Hello, this whole apartment thing is really stressful atm for me. I feel the stress more present in myself. I was having a 3 hrs bike ride which was wonderful, relatively warm and sunny compared to yesterday (8 °C, no wind). My mind was spinning endlessly and I felt so stressed unable to freely breathe.
This morning I had an appointment for planning the kitchen. It went well, I liked the man. And I think I will take it. If… The problem now is that I didn’t sign the contract yet. I got an written confirmation that I will get it but the responsable person for this was on vacation one week, last week sick, today day off. The guy living in the apartment, of course doesn’t show a lot of interest to answer my WhatsApp messages if the kitchen guy can contact him to take the exact measurements of the kitchen. It is like : you have to do this first but you can’t as you have to have this first. Endless circle.
So, I played worst case scenario through. F** everyone. Wait until I know when I will get the keys for the apartment, hopefully can negotiate to postpone the move one months, buy the kitchen and not having a kitchen before March or so. This waiting, senseless, isn’t doing me any good. Breathe. Thanks for sharing. I just have to write it down as most of the people I know would just say: how can the do this or that. Just bc they can. Or keep calm. Yeahhhh, screw you.
Sometimes it feels to much for me to handle everything alone.
Plus the letter to my landlord is stuck somewhere and I this also stresses me. I really don’t want to go there 4hrs by train one way to throw it into her mail box just bc fucking German mail isn’t able to deliver one f*** letter.
It don’t take much to throw out the back. Picking up dog poop on a walk laid me out one time for a week. One time just bending down a little and putting my key into the community mail box threw my back out for a week too. @TMAC
I think stress also has a lot to do with throwing your back out. It really sucks.
I keep really good ice packs in the freezer ready to go at any time of stiffness.
Ahhh I can feel the anxiety in your post! Moving and all the details that need to be lined up and getting the timing right has all been a huge trigger for stress for me. And I’ve done a lot of moving, almost every two years moving house, and two cross country moves in ten years. It sucks! The good thing to remember is that it will be over at some point and you will be settled in your place eventually. It helped me to keep the vision of that end point in my mind to deal with the stress and uncertainty until that point. Hang in there!
@Olivia
The first time I hurt mine was a pretty benign activity as well – lying in bed, sneezed – back, out.
Then this past time it was essentially from standing in place for too long after neglecting to stretch before I left the house
Thanks a lot. Yeah, I move every 1 to 2 years. I am kind of used to it. I want to call a place my home. Sooner or later I will find myself a tiny house and all I will need I a truck (license) to move. It is so exhausting.
had a seizure scare tonight and ended up in hospital. I’m OK. I’m very sore though from what ever inside me was seizeing. My chest hurts a lot. My head feels like it had an anurisim. But I’m OK they said apparently. Fun times
Day 77: ooh I am diggin’ this number, and on a Monday! My heart and head are in a good spot atm. This is what I’m feeling: I am setting my intention to have a fulfilling day, a fulfilling week. I will roll with the emotions that come and be kind to myself if things aren’t perfect, try to embrace imperfection. I am a capable person, I have value, I have love from others and love for myself. No one has the expectations of me that I have for myself, and I will be kind regarding those expectations and try to let go. I will do things that bring me joy, I will cry tears when they come because they always do, and I will be grateful to be living my life as it is now. I will show love to my people and fur-kids, I will go out in nature, I will cook and eat delicious and nutritious food, I will tend to my house plants, I will read, watch and listen to beautiful things, I will miss people and times and grieve for those who are gone, I will feel my full range of emotions, I will release guilt and shame. I will feed my heart and spirit. This is my intention for the week. Sending out to you.
700 days sober today. Randomly checked my days and can’t believe it. Haven’t been on here in months-looks like lots of folks fighting the good fight! Way to go!
Bummer April. I’m glad they say you’re ok but still must suck. Sorry you have to go through that. I hope you get well soon. Whatever it is.
So much for not having to have to wear a mask
Last night I saw how JUST.LIKE.THAT. things said and done while under the influence can change everything. Things not easily achieved and barley hanging together are destroyed with little hope of glueing things back together.!
@Clarity Congrats on 4 months! @S4ell Congrats on your week and first sober weekend, that’s massive @anon35096624 Congrats on 30 days! @Dazercat that sounds like a wonderful day, I’m very jealous of your lunch @Tommo 80 days! Well done @Jennajen Congrats on 150 days! Sorry you’re struggling, hoping the doctor can help @apes2020 sending healing vibes, feel better soon
73 days.
Well I’ve managed to get back on plan with my diet today (so far), and also managed 2 walks, my tracker says 11km. I almost skipped on the second walk, but put on a motivational video on YouTube and started getting my walking clothes on, and had a coffee, and then I was out there, it was very dark on the way back and I don’t like that but I made it home safe
This time next week I will be very nervous ahead of my interview next Tues, need to start preparing really, though I never quite know what that entails.
I am pleased because I only gained 1lb in the past week, despite the take aways and bingeing, the walks must cancel some of it out. Nevertheless I’ve got a long way to go with my weightloss journey, so I intend to stay on plan now
you were so much to so many people that you lost track of one important part inside of you. that hole we try to fill. But you see the hole now, brave and step by step.
thank you for sharing this!
The guy living in the apartment, of course doesn’t show a lot of interest to answer my WhatsApp messages if the kitchen guy can contact him to take the exact measurements of the kitchen. It is like : you have to do this first but you can’t as you have to have this first. Endless circle.
