I fell asleep before checking in last night. Right now I’m at 25 days and 10 hrs. I’m finally starting to get some good sleep. I had a pretty vivid drinking dream last night but whatever, my brain can fuck off with that right now, I’m too happy not drinking! @Mno really said something that hit me " Thinking about living life. And taking action." I’ve always thought about stuff to do with my life but was always too drunk or hungover to do it, but not now. That’s the best feeling. I’m being productive.
I hope everyone is having a safe and sober Christmas eve. In a way I’m just trying to treat it like any other day, in the fact that just bc its Christmas eve doesn’t mean I should be drinking to celebrate.
Your one year is coming up!!! I just wanted to say thank you for always being a guiding light on here. Your words of encouragement and constant support to not only me but so many people is so needed and so wonderful. You’re the type of guy who’s energy fills the room when you walk in it-very special. I truly hope you have a safe, healthy and happy holiday, my friend.
I work on the Las Vegas strip its 7 am in the morning and everyone are starting to party already I see it every day but it seems different and difficult right now for me I think because I’m used to racing to get home to drink and enjoy a 3 day weekend ugh struggling today, and I just started my Route. I’m/we going to succeed I just need to clear my mind put my Airbuds on and focus.
This holiday is stirs up mixed feelings. So much history, both good and quite bad and a flood of emotions that it’s difficult to stay grounded in the now. Alcohol isn’t the main culprit, we just have lots of unresolved stuff and poor people skills, lol.
So far I’ve had nice time visiting my folks (a calculated risk). The more I’m able to put the past behind me, forgive and accept my parents and sister as they are, the better I manage this Holiday season.
Right now I’m planning to raide a chocolate stash while dad’s snoring with the dog. Telly is showing our national naked hippos.
Merry Christmas to you too Olivia
Learning to forgive and forget is a great gift to yourself. So proud of you to read that this morning. It’s a pleasure knowing you on my journey. Have a wonderful Christmas.
It always help me to think about what I’m grateful for now that I’m sober. I got so much now. Writing it down is a great tool. A nice long. Really long, hot relaxing shower was a great tool for me as well. I use to do that when I first started my journey around 5 pm when it was usually my drinking time. Then a wine glass with unlimited refills of my favorite LaCroix Pamplemousse.
Well my first two trips to Vegas were for partying my ass off, it’s Disney land for the alcoholics lol… my third time there i spent sneaking into bathroom stalls to drink my beers… it was my wife’s 40th birthday, she doesn’t drink hardly at all (maybe 4 or 5 drinks a year). Thankfully we were only there one night and headed to Cali for the rest of the trip where i snuck my beers in bathrooms the whole trip… nothing like chugging a beer next to a guy shitting right? Just remember why you stopped, don’t ever forget it. Enjoy your long weekend my friend.
Day 178.
Sobriety’s okay, but I’m having a massive relapse in maturity.
It’s Christmas Eve! And the Santa Norad Tracker (way better than the AM/FM radio version when I was a kid) shows he’s just left Thailand!
Okay, I have a shitheap of adult things to get on with today, but in keeping with this temporary slip in age-appropriate behaviour, you can expect my post tonight (Christmas Eve!) to reflect a rather hyper, jacked-up-on-sugar version of me. Don’t ask me why - it’s just how I woke up.
Ever the 8 year old, but thankfully, sober.
Have a beautiful day, dear friends.
I love this! If I can still feel those little butterflies about Christmas time with this heart of a child of mine, then I think I’m doing something right. Keep that magic alive! It helps with getting through the shitheaps, haha! Love it.
I just wanted to say thank you for always being a guiding light on here. Your words of encouragement and constant support to not only me but so many people is so needed and so wonderful. You’re the type of guy who’s energy fills the room when you walk in it-very special. I truly hope you have a safe, healthy and happy holiday, my friend.
