Well at least you got a choice now, itās more than you had whilst drinking. 
For sure. I just thought it was hilarious
I say this,
Well similar to this all the time
Your posts are so helpful to me, lovely Rosa. It doesnāt matter to me that itās a dog and not a parent, or that the timelines may be different (Chuchoās vs my Momās decline). I have a dog and they are family.
Iāve run from grief before. It catches up. This time - with a pile of support - Iām trying to do it differently. Is there actually a greater testament of our love for them, than to bear witness to their transition and companion them on their journey for as long as we can? I donāt think so. To be utterly present to it, to attend it, and to be wholeheartedly open to what we are feeling instead of closing to it (through any number of means).
Youāre steps ahead of me on this path with Chucho, showing me how to do this. I draw strength and courage from you daily, and send you love and light and enormous hugs in return. 
EDIT: Iām so glad he ate lots of steak! And when I said you were steps ahead, itās not because of Chuchoās state. Itās because youāre dealing with all this change, all this stuff, in a way that is a gift to me. thank you.
Checking in January 9th 2021
Feeling great today was a blessing to make my wifey feel better about putting her pomeranian down a month ago i decided for our anniversary i would give 2k for a new pomeranian puppy to add to our family 
i also let my current boss know this will be my last week working for him and i will be on to a better company to achieve all my goals in life . Things are looking bright im also proud ive lost 16 pounds and im discplined in my eating i have no urge to use whatsoever ! LETS GOOO!!!
Congrats on your 5 months Fleur. Awesome job
Doing dinner with friends,
Apparently I didnāt have a choice
aināt she sumthinā else? @Misokatsu you are killing it. Not āeven onā but especially on those days when life serves up all of those things we used to use to justify the odd drink here and there, or more aptly - everywhere! 
Yeah, @Squirt iām thinking this definitely calls for another drive-by parade! Bus this time you said? 
Congrats Olivia - 100 days wooooooooooooah!
Hey there @Moonshadow
I hope youāre still out there. I been thinking of your post all day and @Tommo Tomās post to you. Iāve been wanting to weigh in but Iāve been learning to put the phone down sometimes and I been thinking about it all day. I think as we all know Tom makes a point. A really good point that we all know the decision to drink lies in our hands.
Iāve been drinking heavily since November 8 2016. For 3 years because what has been going on in our country. I feel what we are going through is traumatic. Frankly Iām sick and tired of hearing about both sides. Whatās happening is pure evil and I havenāt been able to understand it at all. Iāve lost good friends over this and even some great friends over whatās happening to our country. Itās not political differences. No it is not!! Itās good vs evil. I might be risking a flag here but this is how I feel. And itās really hard to deal with it all. And for three years drinking everyday felt good. Really good. But the country was still fucked. I finally just got tired of drinking to feel good. The headaches the hangovers. Repeat every day. Iām just saying whatās happening in USA is very traumatic for me. And your feelings are legit.
Well I been sober a year now and whatās happening to our country sucks even more!!! Itās unbelievable. But Iām glad I stopped drinking. Unfortunately I wish I didnāt wait til I was 60 do to this.
Keep checking in. Your worth it. There is no such thing as failure if you keep trying.
Tom. Your post really help me a lot. After a year I think I been looking too hard for my reason for drinking for 45 years. I think I learned today it was just a stress coping mechanism.
I do wish I started my sober journey sooner. But frankly I donāt think I would have succeed. I know I wouldnāt have succeeded.
Stick around Moonshadow if your willing. We are all just trying to do our best.
Day 3. Doing and feeling good. Keeping busy is my saviour, Iāve been cleaning and organizing my house like mad and it feels good. I used to be a line and buffet cook and Iām realizing that I really miss that chaos. It kept me sane. 12 hour days, breakfast lunch or dinner rushes, hauling around heavy produce boxes, cleaning and organizing, I loved it. I stopped because there is a lot about the industry that doesnāt sit right with me. The food waste, and feeding people really unhealthy food where big issues. I ran away to environmental school which is definitely more morally sound but I have to admit, I miss that chaos.
Vision board: organic farm to table business where I can run around in a kitchen and a garden. Feeding people good food, professionally prepared. Iām surrounded by an awesome team and every night Iām tired when my head hits the pillow. Yeah
Checking in Day 43. Itās definitely getting easier fighting the urges. Iām learning what emotions 
typically send my thoughts towards wanting a drink, and working through them instead of working through a 12 pack 
. The weather still sucks, cold & rainy, so Iām going to make us hot chocolate and sāmores, then call it an early night. Take care all & God bless
If you feel a cheat day coming,
Filomena in Georgetown, take the Mrs. On a nice date when they open dine in.
Omg dude it is fire. Highly recommend. Bring your wallet, and maybe a 2nd credit card though its expensive
Great job CONGRATS on the new puppy and new job
Fatheadās getting a sister!! So cool 
Great job on the weight loss. And good luck with the new job.
Great job Juniper on your 3 days. I thrived on the Chaos out in the front of the house as a full time manager/waiter in a 24 hour Deli. It was always Showtime especially when the downtown bars closed. The bar use to be my reward. I kinda miss that chaos too. But the booze and drugs were killing me.
What youāre doing now sounds pretty cool. I wish I had made a change like that.
Keep coming back.
Your worth it.
Thanks for the heads up ! Definitly when they open things up ill be sure to check them out Goergetown was also the spot where they shot the movie THE EXCORCIST 
i always love passing the steps .
Thank you i appreciate it 
I appreciate you @Dazercat
Means alot yess !! Fatheads been feeling down this might just be what she needs