Checking in December 5th 2020
Goodmorning all Saturday work hope i go home early today nothing like coffee to wake up the brain i hope everyone has an amazing saturday you guys are rocking it im always inspired and motivated by all you beautiful people
I have nothing
You have your valuable life experience, you have a kid. Now you have a future. Over to you to write the script for the rest of your life
Checking in on day 11. Iām feeling sleepy this morning but thatās ok itās Saturday so I can definitely lounge a bit this morning. I will probably work for a couple hours but nothing too pressing. No cravings which is very strange. I donāt want to speak too soon or jinx myself but I feel so different this time around. I feel like Iām just done, I donāt want to feel crappy all the time physically for something that makes me feel good for a hour or so. Have a wonderful sober Saturday TS folks!
Oh that sort of dream is horrible isnāt it? After the initial realisation that it was only a dream I let myself feel relief and gratitude.
Well done Thomas!
My day planned out OKā¦ I ordered a new stitch cup because the freak I am needs a stitch cup in my life!
I hope you actually get that mug this timeā¦ And not whom it doesnāt belong.
Checking in on day 34
I just realized that my bf was cheating on me since 2 years a go and all his family was aware of it, I feel stupid, disapointed, just sleeped 4 hours and feel like shitā¦ She came to my house and show me pictures with him, and my sister in law, she got an abortion, and was hitted by him
I litteraly lived in to a lie for 2 years, he doesnt even want to answer the phone.
Omg, thatās so wrong. Iām sorry youāre dealing with that. Was it your sister in law that came by with the pictures? And why did he hit herā¦ I wouldnāt want to see him again; that is the worst betrayal. Count your blessings you know nowā¦
Iām sorry this has happened to youā¦
I would now focus on you, look how far youāve come 34 days by your own choice and effort.
You canāt change the past and even thou its hard to digest you are better on your own to heal and youāll find the person who is your person by working on you and you alone.
Donāt kick yourself for something you really canāt change become the person you were meant to beā¦ Fearless and sober which you can do x
Thanks @liv_m I appreciate the advice. I donāt know what Iām going to do yet, all there is is space between us right now and it sucks. Have a great day thanks again.
You mister!!!
You must remember the main focus of you and healing ā¦ There is always gonna be ups and downs you both have issues and you sir have sobriety as wellā¦ I want you to remember the posistives of yourself as it is too easy to bury yourself in negatives and that isnāt what you need.
The misstres contacted me by facebook and came with the pictures and messages, even with his mother, I feel so betrayedā¦ They lought of me in my face for 2 yearsā¦ I dont want to see him, but I feel that I deserve an explanaition. This hurts a lot, my mom health was afected too for this situation, I want to be strong.
Thanks a lot, I need to face the reality for the first time sober, is that possible? Omg I feel so bad. I just want to kill him
Oh Luisa, that is just awfulā¦ Iām sending you a big, motherly hug, sweetieā¦
TWO WEEKS
Love being part of this group. You all are helping me make it happen. Itās incredible to be connected to people who get it and are walking through it too. So much love for you all.
Yesterday I experienced anger without turning to alcohol for the first time in a LONG time. Obviously I didnāt enjoy the experience, but Iām definitely pleased with the outcome. No drunken fights or texts, no regret this morning, no hangover fog. Just me, moving on and choosing a better life. Hell yeah!
Staying sober will give you more strength, Luisa; donāt let his actions push you to hurt your sobrietyā¦ eff him. Youāre going to make it and be even stronger.
Your facing reality sober keep doing it donāt let this be a step back because it doesnāt need toā¦
You know he is the one that has to face the reality of cheating and doing the horrible things heās doneā¦ Kill him what for?!? walk away take yourself out of his toxic life because you misses are better then that and deserve more. Donāt go to a level that he wants you to go to anger isnāt the only emotion to have. We can express ourselves so much better when we donāt go with our first reaction be that better person you know you areā¦ Walk away do you wanna hear his lies of why he did it Nah?!?
You have the control, do it your way
Day 306. So I am gonna stop sharing my experience, itās not for everyone. So Iām just keep it to myself and Iām talking about a.a. atm Iām trying to figure out if im sick, or in a funk still. I still have a heavy feeling in my mind, Iām tired.