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Checking in on day 21. Up really early today but thatās ok since I did basically nothing yesterday and slept all evening and night. I feel great about my sober days but I still have this nagging little addict voice saying, āitās ok if you just take a couple pills, look how great youāve done you deserve a reward.ā, But being addicted to prescription pills is not a reward! I know that now and I truly feel that way but I will probably always have to tell that addict voice in me to shut the hell up because I donāt take pills anymore, thatās just who I am now. I literally just wrote down a fight I had in my own head with myself. š¤¦š¤· Have a Terrific Tuesday everyone! Every person here is an inspiration. 
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congrats on your 3 weeks 
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151.09 Days
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Whoop whoop!! 
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In thai 5 = ha, so your numbers is like hahahahaha!
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Off to work have a great day everyone
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Sorry for your loss, but thanks for introducing me to your friend 
Stay strong, peace. 
This made my day. I feel like this everytime j restart an exercise routine.
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Day 316. Iām trying to redirect my thinking, Iām doing my prayers Iām doing my meetings. Iām doing my steps, Iām not in a bad mood or anything. But Iām just lacking drive and determination. Iām not even really sad, I just feel blah. Could be that Christmas and new yearās are close, Iām not really sure. But I know Iām here, Iām sober, Iām grateful for many things. I definitely got a high off the first few months of my sobriety, and felt like the whole world should know I was sober, I felt like I was greatest thing bc I was sober and I was going to move mountains and now Iām starting to see that Iām just sober, yeah it makes for a better life. But doesnāt necessarily mean Iām going to become a millionaire and just greatness is going to fall upon me because I got sober. Itās definitely not how sobriety works, but certainly was how my expectations were set in the early days lol. Anyways have a good day
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I feel like I havenāt seen anyone talking about pink clouds for a while, but in hindsight that really fit for me.
You know though I think it is a really useful realisationā¦ Sobriety wonāt make us a millionaire, but then would being a millionaire make us happy?
Being sober, we give ourselves the best possible ground to make a good life for ourselves. Money doesnāt have much to do with that (over and above getting what we need to survive of course.) Everything we learn through sobriety we can apply to other areas of life. And the broader it gets the harder it is. We have a lot to learn and a lot of ingrained habits to unpick.
We keep on though, eh? Exactly where we need to be and all that 
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Been struggling a lot with aversion recently. Feeling resistant to all the things I have told myself I should be doing. Trying to release the expectations and take it one thing at a time, rather than letting the jumble of everything overwhelming my brain loose.
I donāt want alcohol anymore but I definitely have cravings, a desire to escape and get a short term fix. Reminding myself to breathe into it, acknowledge the dissatisfaction and then let that shit go!
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Currently working my day 13. Iām doing really good. I have two full days sober while working on the road. I canāt believe Iām staying sober while away from my wife. Never have I ever been able to stay sober when by myself. It is so great that I have 2 real days under my belt. I woke up not hungover. For that, I am grateful. Iām establishing a routine and have proven to myself that I can do it. Iām only thinking about today and not tomorrow interms of my sobriety. Today, I plan on working and not stopping anywhere for booze after Iām done. This form is just been the best internet tool I have come across on the internet. There so much activity and support on here it is amazing. If I ever need something to read, I can just hop on here and bring myself back to reality. Thankyou everyone!!!
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Checking in sober, Day 343. Today makes 49 Weeks AF (3 weeks to go for 1 Year!). I missed noting my 11 month milestone last week but did pick up my chip the other day.
I know others have written about losing some enthusiasm for milestones as time goes by, and I admit to feeling that way myself. I realize some of this is the time of year, being colder so stuck inside, dealing with Covid restrictions so being away from others. But if Iām honest, more of it is my addict brain. The āhighā of hitting a milestone isnāt what it used to be. So Iām working more on my outlook and expectations, what my sobriety means to me. Sobriety is a way of living, and every day is a milestone. Congratulations to everyone on here for a day sober!!!
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This 
is one of the most important mental tools Iāve used. So critical to not becoming overwhelmed.
Keep up the good work! Iām the same way and always struggled much more to avoid drinking if I wasnāt with my wife.
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Absolutely I really like that. Definitely a pink cloud moment, and just in my addiction I had all these envisions of what I would be like sober. But Ive definitely learned not to set these expectations, and just take it one day a time. I believe my higher power is saying no to some things at the moment and when it is time he will lead me in the right direction, right now itās learning to be grateful for what I do have and what I am accomplishing and that happiness is where you make it. Like you said definitely have alot of ingrained habits that I yeah I am working on, but my expectations were they would be gone by now and in reality thatās just not how itās gonna be, it takes years. Thank you 
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