Happy Thanksgiving. I’ve been exposed to Covid by the teenager we brought in. Her mother told me today that she’s positive, which means she was feeling bad and was getting tested when she brought her child to us. She knowingly, intentionally brought her possibly-infected Covid kid here.
Thanksgiving is cancelled because I haven’t even done the grocery shopping.
having trauma triggered is so much like having PMS 
For days I have been in freeze mode not able to identify it. justifying my behaviour and going through all the motions of destructive behaviours and patterns. After days of almost no sleep. Today I decided to just walk and see if I would be able to reconnect. I f… walked for 25 km… and by the 15th I felt the mood and body change, I could see the nature again, experience feelings of beauty and worthiness.
And then it falls in place, in retrospect I see myself fighting in the freeze state that leads to nowere. And then I can have some compassion.
just like being agressive when confronted with having your period hahahaha always in hindsight it like ah… I might have been a bit…
I know what to do to get back on my feet but most of the time when it gets triggered in an unsave way I am lost and can only accept maybe that over time it might take less days to get out of it…
The addict brain can go to rest now, no need to safe me anymore. Today I am ok, and hope to finally get some… 
@Milele, I am coming up for air again. thank you!!
Oh dear… Sounds stressful all around. But! Drinking won’t solve any of it 
Really no desire to drink over it. I am just so careful when it comes to masks. I can’t believe someone would be so negligent involving other people’s kids and knowing that I work in grocery every.single.day. That said, I can only control me.
Congratulations on your 150 days of sobriety my beautiful friend. I’ve seen your selfies and you are beautiful on the outside and in your heart and soul too. And that’s just a fact !! You’ll get there lovely lady, you’ll get there. You’ve come so far in your 150 days. I’m no therapist or anything but I believe it might be a self esteem issue and that it has nothing do do with your appearance. We are all building back or rebuilding our self esteem so we’ll feel good about ourselves in many different ways. If we all had great self esteem I don’t think any of us would be here and we’d put TS out of business.
Day 7
Today was a good day. Not much to tell. The song ‘7 more days’ of Terence Trent D’arby was on repeat in my mind https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ICrG0UnFyYQ
Sending you some virtual flowers. Thats super scary April, I am glad you are OK!
Well done everyone on another day towards a better life. Just hit day 2 here see what tomo brings
So good to hear Maria! You’ve been on my mind, so I’m glad that you feel this way! You’re a treasure!
@anon27760155 My heart breaks for you, hun. You have a big heart.
You know I absolutely love zooming with you. You’re fun, caring, sassy and encouraging person. I’m so privileged to know you a bit and share this leg of our journey together.
Hugs
I’m speechless at the mother’s lack of consideration. WTF?? I’m so sorry you can’t celebrate. Really hoping you’d stay healthy.
Thanks. I am sure we’ve probably been infected. We were just too close to the child over the last three days and the mother had picked her up Saturday evening and they drove around in an enclosed car for a long period of time, so yeah…I am sure the kid has it and I am sure we probably have it. This will tell if all that Immune and Vitamin D I have been taking makes a big difference. 
D53
It’s interesting and shitty, when you’re processing stuff that will hopefully, eventually result in progress but it seems like a big step back at first.
No, I’m not doing well. Outwardly ok but inwardly shit show. I’m starting to wonder once again whether I have any purpose on this planet at all. I try to gather my pieces but time and again something kicks them off my hands or lights the whole shit on fire.
@Joy @CATMANCAM @Clarity @M-be-free49 thank you all so much for taking the time to congratulate me on this mini milestone. You guys are doing all so great! I have the feeling I never say anything to you guys. Apologies if I haven’t caught up on everyone’s days…
Checking in on day 31. Time is flying. I have the feeling 24 hours a day is just not enough. Sleep. Kids. Work. Kids. Housework. Work on my recovery. Preparation for Christmas. There is so much to do all day long and I would like to have more time for my kids. For my recovery. For work. But there isn’t… I’m exhausted tonight. Already in bed. Read one chapter of the big book. Now doing my gratitude list then off to sleep. Peace and good night 
Darling, I’m sorry you’re having such tough time. Really happy that you could get out of the frozen slumber. You’re a tender yet brave soul
500’s and 400’s 
talk about rocking it out here ! Keep shining Joy
Hey i hope your feeling better i wanted to know if your results came back and if everythings ok ?
Whaaat any purpose ? Are you kidding me ! Of course you have purpose here on earth you bring us all joy and good feels ive seen some of your selfies and you look awesome sobreity has never looked better !! Whenever something kicks them off your hand you pick that fire up again and you show life what your here for you show life that nothing will break tear or bring you down no matter whats thrown at you 
Goodnight everyone.
so happy to hear about your mom mbwoman she’s a fighter for sure 