Checking in daily to maintain focus #24

Checking in, day 6.

Finished reading official text of AA’s “big book” - 164 pages.
Next I’ll read stories, which are part of this book.

I hope everyone’s good in first day of 2021 :pray:

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Checking in, day 57. I feel like shit, I can be taken down so easily, I’ so far away from being well. I force myself to connect, although I desire to isolate so much. But at least I’m sober.

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Morning, all. Happy New Year!!! Checking in sober, Day 360. It was so strange doing my morning readings in Daily Reflections and Twenty-Four Hours a Day and and being back on Jan 1 - seeing what I highlighted and the notes I made a year ago. What a difference a year makes!!

Love this Sanskrit proverb from the foreword of 24 Hours:

 For yesterday is but a dream, 
 And tomorrow is only a vision,
 But today, well lived,
 Makes every yesterday a dream of happiness
 And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
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Happy New Year All!!! Checking in with 1095 days sober from drugs and alcohol and 684 days since I quit smoking​:heart: thank you TS and everyone on it for your wisdom these past three years. Today is also a Day 1 for me as 2021 will be the year where I start to address my unhealthy tendencies toward emotional eating. I’ve been reading an reflecting, but as of this today, it goes on my “day tracker” and is official. Looking forward to another great year with you all :pray:t2:

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Day 837
Happy New Year TS people!! :heart:
Picture from a walk I made this morning in the cold.


Eating all the sweets I can find right now, tomorrow is my day one of healthy eating :grin: Promiss! :sweat_smile:

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Checking in on day 201, happy new year everyone!

Thanks to everyone for the congrats on my not-so-much-of-a-milestone milestone yesterday. Have a great one guys!

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Happy New Year Paul!! I missed your post earlier because your avatar changed. When I first came to the forum, I got in this stupid habit of looking at avatars and not names. :joy: :heart:

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so do I, thought of you earlier bc I won’t be doing my nightly journal. new year new start. You are about the only person who read it every day anyway :joy:, well pressed like :+1:

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You better keep checking in here then so I can keep tabs on you. lol

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433 days. New years eve came and left with zero temptation. It was a great night with my family, playing games and being crazy. Happy new years all!

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Day 333 me and the girls were sleeping by 10. Woke up this morning did a 5 mile jog, lifted some weights. I love seeing all the ppl complaining about 2020 on FB saying it was a shitty year and how 2021 is gonna be their year. News flash nothing is gonna change unless u change, magic isn’t just gonna happen and 2021 is gonna be better. Honestly for me 2020 didn’t even suck, it taught me how to be strong, humble and grateful… I’ll make 2021 the best I can, I’m sober so everyday and every year sober is great

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Amen to that, people have to be willing to put in the work. I’m excited for my first full calendar year sober.

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I got too many sweets to finish here today. Maybe Monday for me. But I hear ya :chocolate_bar::pie:

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Happy New Year everyone!!! Day 203 clean and sober today. Is that right @Piglet??? I haven’t checked in in a couple days, haven’t been feeling that great. I hope everyone is doing well I love you guys!!! :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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Sitting in my living room roommate brings a girl home he knows from somewhere, details aren’t important.

Introduces her first thing she says to me, oh your a cop, I’m like ehh no. Well you look like a cop, and I know what they look like…

Ehh paranoid much?

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Day 49! Happy New Year all!

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Day 161!! Woo hoo!! We made it!! Great job everyone!! We had a great night. We lit off some fire works. The kids were beyond thrilled and I was in bed by 11.
It was my New Years Resolution to quit drinking last year and it took me 5 whole days to finally stop. I still failed 7 times in 2020… but I finally learned that I am an alcoholic. I also learned that there is always an EXCUSE laying around of why you should drink. I personally hate excuses, my mom always had one for everything growing up and I dont want to be like that. My last relapse was so bad that its burned into my memory and I know I can never drink again. Alcohol is not for me and thats okay. I dont miss it. I learned a lot in 2020. I am so beyond proud of everyone here! Thanks for letting me be a part of your journey.
I was doing yoga on the beach and drinking water yesterday and it felt way better than booze ever will. And no hangover today!! :tada::tada:


The last sunset of 2020…
@Tomek Hang in there. Yes. At least you are sober. Take it one day at a time. I was feeling really shitty for 4 days straight in paradise and then I woke up feeling better. Sometimes you have to hold on tight and get through the yucky stuff and then BAM good days start coming your way… I promise. :star:
@Lisa07 Happy New Year. Thats so sad about your dad… boy would he be proud of you and your 470 days!! :heart::heart:

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218.5… I have to say how proud I am of my older daughter. She posted an Instagram story saying yeah, 2020 was hard, but here’s some good things that have happened. It was a little photo journal of the good things from this past year. As for my younger one, ugh. We’ve had a great visit for the most part, but my existence just thoroughly annoys her and she can be so mean and disrespectful. I get she’s a teenager, but damn. She goes back to daddy today. Sometimes divorce doesn’t suck when your kids are being assholes :joy: We can take breaks.

Last night my ex-husband sent me a video of the song “Hate Me” by Blue October. For some reason it hit me pretty hard. I’m not a crier, but those puppies welled up. Anyway, I replied with “ I’ll never hate you. But if it’s better for you that I leave you alone, I will. This hit me some kind of way and pretty powerfully. All I want is for you is to be happy.” And then let it go. I recovered quickly and went about my night. I woke up to a text from him saying he’s not good. I get whiplash from his mixed messages. I can’t stand to see him suffer, but at the same time this dude literally gave me brain damage, back, and chest injuries that are permanent. At the end of the day, I can’t wave a magic wand and fix him. I’m only human, I care, but I feel fully detached. I don’t know that he even wants to be better. I don’t know, just babbling now.

Happy New Year everyone! :partying_face::star2::partying_face:

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@DanielleRose congrats on your soberversary :tada:
@SteppingStones congrats on your week :tada:

Happy New Year everyone :partying_face:

144 days no alcohol.
112 days no cocaine.

I went to sleep at 7:30pm last night feeling quite sad to be alone. NYE used to be my favourite celebration, but things have changed. I live in a city centre so at midnight I was awoken by a major influx of colourful explosions, the cats were terrified bless them but it was nice to see, from a safe distance.

I spent today at my dad’s with step family, my dad noticed I wasn’t feeling good so I explained the depression had stepped up and that I put it down to the housing situation not going well, but didn’t dwell on it. Dinner was good, though I had to stand my ground around the wine again, it’s felt good to say no and also not to want any. We played trivial pursuit afterwards which was quite fun. I drove home as it was getting dark, due to my visual issues, but overall a happier day.

I think I’m going to start a 2021 journal, even if all I can write each day are things that I’m grateful for. I have a nice new one that I bought a while back but never started so there’s no excuse.

I hope 2021 treats us all kindly :pray:t2:Wishing you all health, joy, strength, and sobriety :revolving_hearts::hugs:

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