This is terrible, I’m so sorry to hear about that. I can’t say I recognize his name which makes me feel embarrassed since I consider myself a music lover.
I can sympathize with the feeling though; a few years ago the lead singer of one of my favorite bands (We Came as Romans) died from a heroin overdose just a few months after I saw them live for the second time. So sad.
Edit: I just saw your post in the metal thread and I didn’t realize he was in Children of Bodom. Now I absolutely know who he is, just didn’t remember his name. I love their music.
Metal is pretty much all I listen too, although I’ve been into metalcore a lot recently. I edited my original post after I saw you posted the Children of Bodom video in the metal thread but I think I did it after you responded lol
Yeah those are some huge names. I’ll listen to some of his stuff today.
I hear you about getting up for work. SO and I actually went to the gym at 6am. Had to do something to kickstart my butt after 2.5 weeks off. Have a great day! I like your gratitude list.
@fury deleted or inactivated my account. at least for a little. will see what it brings me. thanks for giving me the last push to give it a try.
had a peacefull day…
teaching like this feels bit sad. especially the orange warning poles… omg… (even budha turned its back on the covid ways . but at least we can still offer classes.
On my way biking to the studio I ran into my moms best friend who she shared names with. Biking back on exactly the same spot the doctor that euthanised my mom…
No need t look for trauma therapy… god gives it on a silver platter whenever you are ready.
So no I am on a stike. I refuse to face my past and stay in bed until I want to move again instead of run from anything.
Checking in real quick before I do my yoga/meditation/ journaling. The sweets are a bit tricky with still having some Christmas candy around so I had to reset my timer last night (I didn’t binge, just had one of the super tiny bite size pieces) and told the husband he better finish it before I throw it out
Very impressive numbers. In a way I think it’s kind of cool. Maybe amazing that you get to look through those 3 beers all the time to get to the greater good of 1400 days. I’m glad your here being an inspiration to all of us.
Congratulations on 60 days Tomek. That’s great. Really happy for you. I was pretty pretty proud of myself when I got my 2 months. I hope you’re feeling it.
@anon60334405 @Tomek
As others have encouraged you.
Let me just say you/we have no idea who we have help by just being here. I don’t know how many people are on TS but if, by you being here, you helped just one person or a thousand. It doesn’t really matter. The harsh reality is people die from addiction. Maybe y’all saved someone’s life today by just being here. It’s fucking possible. Maybe you gave someone hope to live another day. I’m freaking amazed at the number of people that just read all the shit we post and they never post. And that’s ok too. Hell that’s great!!!
We take what we want. And leave the rest. And participate when willing.
Those 3 beers may have technically been a relapse, but they don’t negate all of the work I did before that.
I think it is important to remember that each day sober is a reason to celebrate, and I’ve got a lot of reasons to celebrate.
@Tomek Congratulations on 60 days. You have been feeling the feelings and still kicking ass. I see you & I’m proud of you. @RosaCanDo Hope you and Chucho can have a relaxing, restful day. Hugs girl @MrsOdh Hugs girl. I must commend you on your strength and your compassion. Pursuing options for tweenie while protecting your boys shows me an amazing woman and going through all this sober is inspiring. @anon60334405 Your shares, good times and bad times, are an asset to me. Your presence here is appreciated and I thank you.
202 days. When it came time for bed last night I was suddenly wide awake. Ended up going to bed before 3 and then up at 9. I’m trying to will the phone to ring as I’m expecting a call about the job I had the 2nd interview for last week. He said to call him if I haven’t heard from him but I can’t do that until at least tomorrow lol. I have been stuck in an odd place as I’m trying to not allow my happiness to rely on outside factors yet feeling like engaging in a career is my ticket out of my funk. Previously I also struggled when I didn’t get jobs I interviewed for. Somehow I allowed the outcome to reflect my personal value. I no longer feel this way and know if I’m not the successful candidate I am still a great person. I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t feel somewhat defeated and deflated though. I despise the not knowing so hurry up and ring phone.
@Misokatsu, @Mno, @Tomek, @RosaCanDo, @Nordique, @Squirt thanks guys I appreciate and @Squirt I forgot to answer you yesterday I had a picture and a plan for my tattoo but I kind of am not sure if it’s what I want now lol.
The one year mark is difficult for almost everyone. I’m sure many of the people here can attest to the time leading up to a year as being a strange time.
You are doing so amazing, dont let this weirdness distract or discourage you from all the awesome things you have done, and will continue to do.
Also, if you feel like you aren’t being helpful, remember that even your hard days are showing the newly sober that we can get through the difficult stuff. Not every day in sobriety is sunshine and rainbows and unicorns, and we shouldn’t act like it is.
Day 11. Not much to report. It’s Monday and I would much rather be at home or at the gym than at work. Another day another dollar. Probably gonna hit the gym after work. It is a big help with distracting me from cravings. Enjoy the rest of your day all.
We can be hard on ourselves, or we can choose to be kind to ourselves.
Did I beat myself up a bit after I drank them? Yes. But, I didn’t fall into a hole and was pretty easily able to dust myself off and get back to what I was doing. I didn’t stew on it and throw up my hands in defeat. And that is a huge win.
Celebrate the victories. Recognize, accept, and push past the losses.
That’s what I had to keep telling my son. He got his year. He fell off hard and managed to get his ass, on his own, back to a his rehab for a 2 week refresher.
Now he’s got 5 and a half years sober + 1. Miracles do happen.
. but at least we can still offer classes.
that you get to look through those 3 beers all the time to get to the greater good of 1400 days. I’m glad your here being an inspiration to all of us.
