Tennessee 
Ow Sophia. Positive vibes and thoughts towards Tennessee tonight.
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Day 423. I have been feeling asthmatic and just got new inhaler. Hope it works. Ugh. Breathing is important.
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Day 137: Fighting some darkness. And some urges to drink more than I’ve felt in a while. Not gonna. It’s enticing to consider not feeling anything, but like my mom reminds me a lot, we feel so much with these big hearts of ours. When you love big you can hurt big, too. And we honor our lost loved ones by feeling the loss and remembering them. I’m realizing that when I knew my husband and my pup were doing okay that I could really grieve my loss. That, and realizing that the trauma of his passing is real and I’ll have to deal with it somehow. It’s been a shitty week for me, but I am feeling ready to not be moping so much. I know depression and I know it’s possible to get active through it, even if it’s hard. Sorry, I might be rambling a bit.
Sending love out to you. 
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Day 454… it’s a blah day, tired but alive and sober so it’s a win.
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I’ve been sober for one whole week!
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Love and hugs to you friend. You’re dealing with this. Thanks for being here with us.
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Goodnight everyone
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Wow I’m sorry to hear this, it’s sad news indeed let’s hope she has a speedy recovery,!
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Seems like an important point and realisation Jenna. Get your rest. Stay sober and clean. Addiction calls us when we’re most vulnerable. Hugs and love friend.
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Thank you!
I understand the feeling of romanticizing your a few days behind me, my therapist calls it the 7 month itch. It’s been hitting me hard too.
I catch myself planning how I’m gonna sneak away just for a taste, yet I luckily reel myself back in long before I start going down that path,
I hope you find the answers to redirect your path, I been pushing mine, and keeping it going
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And in Todays episode of ‘Lisa’s life’…
Honestly girl you just can’t make this shit up. After the money incident I’m not convinced you didn’t have something to do with the ladder but we’ll find that out in a later episode. 
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Happy, Sober , calm, determined 
Thanks @MagicILY I will check out the book. I’ve actually found books or short films on communication and relationships super helpful (I had my doubts before) but my partner and I have both used school of life resources before and find them great - i don’t know if you use them? Anything by Alain de Botton or Esther Perel is great too! Her book mating in captivity gave some good ideas into relationships and communication.
Yeah thanks - we actually did the same thing as you guys - and talked about how we could better communicate and support eachother. It was clear we both felt isolated in our respective worlds (and separate households) and so we said to talk tomorrow.
How are you and you guys this week? Film reco::: I just watched baby teeth and had a Vietnamese takeaway and oh my word, the film made me feel a sense of escapism and emotion that I usually use alcohol to feel. Was great to realise that I can get it better and more lucid in sobriety, through art. Man when art comes back it’ll be easy for the sober crew! 
When you say your partner doesn’t always show support for your work endeavours, do you feel like it says more about their feelings about themselves? I sometimes try to particularise whether my partner is uninterested or just doesn’t have the vocabulary to ask (that’s not to doubt his intelligence at all, but maybe that we all have different languages etc) when actually he just wants me to be happy and I know that. He’d rather I say “yeah my day was good” than “yes, x and y is the complexity and I had to solve…(I perceive the latter to be showing care, that he is intellectually interested) but ACTUALLY maybe I just feel I need to intellectually prove something to him? Or discuss it with my colleagues? The issue with lockdown is our partner is expected to be so much when usually friends or colleagues might offer us a variety of ears/opinions etc. Know what I mean? Definitely rambling. I’m also interested in how your sobriety journey affected by times your relationship goes through difficult stages? I’m okay at the moment, not craving it even if things are emotionally tricky but I’m wondering down the line if that gets easier or harder? I suppose it just becomes habit to put somethinf else in place instead of red wine! (Even the emoji makes me miss it 
it was definitely my most used emoji in my messages… now it’s NOT on most popular anymore! 
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Happy Friday / day 22? Never thought I’d be losing count… need to get into feb to make sure that I don’t stumble on the end of dry jan hurdle… that others could convince me to do!
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I swear I had nothing to do with the ladder @Dolse71. If I was there, I would have waited for him to get onto the roof so I could push him off. 
That’s how mad I was. It’s a new day so all is good now but I’m stuck listening to him moan and groan.
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I lived this life so much when drinking. All week- I woke up early, workout, work, study, second job, study, taught yoga class, back home and the drinking stopped for the week and then BLEW up when I needed to escape and “deserve it”. I think you need a release sometimes, don’t ever use exercise as a punishment and only if you enjoy it as I know that somehow turned me to the bottle badly. And just making sure I relax now is super important for my sobriety. I’m still a busy person and I like my hobbies and work but I think it is important to just go STOP. What is it all for? I need to just enjoy right now and relax. You deserve that. X
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do you have witnesses??
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Nope!! No witnesses.
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