Day 149.
There’s no shortage of stuff packed into these days. I will indeed be travelling (after 10 days isolation) to Mom’s for about 3 weeks – she’ll be moving by dec.24 into more of a nursing home room/situation (during an outbreak). I’ve set my intentions: feel the feels without getting triggered by the triggering siblings and return to my own wee happy home dec.25-26, still sober. I will share the podium and my medal with all of you – just help get me through it, please.
Otherwise? I like this buffer that sobriety seems to put between me and the stressors. Not numbing, just an awareness that so much is out of my hands – so why get hooked by it? The stressors are getting bigger, but that shouldn’t make a difference…
@Conor689908, Big hugs to you, Conor - I hope the clouds go away soon
@Blueroom Super big congrats to you! One year, one day at a time. And @TSan 60 days is no small feat! Congrats to you - you’ve had your share of tests in those 60 days…
@Squirt any post you post is a welcome post by me!
I’m focusing on doing what my sponsor directs me to do mostly my step work and meetings and phone calls to other sober members in my home group and it works. Doing that is what keeps me sober, it’s simple. I work over 50 hours a week and I’m busy all day long but I make AA the most important priority of my day. I just let the day flow well praying to God and don’t complicate things well at least try not to and I’m sober and helpful to others. Life did get better for me and has taken on a new meaning but I had to do AA in order to come to that place in life where things are fine the way they are and without me having to try and run the show. Happy Thanksgiving to all of you. I think it’s a miracle that we’re all here and sober. I hope all of have a blessed sober night. I love being sober even when it’s not so great.
Day 323.
Happy thanksgiving to all americans over here!
I’d wish we had that holiday over here too ;).
Today I’ve got my 2nd appointment with my therapist. Looking forward to it though.
Been a rough couple of days for me. Lot’s of thinking about the past and the ex.
I kind of lost sight of the future.
But I am so grateful to do this sober!
Not pleased that you experience this, but pleased to hear someone else say it. I am trying to start my own business and having constant confident/ self doubt cycles. It’s fucking exhausting! But if we don’t try, we never know eh?
Wait til year three Half joking… It’s not linear, and as you know it will pass. The healing will come after the pain, you’re on the right track . And sounds like you are at the beginning of a new relationship with your family, in a really positive way. Amazing!
@I.cant.We.can good on you for quitting nicotine! There is a thread for grumpy a-holes going through that exact thing! It really is awesome when you get to the point that no addictive substances run your day.
@Englishd congrats on the promotion Derek! Even if it is belated.
@Dragonflygirl82 wow that’s a lot of drama but awesome to hear you handling it like a sober boss wishing for a speedy recovery for you all.
@Hazy great to see you back and hear you’re feeling hopeful Keep checking in!
I’m sure there is loads I’ve missed, so much AWESOME stuff in this thread. I woke up feeling really anxious and on edge, but you have all lifted me so much. So I am sharing the spirit of today’s thanksgiving celebrations - thank you all TS family
First schema group therapy session coming up today. I’m nervous. I guess that’s only logical, meeting a bunch of new people. All diagnosed with a PD too. Ow, so was I. I’m really going to try my very best at making this work, in contrast to previous therapies I did. My heart was never in it when I was under the influence of one thing or another, or many at the same time, or hungover or groggy. It is now. We’ll see what happens today.
In other news I did a long painting session yesterday which finished with the last drop of paint I had on the last piece of wall left unpainted in my bedroom. Must have been. So now just my bathroom to go. And half of the heating pipes and radiators. Progress! Sharing -for once- a pic of my bedroom this morning. Bonus points for spotting Luna in it.
Lots of great stuff going on here, like @siand just said. @TMAC 900 Days is awesome friend! @PinkyP A full month! Jay you! @Englishd Congrats Derek. I know you deserve it. @Conor689908 I’m glad to see you posting Conor. Life ain’t always easy, if ever. I know. Trudge along friend. Happy to see yo do better today. Enjoy autumn. ODAAT.
You are totally right. Funny how we used to think it was being under the influence that gave us that buffer. Never again friend. @everybody Keep going all! Sober and clean. It’s so worth it. Have a great day all. Love from Amsterdam.
Day 18. It started out a bit rough. I couldn’t sleep. I wonder if it could’ve been the Flat White I had a 4pm. I never thought afternoon caffeine affected me but maybe it was because I was drowning it in alcohol, or maybe it’s age. The dog was whining. She made a mess in her crate. It’s very out of character. So, 4am saw me cleaning up sh*t. Happy Thanksgiving. We aren’t doing a thing today because I hadn’t made it to the grocery store before the Covid exposure and we’re all bummed out that my sister couldn’t join us. I am more than a little bit over Covid.
@Blueroom That’s fantastic! Congratulations! @TMAC 900 is astounding! Time flies? @Rockstar24777 - Healing wishes for you, Rob.
@liv_m - What a great idea! I am glad it helped and I have no doubt you’ll continue to kick ass.
@TSan Everyone starts in the same place! Sixty days is amazing! Great work!
@Lisa07 I feel the same way about the lady who brought her child here on a Friday and told us she had Covid on Monday. She said she went for the test because she was feeling exhausted, had a headache and was coughing. And you thought coming here was a good idea, why?
@Butterflymoonwoman Most times, I think coming back takes more courage than showing up the first time. That’s been my experience anyway. Not coming back only led me to longer relapses than necessary. My guilt/shame over the relapse held me back. I am working to eradicate those feelings. Sobriety is hard. Just keep on pushing.
@SoberWalker Claudia, That’s a beautiful number!! Congratulations!
Nothing a lockdown,and then another lockdown to realise my alcoholism.
Great to see you again!
Half joking… It’s not linear, and as you know it will pass. The healing will come after the pain, you’re on the right track . And sounds like you are at the beginning of a new relationship with your family, in a really positive way. Amazing!
wishing for a speedy recovery for you all.
Keep checking in!
Today I am thankful that I am sober, Day 324, and intend to remain so all day!