Congratulations my man!!! Great news.
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I need a new Netflix rec so il check it out 
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Oh Rob, thatās quite the news! Scary, yes, and such a relief that they found it and that theyāre acting fast. Wow - they wouldnāt have found it without the MRI of your back, right? Iām grateful for that. Iām grateful youāre sober or who knows how this would turn out. Most of all, Iām grateful for you. 
Please keep us posted. Sending hugs and prayers and love and if I could - homemade soup for my big bro!
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Day 286~ The shit just hit the fan here. My in laws just got their results back and they are both positive. My father in law was exposed by his pool playing friend. My mother in law literally just lost her mind. She is so pissed. They were suppose to go to Aruba on Friday. She and I got into because she was screaming out all kinds of craziness and I told her to calm the fuck down because the way she was acting was not going to help or change the situation. I had a feeling they had it. She had a cough and was trying to say it was he asthma but I knew that was BS especially since my father in law was exposed. I think thatās how I got it. We share an office space at home. This virus needs to go the hell away. Itās causing such stress and anxiety and now fighting. I have to say though I stood my ground and for once didnāt scream and cry and act like a wild woman. That will NOT change anything. Iām becoming much more calm and level headed in my sobrietyā¦ now THATS something Iām very grateful for. 
Well it wouldnāt be Thanksgiving without some kind of family drama. 
Stay safe and most importantly sober everyone.
PS: God if your listeningā¦ enough is enough already. PLEASE
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Iāve been on my feet all day getting ready for tomorrowās cookathon. I made the 2 sweet potato "cheese"cakes (vegan) tonight. Took forever as I forgot 2 ingredients and had to rush back to the grocery store before it is too late. Nothing will be open tomorrow. Lol. I still have to wait for it to hit room temperature before I can throw it in the refrigerator to chill. The batter was so delicious. I canāt wait to taste test it tomorrow. I also need to make the caramel sauce that will be drizzled over it. Iām up super early tmw morning cooking a turkey, herb mashed potatoes with a mushroom gravy, candied yams, cranberry sauce, and baked mac n cheese. All of the sides are vegan. All will be made from scratch. The turkey is a turkey though, cooking it for my dad and boyfriend. I enjoy cooking and I love veganizing my favorite dishes. Canāt wait to show the final results! Happy Thanksgiving! I wouldnāt have been able to plan this early wake up for tomorrow as a binge drinker because Iād have waken up hours past schedule, hungover and loaded with anxiety and disappointment. Grateful to be here.
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Ya the waiting period is awful. I waited 5 days my in laws 6. Iām praying you get answers sooner than later. 
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Sounds delish enjoy and Happy Thanksgiving 
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Thank you! You too hun.
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Checking in Tonight : grateful and very optimistic towards the future i see nothing but completing my goals and dreams i wish nothing but the best for everyone on here life is beautiful life is one day at a time 
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Oh no Courtney!! Have your hubby and kids been tested yet? Praying for you and your in-laws for a speedy recovery.
Aināt this the truth!! I canāt remember a Thanksgiving without drama and it usually doesnāt involve me. Thanks for the chuckle.
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Yes they have. The kids are negative thankfully My husband is still waiting for his results. My daughter has been staying with her friend because of the shop. She hasnāt been here for a while now. It just sucks so much. And ya lol itās always something. One year we had family come visit us in NYC and went to the Macyās day parade well the car broke down and we were strandedā¦ it was a nightmare 
itās always something with this looney bunch!
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That bitmoji is the best. Iām glad you still have some humor during the chaos.
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Yeah, I rememberā¦ I was 14 years old, and couldnāt reconcile the pictures in the news with the materialism of christmas commercials. Got a bit sick over it. If you closed your heart to it then? Well, you didnāt lock it - just stored the grief. It sounds like your tears are getting a chance to thaw now. Those are tears worth cryingā¦
So here you are. 475 days sober. And open to tears, and loving, and healing. I know you are finding it all a struggle right now, but I see your journey as pretty amazing and inspiring.
Thanks for your post.
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Morning everyone,
Iām very happy to be checking in on a month, 30 whole days again, feels so good to get a month back under my belt.
Hope you all have a great day
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touchingā¦ thank you for sharing this.
Learning to see and feel the tenderness of the heart again is a brave path to walk!
Reading this in end meditation this morning class. (in dutch sorry)
Er is 1 ding op de wereld,
wat je nooit mag vergeten
Wanneer je alles vergeet, maar dat ene nietā¦
dan hoef je je nergens zorgen over te maken.
Maar wanneer je overal aan denkt, alles doet en niets vergeetā¦
behalve dat ene
Dan heb je eigenlijk niets gedaan
(RUMI)
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Congratz on 30 days ! 
It shows how far your willing to take your journey
You should be very very proud of yourself
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Thanks, appreciate your help
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Definitly im always here
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Day 149.
Thereās no shortage of stuff packed into these days. I will indeed be travelling (after 10 days isolation) to Momās for about 3 weeks ā sheāll be moving by dec.24 into more of a nursing home room/situation (during an outbreak). Iāve set my intentions: feel the feels without getting triggered by the triggering siblings and return to my own wee happy home dec.25-26, still sober. I will share the podium and my medal with all of you ā just help get me through it, please.
Otherwise? I like this buffer that sobriety seems to put between me and the stressors. Not numbing, just an awareness that so much is out of my hands ā so why get hooked by it? The stressors are getting bigger, but that shouldnāt make a differenceā¦
Lots oā life going on in this thread todayā¦
@Lisa07 and @Dragonflygirl82 oh take care! You and your loved ones. And grrrr is right. 
@Conor689908, Big hugs to you, Conor - I hope the clouds go away soon 
@Blueroom Super big congrats to you! One year, one day at a time. And @TSan 60 days is no small feat! Congrats to you - youāve had your share of tests in those 60 daysā¦
@Squirt any post you post is a welcome post by me!
Gānight all. We did another day.
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Congratulations on your 30 days. Thatās great 
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