Absolutely brilliant to see this 
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255 todayā¦ still here
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still working your magic, great sober days 
Woo hooā¦! Congrats mate on 90 days, Iām overly proud of you my eyes are watering. A day doesnāt go by youāre not in my prayers, weāve got this by the bā¦s 
Iām so so happy you should see my little dance and grin . 
Blessings and sobriety!
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You need to settle down before you cause yourself an injury 
Thanks though
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Thank you so much @Mno @Dazercat @Lisa07 @Tomek @anon28001181 @Dolse71 @Squirt
@Misokatsu @TSan @Joy ā¦
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Definately have to settle down I have a half marathon to run tomorrow morning. Running and TS, thatās my joy. . 
Blessings and sobriety!
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if I wasnt in such a funk Iād really mess with yah. But congrats on 3 months toot toot
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Thanks also @Olivia
@Salty congrats on 80 days, sorry things are tough 
@Rgrkd congrats on 2 weeks
@EarnIt welcome back and well done for getting honest.
@Jamie3 congrats on 30 days
@Edmund sending prayers for wellness 
@Squirt sending prayers that the procedure goes smoothly
@Dolse71 congrats on 3 months
101 days.
Today started a bit stressfully, I spent 2 hours with phonecalls trying to sort my meds out as they werenāt at the pharmacy when I went to get them at the weekend, hopefully theyāll be ready to collect tomorrow as I run out tonight
Spent the morning watching some Homeland, I really do like it. Then a few hours of reading to finish the sobriety book Iāve been reading. 365 reminders of the joys sobriety can bring so Iām saving that one
Starting to feel a little anxious about spending Xmas afternoon with my Dad and step family, things have been like a rollercoaster since my Dad met his now wife, so I have conflicting feelings sometimes. It will also be the longest time Iāve spent with them since last Xmas. Iām sure all will be well, it canāt be any worse than last year when I was in deep active addiction hell anyhow! Iām going to offer to help cook so that will stop me from sitting there feeling anxious or being told Iām too quiet.
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Responsibility and moderation is mindfullness and I canāt take a break from that without feeling myself being destructive.
Itās interesting, because i see a paradox in that sentenceā¦ Because being responsible and moderative implies taking a break. Responsibility, moderation and mindfulness does not just apply to some behaviours you want to do or not to do. Responsibility, moderation and mindfulness apply to themselves also!
We are responsable until a certain point, because we have limits. We moderate what we can moderate, when we can moderate, because thatās what moderation is: not all-in/all-out all the time, but sometimes all in, some times all out, some times somewhere in the middle of this - but surely there is no one āsweet spotā of moderation we have to be on all the time. Mindfulness is to intentionally take things as they come and just be with them. Itās the core of mindfulness to accept the fact that things are just there anyways - therefore the concept of mindfulness itself too.
It might be a slight ātwistā that I am pointing at right now, but for me this was a game changer. The values I am pursuing arenāt just outside of me in some action, some virtual routines and life style I have to work on everyday; itās mostly an inside quest, a search for meaning from within myself, a never settle-in puzzle. We have to beware of this perfectionist idea that we will one day reach the full values weāre looking for - like responsibility, moderation and mindfulness - because itās while we try to find them that we are actually living themā¦
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Well someones was on my side todayā¦ Get to hospital this morning been prepped for surgery and because I dont have anyone looking after me and they donāt have a bed for me I didnāt get the operationā¦ When I do have the op its most likely Iāll be for over a weekā¦fuck that shit not with covid about NO-UH!!!
So least I wonāt be in pain for Christmas though it doesnāt feel at all Christmasās for me but have decided that I will go get myself something for Christmas!
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have those pills carmed down yet?
I havenāt slept yet. Random shit was just flowing through my mind all night. Hopefully I can sleep when I get home. I feel ok I suppose, didnāt call my doctor, giving it a few more days. Idk 
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Checking in December 21
Had a rough start at my new job this monday morning but i pulled through !
Strong ! Now just making sure nothing else goes wrong
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New job!? Still trucks or??
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Still trucking !
Just hauling new things hauling construction materials once a trucker always a trucker
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