Oh no the red cones and Buddha ! 
Day 11. I feel like utter shit. I am heading to the chiro at 2:30p. I have no choice. I canāt sleep. I canāt think. I canāt meditate. I can barely stretch, though I will say what I did do this morning alleviated some of the pressure. I am moving around like an old lady . The pain radiates from the tip of my head to the points of my toes.
Sober. I better get it taken care of. School is back in session on the 11th. Final for my Bachelorās. I am rethinking the MBA in lieu of going into further into holistic health.
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Day four. First day back to āvirtual learningā which is a joke in my district. Kids get a weekās worth of assignments and have a few google meets for questions. Two teenagers with advanced classes makes for a very rough time. This mama know NOTHING of what theyāre doing and theyāre stressed out and depressed. Which in turn, comes at me, the yelling, the screaming, and our son has anger issues were trying to control, but doors are slamming and shit is flying. 
Husband went back to work today after a good long time off, so that definitely isnāt helping much. And heās gone for 72 hours. Canāt bug him while at work with this crap. I donāt know how to make these kids do āschoolā nor can I figure out how to have them stop lashing out at me and making me feel even more terrible. Wishing it was 5 oāclockā¦ Yet canāt drink when it is. Normally, I would be counting the hours until that sip. Now, Iām just mad at absolutely everything!
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@Monica.C Welcome and congrats on 2 days 
@Kmills888 Congrats on your week
@Lisa07 Sorry for your loss 
Really pleased for your daughter though 
@EarnIt congrats on double digits
@Dee134 congrats on 50 days
@Tomek congrats on 60 days sending strength
@CapriciousCapricorn thanks for sharing that, I love it
147 no alcohol
115 no cocaine.
Having a fibro pain flare up today, even the PF is acting up despite not walking for weeks, but in 10 days time I have the video call appt with the Podiatrist, I canāt wait. Bladder operation first on the 12th. Until then Iām just going to be reading, meditating, and watching action movies. Feeling really calm about everything today. Hoping to hear from the job I applied for and the council this week 
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Yikes. Feel better. And you could always do one of those intensive executive MBA programs at some point down the line if it would help in your potential new path. Intense but accommodating. Sorry, unsolicited advice, but I wish I had done that instead of a traditional masters program.
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That really sounds rough. That sucks. My sister has 3 kids sounds like about the same ages, and she tells me how COVID is totally fucking things up. And even worse some of her kids friends are even afraid to just go outside now. My kids are all grown up. But I never really think about the kids since Iām not around kids.
I wish I had more advice than looking forward to a really long really hot relaxing shower at 5 pm instead of that sip. And then the nice cooling refreshing glass of sparkling water I use to fill my wine glass with.
Oh and 
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- Itās been a productive day. All unpacking and laundry is done from our trip. Ive packed up all of our Christmas decorations- just need to put them up in our attic. Iām so stinkinā tired and just realized I worked 84 hours last week
Ugh. Is it bedtime yet?
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Good to see ya sober!!!
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I am probably only thinking that way because I feel so physically bad. Iād be concentrating in Conflict management, so it would be beneficial, not matter what. I will never be an employee again. Vendor? Sure. Employee - nope to the no. I like to own my time.
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Makes sense. And you donāt have to think about it now. Are you getting to the chiro soon?
thank you
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An hour. Generally, when I have let it get this bad, it takes at least 3 visits to feel much better. Though, also because itās so bad, I might feel a great relief quickly.
Sending good vibes. 
day 35ā¦ Woke up to another rainy summers day. A cyclone hit our northern states so the weather here is crazy atm. I feel good today. Thereās not much I need to do today. I will go for my walk. I will do a work out. I will read. I will do some house work. A nice calm day
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Day 147 checking in. I am absolutely exhausted and I donāt know why. I just want to crawl in bed and sleep for a week and a half. Bleh. Maybe itās the cold, dark northern winter. 
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Checking in on day #41. Pretty good day. My oldest started back to virtual learning after being off for Christmas break. It felt good for our normal routine to be back. Iām not going to work until Wednesday so Iām just taking it easy and catching up on things here and there. I feel like if I overload myself with too long of a to do list today I may end up relapsing so Iām just not gonna do that. Iām starting to notice what really triggers me and what to do to stop it from even happening. Iām a work in progress but Iām sober and staying that way. Hope everyone is having a wonderful Monday.
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Checking in for the Evening
I have a Covid 19 Test coming up in 40 minutes
I set up an appointment fingers crossed 
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Thank you!!!
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My thoughts are with everyone thatās in London. I just seen on our news that you guys are going back into hard lockdown again 
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