Day 103: Peaceful today, not much going on and Chucho has been doing better. Our extra vigilance seems to be paying off. This involves things like helping him to wake up from deep sleep more calmly and not do anything strenuous right away like climb the stairs or go outside to potty. It’s like his heart needs to warm up or he will seize up/collapse. We also have to keep him distracted when delivery or postal people come, and god forbid they knock on the door Anyway, these small things seem to be helping a lot, for now.
Talked with my husband about him drinking over the vacation. It was more emotional than I expected. The question came up of, “is this a forever thing?” In terms of my sobriety. The only way I could respond was to say I am not drinking now, drinking hasn’t been working for me and so I don’t want to do it. He has seen how bad things have gotten with my drinking this year and at other times in the past, too. He said he supports my decision no matter what, whether it’s forever or not, and that he is really proud of me for making this change for myself, he sees the difference and he says he’s happy that I’m “back.” But there was still that question about forever, and I am happy to say that he accepts that I’m just not drinking now and that’s enough. He says he has been thinking about how to be respectful and has no plans to get wasted. I did notice that he left all the sparkling waters and ginger beers in the mini fridge and put his beers out in the garage instead without me saying anything. So, I think this discussion was productive and just like anything else, it’s important to me to see things from his perspective and recognize he is changing along with me. And for that I am so grateful.
God Bless you taking care of your Chucho. I know how that goes. You’ll do anything for him. Good thing he’s not like Benson. Benson barks are the UPS truck before it even turns onto our street.
I’m glad you talked to your husband. Sorry if it was a bit harder or more emotional than you thought it would be. You probably know from my shares wifey drinks a lot. Every day since I stopped drinking. Well, we use to drink every day. I just got tired of it entering my sixties. It’s my sobriety and I really want it. I can’t say it never bothers me that she drinks. But it mostly doesn’t bother me. If I was drinking too we’d both be drinking more. I could never stop. Always room for one more. I hope it gets easier for you. I wish I had some answers or tricks to share. But I am really enjoying the benefits of sobriety. Clear head. More energy. No hangovers. You know all that. Just wishing you the best. Especially on this Christmas season.
I would say the most noticeable difference for me is how clearer things are to me and my awareness (both self awareness and of others). Also, I can’t say that all cravings are totally gone but, they are left frequent and pass pretty quickly. Nevertheless, I still acknowledge them and take them seriously. Don’t want to go back to that way of life. I am loving the sober life and I know it sounds trite but, if I can do it anyone can and its worth it!
Regular Sunday taking kids to things, and doing homework. Going to an all-you-can-eat bbq and sushi restaurant for a joint hubby-bday, my-bday, early Christmas feast. They have a candy floss (cotton candy) machine and last time we went my daughter ate 5 lots and nearly puked on the way home😂.
Thank you Fleur!! I had a big eye opening experience tonight at AA and learned that we only have today and tomorrow isn’t promised. One of the woman with 31 years relapsed. I’m just happy that she survived and found her way back. I truly believe this disease wants us dead.
Day 84. Missed checking in yesterday because I got caught up in a whirlwind of other people’s drama. Today, I have been focusing on doing what I need to do for me: doing laundry, paying bills, playing with Max. I wrote some letters to friends. I finished knitting a hat for my cousin. It’s been raining all evening, and Max has been rambunctious, roaming around the apartment like we’re never going to leave here again!
Man, was she not able to make it to the meetings or something. What did she say was the reason, not working the steps? 31 years, like that’s honestly part of the reason I didn’t care about a.a in the beginning bc I saw alot of ppl still relapse. But hope she feels better. We’re never safe
She was going thru chemo and somehow got it in her head that she wasn’t going to survive cancer even though her doctor told her they caught it early enough. Then she admitted cancer was only an excuse to pick up and that she isolated and hadn’t been going to meetings. It blows my mind that it was that easy for her to go back out after that many years.
End of the day. 28 behind me. It’s been four weeks since I started my sobriety journey. One month mark happens Monday. Pretty incredible that I’ve finally found some kind of success here, even if only for 28 days. Grateful for every moment. There’s now a noticeable difference in my appearance… skin is healthier and I’m slimming down. I’m so done letting alcohol mess me up.
It’s Saturday night in America and alcohol still sucks.
@TSan, thanks for checking in! I am doing fine tonight. Got a decent day of skiing in, and on the drive home I asked my husband to stop so I could buy a bottle of wine for our friends who were hosting us for “apps”. I got a weird glance, but he dropped me off, I picked out a bottle and got out. @RosaCanDo, unlike you, we have not had a conversation about my not drinking. It is just implied knowledge. Anyway, we got to our friends’, and I gave them the wine, and they asked my husband to grab some glasses. He looked at me, and said, “so, you arent having any, right?”. Part of me was glad I didn’t have to ask for just water, and part of me was pissed he assumed I wouldn’t drink. I know that sounds dumb, and I know we should openly talk about it, but, whatever. I am probably hanging onto hope that this is not forever for me. So, they finished the wine, I drank water, I only kind of wanted a taste?, and here I am at the end of day 36.
You need to give it at least minimum two weeks. There is no point in two days . you will be fine. Dont think about it. Just go about your day as you normally would. Keep busy. You will be fine
Anyway, these small things seem to be helping a lot, for now.
