Happy with myself ??? No of course not. I basically hate myself, I can’t stand seeing myself in the mirror, I’m disappointed to wake up every morning.
I lost my chances to be happy a long time ago, and I’m already almost 32 years after my “best-before date”.
900??? Just…WOW…and FANTASTIC! You inspire!
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475??!! OUTSTANDING and CONGRATULATIONS!!
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What is your job?
You (fortunately) probably don’t quite get what I mean about the whole “best-before date” thing…
I had hoped to die by the age of 25, and I f****d that up too.
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Checking in. Day 9. Feeling good. Making a point to get out and walk in nature every day with my family. Going crazy with this “grey lockdown” we have going on in our province in Ontario. I miss my friends. I miss the kids being in school. I miss thrift shopping. I miss my cleaning job. Trying to stay positive. Realize that my drinking was not normal drinking. Hard to get it through my mind that I won’t be able to “return” to that someday. I obviously need to do some actual work with my sobriety rather than just not drink, so I don’t convince myself it’s ok to start again eventually.
Anyways, today is another day, and it’s a sober one. 
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self-employed translator / interpreter
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None of them good…
Why I live somewhere were its cold and the sun is just now making itself known is a bit wild to me… but damn my cat looks cute in the window!
Checking in before heading to work, wishing everyone a awesome sober day!
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I’m so happy and grateful. My head is above the water… and I know how to keep it that way.
Surviving all my battles has made me a stronger woman. Life is a journey and now that I can see the blessings in my life, can’t wait to see what God has planned for me.
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@Briella congratulations !!! I hope to reach at least this amount of days.
Day 7 sober here
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You are in demand, lol. I know how many times working more helped me stay busy so I wouldnt let my mind start thinking… I have a thinking problem. I would love to see you take some time for yourself. Just a little… I dont want you getting burned out.
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I’m all right, I had a couple of days off in March.
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I love your kitty kitty. Give em luvs for me. " pretty kitty"
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OMG girl, damn 
Here’s what really stood out to me… You were 100% equipped to handle the situation because you are sober. What a shit show if not, right? You are so right, sobriety isn’t magic that makes the world around us better, it just makes us better to deal with the world around us appropriately.
Congrats on your raise and bonus! I know you’ve been working your ass for it. Well deserved. Reflecting on the past year of work, you really did amazing with setting boundaries and all the good stuff. You know your worth and so does your boss. Congrats 
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Hi I can totally understand how you feel. It’s can be overwhelmingand hard to be positive and optimistic about yourself when you feel low. Can you try baby steps? Just like recovery. Pick on thing you like about yourself when you look in the mirror - the smallest thing even. Such as you like the shape of your eyes, or the color of your eyes, you like how warm water feels on your back, or you like your elbows… anything and just give yourself that one small thing to be positive, allow yourself to just give the smallest bit and build from there. I’m sure there are so many aspects of you that are truly brilliant - you just need time to focus and see them from the clouds.
Thanks, but for me to find one small thing that I LIKE about myself, I would have to stop HATING everything about myself… and there isn’t much likelihood of that happening at any point in the future.
Have you tried to combine work and travel for e.g.? I know it’s not the best idea now, but sooner or later pandemic will be over and the borders will reopen.
I’m also freelancer and once moved to Italy for a month. I worked the whole time, so I didn’t have to reject any of my clients, but I was in a different environment, was getting to know a new language, stepped out of comfort zone, because it was a tiny little village and noone spoke English and travelled a bit in the country. There were days when the only time I had for myself was the walk to the grocery, but still it was different than the walk I usually took at home. Living in a different house also had it’s excitement.
We rented the house via airbnb and got a 50% discount due to long-term rent. In many countries they give quite a huge discount if you rent it for a month or more. I don’t know how will it look like after the pandemic though.
So it was a great adventure even so that I had to work. I know there’s no possibility doing so during the first half of this year, but it may be a good plan for later. You can choose from many countries, the only thing you need is a good internet access. If you can take a break in your interpreter tasks and keep the translations maybe it’s worth a try.
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Yay @ProofOfLife! I love your messages, they give me such a deep appreciation for all of our journeys, with a flare of happiness♥️
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Yes, that’s about the only way that I go anyplace, really. I bring her work with me, work part of the day and then either go scuba diving or (when in Japan), I take language lessons.
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