luckily, its not being held at my place this year and I can just leave when I’ve had enough.
Since today is our Thanksgiving, I will share what I am thankful for this year. I am thankful I have an amazing boyfriend that is so supportive in everyway possible. I never have to stress or worry about our relationship as I have with past relationships (this still amazes me!). I am thankful for my children, and that I have been lucky enough to be able to be home with them throughout this pandemic and helping them with their distance learning. I am thankful for all the puppy loves I get from my guys! I am thankful that I know when I have reached my limit with my drinking and thankful for this group!
Happy Sunday to you all.
Love and light.
I’m up somewhat early on this Sunday and I’m going to hit the trail for a run. I didn’t really go over the last week. Maybe once. Then it’s just getting some home projects done today. Mainly putting in some shelves and organizing the garage.
I don’t usually pay attention to the quotes on the counter screen, but I like this one. I’ve had a history of giving up on most things when they got hard. Jobs, relationships, recovery. Literally anything. My motto was “When life gives you lemons…Quit!” Now I’m trying to be dedicated to showing up. Even if something is daunting and I don’t know how it’ll work out, I show up and try. It usually works out, or at least it’s never the end of the world.
I’m learning to give myself permission to fail. I may not succeed at everything I do, but not because I throw in the towel when it gets tough.
Checking in on day 161, I hope you guys are all having a good weekend. It makes me sad to see more of my TS friends saying they are sick or have sick family members, I am keeping all of you guys in my thoughts.
@Edmund amazing job saving that man’s life, you are a true hero. Looks like your sobriety has saved more than just your own life!
Day 293. Thought my higher power was showing me something. So I acted on it, well woops is all I have to say. Little humility for the day, carry on Mike carry on
I was/am a witness and support to my husband’s chronic back pain and it’s awful to see, and now I’m a few years ahead of you (38) but I can relate so much to your words. I did not anticipate having this kind of pain at this age and it’s beyond frustrating. At times I feel those base feelings of unfairness and resentment, but have to try and snap out of it. I am starting to recognize when my pain monster is talking. The worst part for me right now is having to be cautious and feel like I’m living in fear of what I do that might trigger a pain episode. I try and flip it to tell myself that this encourages living mindfully, but damn! It can be so hard sometimes! I hope that you find relief and a longer term pain free baseline. Sending gentle hugs
Day 173 clean and sober today. Transmission is slipping on my car and I do not have the money to fix it or would want to spend that much on a car that’s meh. Thinking about putting it up for sale and then work on finding a job that I can walk or take the bus to on a daily basis. I hope everyone is having a great day, love you guys!!!
I am back after failing miserably. Regretfully, I only seem to try to do life sober after making a fool out of myself. I have to save me because no one else will. Day zero… bottom… hopeful I can do this.
Day 76: It’s really looking like Winter out there, but not cold enough for snow. I just hope it doesn’t get too sloppy wet. I love my dogs but muddy paws are not my favorite thing to deal with. A couple nights ago, guess it was Friday, my hubby and I were doing the typical Friday night thing of dinner and a movie. It used to be drinks as well, and he was having his beers and getting more and more buzzed, slurring words a bit, thinking he was being extra hilarious and I got so irritated! I could hardly stand to look at him. I had to leave a few times to get some air, think things through, cry a few tears…and try to understand what I was feeling. It wasn’t exactly FOMO, but I did have thoughts of “if I was drinking with him I wouldn’t be this annoyed,” what a lame excuse to drink. To avoid being annoyed with my husband? Ha! I sort of talked my self through what I was feeling and it helped. Removing myself from the situation definitely helped. And I picked up my knitting and we kept watching the movie. I am grateful that the worst time I’m having in my sobriety recently is dealing with an annoying buzzed husband on a Friday night. I am not having intense cravings to drink, though the sugar craving is out of this world and getting really annoying, also.
This wild joint pain/muscle aches and stiffness…wtf?! I’m grateful that I have always wanted to feel my physical pain and not numb it. When I have had surgeries or dental work I usually stuck with over the counter meds because I wanted to be able to gauge my healing and know what was going on with my body. I was always numbing psychic pain, emotional pain. Now that I’m dealing with this widespread body pain, I’m glad that I’m sober and can try and track my activities to see what is going on with my body. It’s scary but it’s also empowering to be in a position to be more mentally clear in trying to solve this inflammation mystery. Sunday ramblings…all over the place. Hang tight, fam.
@Charlie_C Congrats on your week @Chris0720 Congrats on a month @Dragonflygirl82 Sorry you’re sick, sending prayers for your health @Edmund You’re a literal hero Prayers for that guys recovery @Milele that’s so lovely to hear that your mum’s delirium has eased, it must bring some peace that she is settling well there now. @Petes40 Congrats on 90 days! @TMAC Sorry about your back problems, I too suffer from chronic pain conditions and am myself 33, it sucks, solidarity and I hope you find something that helps @EarnIt congrats on 2 weeks @Thirdmonkey wow that tree is quite something, prayers that this chapter is now closed @Yomomma Congrats on your week
72 days.
I’ve had a very lazy Sunday. I have tried to motivate myself for atleast one walk but didn’t manage it, I’m very tired physically, I think I needed a rest today. I’m looking forward to restarting my diet tomorrow and hoping to wake up refreshed and ready to get back into a good walking pattern again. I hate how rapidly my mental health declines when my routine starts to slip, need to regain control, and I will
You are right about the friend thing and drifting apart. It was slowly happening even before I got sober but now that I am I think it’s almost like the final nail in the coffin. I have no regrets though I know what I’m doing is best for me and my family.
It is so hard isolating but its definitely necessary. I’m just really going stir crazy. I hate not being able to help do things that I know need to be done.
Prayers for that guys recovery 
right about the friend thing and drifting apart. It was slowly happening even before I got sober but now that I am I think it’s almost like the final nail in the coffin. I have no regrets though I know what I’m doing is best for me and my family.
