Good to see you man.
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well, thank you for saying that, but nothing that I write is of any merit or worth, in my opinion.
it’s usually all just depressing, and it often makes me feel worse than usual for having burdened other people with my insignificant concerns
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I hate it too, Ryan. I’ve had a few ups and downs these last 48 hours… I’ve been making more of a conscious effort to keep my spiritual connection strong… not as easy as it sounds. I actually am still in my pajamas at almost 2pm and thats ok, im not drinking… Im shooting for comfortable, lol.
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Yeah I had another hiccup yesterday… ill pm you.
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Pming my address. 50 should do it
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Like it. Especially for the patient part. I am still working on that. After 815 days. Let it come, slowly, soon, now. No, I am already more patient as well. But deep down inside I also learn to accept that I will always be on the less patient side of life. 
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This pretty much sums it up - at least for me. Thank you for these powerful words, a reminder of where I’ve been and where I wish (and work) to never return. 
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checking in sober & tired. the combination of full moon, uterus party vulgo menstruation cramps, hormon rollercoaster, dull paperwork and massive appetite for fresh sushi (veeery helpful in hard lockdown 
) is just crap. what a blessing I’m sober. otherwise I would have freaked out today 
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I’m twelve days sober!
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Well of course not lol <3
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Checking in . Day 26. Never thought I’d do a dry jan. nervous for my birthday and it’s three months away! Sending love and light to you all - two days until the weekend and full relaxation. Anyone else giving up coffee too? I’m finding my anxiety pretty high so i might switch to decaf for a bit - any anecdotal tips on this? Would love to meet some of you on a zoom this weekend! Xx
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Goodnight everyone
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It’s super hard but I’m getting better with it. We can only work on it and improve. 
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For me it takes a while for me to love myself. I felt I deserved a life of chaos because I was born into that life a raging alcoholic for a mother oh was in and out of treatment. Never knowing my real dad being the product of a love child. Harrassed by the men oh lived with my mom and to young to fight back I figured hey this is my destiny so i played it out over and over again abandoning in real solutions for a normal life. BUT GOD had a different plan. Slowly I began to learn I had value, I was loved that I needed to start over with my inner self knowing that I am not who myself says I am. Slowly I started treating me better which in return people noticed I was changing also and than I started to treat them differently also. With love and kindness, respectfully, it happened to me and I believe it can to you also. My story maybe it will help you!
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Day 221
I got my psych appointment in, she couldn’t fathom my medication schedule, like wht I was taking night meds, throughout the day?
Completely scrapped my previous regiment and is starting fresh, same meds 2 new ones to try.
Might move in a week here, closer to work. Less traffic less bullshit, will save me more money.
Feeling cautiously optimistic
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- Had a headache right behind my eyes all day and it made me want to escape a little. Feeling a little distant from my HP during meditation today. Going to journal and hit the pillow early. I think I need to do the work to seek out a new sponsor as well.
Hope everyone has a good evening!
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Day 123. A big day. I got to pick up my new car after work today. I’m glad to be out of the work truck, but also feel so fortunate that I was able to get around after the accident without too much trouble. The best part is that Max and I can go back to the dog park now, which I think we’ve both been missing.
The sun came out this afternoon, which was a nice break after so many days in a row. As we head into February, sunny days are few and far between, so it’s always worth it to get outside and stick my face toward the sun.
I know most of us on the thread are struggling with different things right now, but I’m glad we’re all here struggling together and sober. Here in the depths of winter, I hope we can all find some bright moments, some peaceful times that feel like a few moments with our faces in the sun.
Good night, my fellow soberians!
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