my case still stands 
which is more than what the ladder is doing.
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oh little Micheal, if only he knew 
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LOVE IT!!! Congratulations 
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41 days today no drinking. Feeling great. Just smoked my last cigarette an hour ago. I’m done. Going to think of it as being in labor. The pangs will come and I will invite them and ride the wave. It feels so surreal. Like I’m in a dream for actually doing this!! Amazing. 20+ year smoker. Never attempted to quit. Ready to be a non smoker
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Luckily there just voices! You still own the actions! And you rocked it tonight, good job!
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Great job on no drinking for 41 days. I’m sure yiull feel better after you quit smoking. I used to smoke and chew tobacco gave them both up along with the drinking.
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Checking in early today. Was a rough last couple of days but I have been powering through and trying to stay positive. It paid off today. The new bike I ordered wasn’t supposed to get here until July but it showed up today! So excited!!! It did kind of sucks that all the local trails are iced over right now. I tried to ride anyways but after falling twice I had to turn back lol. Still so excited and can’t wait for better weather. Hope everyone is having a great day!!
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Day 118. It rained all day. Everything ran late today, but I was at least calmer about things today. My knee hurts less, which is good. My arm is still a mess from the dog bite, but I’m thankful for the cooler weather so I can wear long sleeves and no one but Max and I have to see that bruised, scabby mess.
Tomorrow I’m going to see if I can find a new (used) car. I want to get all of this settled so I can move forward and start saving money again.
The depression has been deep and wide in me this week, but I’ve managed to slog through. This weekend I intend to just give myself some time to rest and meditate and stretch and see if I can wade out of this.
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@CapriciousCapricorn… You awe me everytime you post. Your stories inspires me and I never knew that coming here would make me so proud of complete strangers. I hope your classes are going well…so proud!!!
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do re mi Lol congrats
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Today was actually a very good day. Today I was clean and sober! Work went well. Fimancially things are pretty shitty bcuz we spent alot of our $ the other night. But we had a gift card for this beautiful Italian Restaurant… so we picked up some food for supper (a 10oz steak, breaded calamari, lemon tiger prawns, a seafood pasta dish with mussels, shrimp, and calamari, bruschetta, and veg)… very tasty. Then did some cleaning around the apartment and then off to have a hot shower. Hope you all have a wonderful night too hugs
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- Checking in. Not in the best headspace currently. Slept like GARBAGE today and working tonight at my second job. Once my time is up at my second job I’m going to day shift. It’s mentally and physically EXHAUSTING. I’m over it
Almost to 30 days- I still can’t believe it 
Hope everyone has an awesome/sober Friday. xoxo
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Day 56 check in! It’s been a good week. Saw my sisters, launched a new podcast, lots of exercise, and so much good food. Feeling grateful, and two months with no alcohol is just around the corner.
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62 behind me. Not facing cravings or struggling alcohol-wise at all really (besides my very odd experience yesterday of smelling it even though it’s not in my house). Bouts of depression persist. Need help, but struggling to find a provider. I’ll try again next week. Life is good for the most part, but I find myself in deep pits when I’m alone or at night. I hate to say this, but I actually had suicidal thoughts last night. I asked myself, “what good would that do?” Obviously the answer is no good at all. I know it’s not an answer, certainly not something I even want to do, and yet the ideas just float around in there. Ugh. Having great victory in sobriety, but facing the emotions and realities of life is profoundly difficult.
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I’m almost to 70 days without a cigarette, and am at 29 days without porn/masturbation. I’m not so foolish as to think this cannot be compromised; therefore, I am grateful for the work that I have done up to this point, and the graces my HP has given me. This really is incredible.
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Nice job @ICanAndWill. way to stay strong to your commitments…and how are you feeling from being sick?
Night time is the worst, however if I knock on wood…I think I may be on the mend! knock, knock
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Glad ur here hugs Ur post is actually helping me out❣
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My heart goes out to you and your friends family. Through prayer nothing is impossible. Praying for her and wishing her a full recovery. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Day 344~ Hot damn there’s just been so much going on I’m exhausted thinking about it. We had my father in laws retirement dinner tonight. My sister in law used to be the girl I’d party with and drink with. She’s still in that space. It was a little strange being around her I got to admit. Seeing her like that made me realize how freakin far I have come. I feel; no actually I am a completely different person now. I’m living a life I thought was so far loss I never thought I would feel alive again. Enjoying that dinner tonight with my family sober and present was special. I just sat there for a minute and thought to myself I’m so lucky to be here making a memory with my loved ones. My mother in law and her mom of course both bitched and complained the entire time but I didn’t give a shit those two old hens weren’t ruining my moment. Other people’s emotions and actions will no longer control mine. I choose peace and happiness. That’s what I want and that’s what being sober gives me. I’m blessed.
Keep fighting. Life is good. 
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