yeh!!! I knew it had to be close. What can I say that you don’t already know, nothing but fuck it I’m saying it anyway. I’m so proud of you and getting this far bc you had the strength and courage to never stop trying, it’s been a bumpy road at times and that just exaggerates the character of the lady you are. Your caring and loving towards all and a valued part of our little community.
The next bit is 100 % fact that I would not be where I am without you bc the time I reached out for help you were the first to reply so my 88 days can be added to your 200 bc without you they would not exist. Well done and Thank You 
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Thank you!! I’m pretty chuffed, lol… from my UK verbage, 
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That just made me tear up~! Thank you so much, Paul… I can unequivocally say you have a huge part in me still being here. You let me be as I was/am at any given time. Thank you sweetie. 
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Goodnight everyone
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Doing a second check in. So got off the phone with the doctor she said yes I have ADHD. General anxiety, and something about worrying idk. She wants me to try laxepro for the social anxiety, and said the ADHD will need to be treated. Like I don’t fucking know man, I don’t really want any medicine I feel like it’s going to fuck with my sobriety and mind more idk.
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nice one hun!! 
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Thanks, sweetie!!
Aw you two! @Dolse71 @Donna Now I’m tearing up over here! 🥲 you are both so special. You come through at seemingly just the right time for me and others and it’s so wonderful to be here with you.
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Back atcha sweet Rosa! Thank you.
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Lexapro is a good base to start mood stability. It will not affect your sobriety, if anything it will strengthen your commitment to it. I say give it a go for a month or two, see how you like it. Take it as prescribed and give it abit of time to work , at least a month. I think you will find it beneficial. I used it 20 yrs ago. It does work . you will not get dependent on it as you mentioned. It will just act as a hypothetical band aid to your moods and emotions till you get to a better place in life where you feel better and can implement new direction and change that u want for the better etc…if you skeptical, nothing in life will change. Be open minded. If you don’t think they work or just don’t want to take them , then don’t. I think u will benefit from them. There is nothing wrong with u as u mentioned , imagine this as just an upgrade to your ability to function and Improve as a human we all benefit from internal upgrades as humans at some point in one way or another 
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will delete experiment lol.I feel you! It’s new to the most of us to expose ourselves to sad or any other negative feelings. Normally we numb ourselves and now we go through the whole thing. Im learning how to get acquainted with these feelings, but it’s not easy. Great you had this moment and reflect on them like you did!
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@Petr Wowser! Well done!
@SoCalBookworm Welcome! We all just share our thoughts, no rules.
@I.cant.We.can A good rant can help. Get it out, and move on.
@anon79808082 Congratulations! And a fab number!
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I am back, I hope, for good. After pulling an all nighter and attempting a few more whilst bingeing netflix and hated myself I managed to delete my account… For now. As long as I don’t watch Netflix for 24 hours I’ll be good though
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Here’s me getting up on my horse 
again about mood altering drugs vs mood stabilizing drugs.
There’s nothing at all wrong with it. I have always been against drugs because I hate the pharmaceutical companies. But, under doctors care they can be of much benefit. Make sure you keep an open dialog with you doc about any meds you try. Do not. And I repeat. Do not just stop taking them on your own. Talk to your doc first. It’s better for them to adjust dosage or slowly take you off it if you don’t like it.
My wife is taking Lexapro. She wishes she started it so much sooner in life. And she is so much better. She just piped up and said “it doesn’t get you high or anything!”
And, not to pick on AA at all, they are great. But my son’s AA group pressured him, or so he felt, to get off his meds. They told him you can’t be sober if your taking meds. Well Bullshit!! He went off his meds and the shit hit the fan. Psychologically he was a fuckin hot mess for a week or so. As a parent it was my worst nightmare. I’m just saying listen and work with your doctor on this one. It’s ok.
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Mike whats up!
I have adhd and some general anxiety from past trauma dude im on no meds its definitly possible is it tough yes but your tougher always rememeber that !!!
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Congratulations on entering the 200 club Donna. That’s is great! I’m so freakin happy for you.
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Thank you!
Thanks Eric!
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