@Clarity congratulations on 150 days Sarah!
@Dolse71 congratulations on 90 days Paul!
This community is simply amazing. Everyone here beating our addictions together. Sometimes weâre the Lion and sometimes weâre the lamb, itâs amazing that weâre always here to help eachother. Iâm grateful for all of you.
Day 423.
Outside of having to reset my porn/fap timer the other day, I am still smoke free after 37 days. I am very, very proud of that!
I spoke with my psychiatrist yesterday about getting on medicine to help me not binge eat. Although it wonât reset the hormones in my gut, it will hopefully reset the hormones in my brain. I am looking forward to starting the journey to losing 180. This coming year will be one of health and abundance. Even though I have a kink in my shoulder, I feel gross and need to shower, and need to pluck my eyebrowsâŚI am feeling hopeful for the future. At least for today. Let me see what the tarot says to look out for.
#badcatholic
Day 106: Just a quick hello. Grateful for you all. Practicing gratitude as hard as I can, Iâm struggling. But another dayâs here and Iâm not gonna drink about it.
Checking in sober, Day 350! That also makes today 50 Weeks!! I like nice round numbers!!! 
Had a good day yesterday. I told my story at a speaker meeting - it felt good not only to share but to hear feedback that people related to my story and that it helped keep them sober for that day. Afterward I shoveled the snow off the porch roof, then made cookies to help me get in the Christmas spirit! Have a great day, everyone!!
Quick checkin.
Hey anyone has felt a âphantomâ hangover or the feeling of guilt of a relapse in the morning after , even if you didnât? I feel kind of in the same mood this morning and it sucks. Iâm pretty sure it means Iâm tired, because of course hangovers were moments of huge tiredness also, but never felt that same guilt before since September. Damn this addiction is deeply in me. Itâs hard today because it reminds me the same feeling I had when hungover and made me go on benders so many times to avoid it. Of course this is not going to happens, but I am sitting in that this morningâŚ
Coffee and Christmas will do for now. Last day with clients before vacation!
Yep!! My first two weeks of sobriety I woke up feeling hungover almost every day even though I hadnât touched a drop of alcohol.
I think it was one of those âmind over matterâ things. Itâs also very possible my body was just really messed up from the years of drinking and it took that long to heal itself enough for me just to feel okay again.
Either way, youâre not alone. I just drank a lot of water and tried to eat clean and it eventually subsided.
Yeah the weeks after me too, but today is day 99 
Hmmm. Maybe it is because of stress? Either way, I hope it goes away soon 
Day 6. Almost a week. That feels good. Iâm kinda struggling to find a routine and stopping self hate. Itâs lack of patience. I didnât get here overnight. I wonât leave here overnight. I just keep trying to be positive and focus on today instead of three months from now. Iâm almost done with this book I stopped reading when I started drinking again. Thatâs been my new hobby. I used to love to read so it feels like Iâm slowly getting myself back. Again, the patience thing. I can do this.
Happy sober Tuesday to all. 
And just like that, the universe comes to my rescue. I took my buddy Chucho aka Mr. Chooch out to potty, I leaned on the deck and emptied my mind. Heard the birds on my neighborâs giant black walnut tree and picked out a woodpecker, then the dainty sounds of a nuthatch and heard before I saw a little flock of chickadees. All hopping around looking for food and talking quietly. Telling me everything is going to be all right. And Mr. Chooch pooped and he certainly felt better, too. On with our day. 
Good to see you Sophia. And donât apologize for sharing plz. Or for being absent for a while. Iâm glad you are here now and I am glad too you have this place to vent. What a heavy burden tweenie turns out to be. Together with everything that happens int he world right nowâŚ
I donât think too much of your old church but this advice doesnât sound bad to me actually. Still it will be very hard to get tweenie to conform it seems. Donât let it destroy you and/or your family please. I know you are very strong. I know you give your all. I donât know, I worry about you a little bit friend. Stay solid. Very good your sobriety seems fine. Thatâs big. Happy Christmas. Hugs and love.
Sounds good Mike. Makes me glad. Hope your day is good friend.
Have a great day everyone stay focused we can all enjoy a great day. We make today what we want of it no matter what is thrown are way.
Checking in on day 349.
Iâve got some cravings.
Like: âhey letâs go out and buy a few bottles of something and have ourselfs a real merry christmasâ
âCome on just for the holidayâs?â
Hate it when I feel like this. The christmas season usualy amplifies my drinking. Been like that for years.
On one side Iâm thinking like: okay just 1 bottle of your favorite spiritâŚ
Thatâs a scary feelingâŚ
Day 193 clean and sober today. I think I mightâve pushed myself a little too much doing the planks and push ups. I was up so many times last night trying to get comfortable. Even tried sleeping in the recliner. My kidney that I got operated on is hurting quite a bit and thereâs a pain that goes from my kidney down through the inside of my leg. Going to take it easy today. I want to get back in shape so bad but I donât want to hurt myself lol. Have a great day everyone, love you guys! 
Good to hear, Mike.
And I bet that you didnât stop right after holidays last year for no reason⌠if youâre 15 days away from your first year it means that last time you drank was during holiday I guess ? Damn I know this is rough right? Every time I fell for Christmas time on December 15th. Now just at December 22th it is still a fight. Coping with a lot of ice-cream 
All year around we get tested with the associations weâve made with a lot of things, and I guess now itâs the test of holiday, which is hard for a lot of people. This is like the final round of your first year fighting sobriety. Round 12. You can do it.
So awesome to see, Sarah. Happy for you.
Well done on 30 days! A lot of new people here post once and you never hear from them again. Glad to see you sticking around and staying sober.
Keep it up. 