Lol!!! What a great idea!!!
@Kellyaheim once said “shopping spreeeee!!” instead of “anxietyyyyyy”. It kinda stuck with me lol
So I took myself shopping today and got something small for the house and got my puppies all a new bone. It was a great day!!!
New candle sticks and candles for the mantle 
Looks beautiful! 
Thank you 
Day 352 is almost in the books here. It was a good day. Prayers, daily readings and gratitude in the morning. Throw in some talking with family and friends. Watched some sports in the afternoon. Go Bills. Mix in some laughs and some music and food. Then I went and unlocked the church for my home NA group where we handed out keytag for Day one of sobriety and all the way to two years. It was a great time. Really loving my Sundays lately. Got some struggles too and they are being dealt with.
Today I am winning and it’s a nice feeling.
God bless you all. 
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P.s. Did you hear the news, your funny and fantastic and full of potential. I believe in you. ya you!!
Day 37. My check in tonight is just a hi and bye. I’m so tired! Heading to bed 
@Lisa07 that is horrible news, I’m so sorry for the loss. Hopefully it will create positive change in your husband that you mentioned.
41 down. Week long intensive training starts tomorrow. Just trying to get up early & stay focused. Hard to jump right until that after “entertaining” over the last two weeks.
Here’s to a good sober night everyone 
I was in a sour mood most of the day. Kind of pissed off at the world, or more accurately, the people in my world. I hate this feeling.
There’s a lot of things we think are in our hands, but they aren’t; we have less control than we think. I don’t know how many times I need to hear that, at least once more.
Every minute you spend your life angry, you lose exaclty 60 seconds of happiness.
Still sober for day #834
Day 10. I have been such a slug today and I don’t feel a bit bad about it.
Checking in after work on day 50. No meeting tonight so will have to look for an online meeting this evening. Hope everyone is well.
Day 187.
I’ve read all this stuff about drinking dreams but haven’t had any. Until last night. I was in an unappealing beer-tent-ish environment, but it could have just as easily been post-road race. Middle of the day. I took a big sip out of cheapo plastic cup (yuck), and once I realized it was alcohol, I said “oh fuck”. But what was so disturbing in the dream and even now was my mind, telling me if I have to reset I should just finish the glass. Grrrr. Is it my subconscious trying to look for ways to sneak me a drink? To be followed by the inevitable others? Grrrrr…
If nothing else, I had such a crushing feeling with that sip – nothing close to satisfaction. So at least I can take that away.
I also doubled down on TS today which helped. So many new faces and so much enthusiasm! Hard not to feel bolstered and buoyed up by it all.
We won again today, and we have another in us tomorrow – I feel it.
G’night all – big love. 
EDIT: Day 188. Oops! 
Thanks Menno. I am feeling quite proud of the 15 days. As for the bug pic - I was under the impression that it was prettier than my face
Hi again Jen.
That first week can be pretty tough with thoughts of drinking. With teenagers you probably don’t have the time I have available to sit peacefully each morning with coffee and devotionals and checking in here. And like I mentioned doing a gratitude list. I hope you can find some time during the day for that. Also another thing that help me was to mix up my routine. Instead of having cocktails at 5, I would take a really long hot relaxing showers at 5. I always had my wine glass filled with good sparkling LaCroix. Lots of sparkling water. Maybe sleep on the other side of the bed. Drive a different car if you got more than one. Mix things up confuse your brain. It will get easier. And I did a lot of power walking with my ear buds in listening to my music. That first week can be tough and you’re already half way through it. 
Just think of it as one day at a time. Just don’t drink today. And if you got the urge check in here first.
Good morning TS. Checking in day 6 alcohol free. Will be at work for 12 hours, then I plan easy 5 km run, hot shower, reading…
Have a nice day everyone!
Day 22 for me its 12 am cant sleep so just checking in extra early probably get up and head off to work soon.
171.06 Days
Happy 2021 
I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 127
My back (and about everything else) hurts because I slept on the floor in the boys room tonight. Actually it was on some blankets at the floor but it was still a bad idea. Since tweenie came and started roaming around the house at night our 10 y/o have almost stopped sleeping and refuses to sleep in his own room. I always sits with them until they fall asleep. But last night’s it has taken him until 02.00 to fall asleep, just to wake up around 04.00 again because he is worried. And with school starting next week I wanted to make him feel safe enough to sleep in his own bed. With our extra bed taken by the 18 y/o boyfriend I made a bed with some blankets. A bad idea now in the morning but with barley no sleep for weeks it seemed like a bright idea at 00.30 this night
I also had a long discussion with my husband about tweenie this morning, and had him call the social service to ask for support on how to handle everything. He is about to give up before he even tried for real. Her mother gave up long ago, and the social service wanted to move her immediately, to another youth care facility. I’m probably crazy because I was the one who said No and asked for behavior therapy help instead. I know they can offer that because our now 18 y/o got it when she was younger. Her diagnosis makes it hard to express feelings and put words on them. And it helps her a lot even to this day, and even if we received that help years ago.
Social services said that they’ll open a case immediately and make sure we got all help they can offer asap. But that we also need to be prepared that she might have to move again. The social worker kinda stamped her as a hopeless case. I know I’m lost in what to do, about to give up, and about to have her and my husband out of the house. But having the society to give up before they even tried it all, calling a kid a hopeless case doesn’t feel fair at all. None of this is. It isn’t fair of her to behave the way she does, it ain’t fair to my boys to keep her here and it’s definitely not fair that the parents has given up already either. If I was lost before, I’m even more lost now.
I just hope they can help in any way.
And that we can all get some much needed sleep very soon.
I has started to snow here too. Just a tiny little bit, not enough to bring any brightness or for it to lay down on the ground. But just enough to keep it all even more gray and dark. I miss the sun. And I’m about to bring my Pink spring closet back next week. It’s still going to be way to cold to actually wear any of it, except for probably the Pink adidas hoodie, but I desperately need some brightness now. And a few prairie dresses a la Dr Quinn or little house on the praire. I heard a rumor about Top Shop having some just like Nordstrom, and they all ship to Sweden.
There’s probably a few pink ones as well. Gotta love the Cottagecore trend.
Happy Monday, and happy week everyone. 
Day 336. What’s up everyone, I really don’t feel like im much of a asset to this forum anymore. Even tho Im trying to remove these deffects I still have this big selfish and self centeredness about me. I use to be so good at going around and trying to help new comers and give advice and now I just never know what to say, I really do miss that pink cloud man lol. I’m proud I’m sober, but sometimes idk if I like who I’m becoming. I just seriously hope my higher power is aligning me in the right path and I’m becoming who I need to be, I hope this is all gods will and not mine. It’s hard to tell who’s will it is
