I can relate - it’s almost 3:30 am and I’m still working.
I enjoy reading your check-ins. I hope you’ll find some peace and quite after these eventful weeks.
And btw congrats to your blog, I like it a lot!
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Thank you and enjoy the puppy snuggles, you deserve it!
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72 days no alcohol. My mind started playing tricks on me when my favorite pizza place announced they were having $1 beers. Like…serious?? I’m honestly surprised this stupid thing made me crave… but I didn’t give in to temptation.
I just thought I was stronger than that by now. Proof this struggle is going to come and go and it is something that I can’t ever sleep on.
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I felt that before when my beer was on sale at cvs, lol
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How long have you been sober, Freckles? I have found that as time has gone by, I have had a lot more energy and much more motivation to do things. That may be because my sleep is much better, so it has given me more energy over time. It may be that my systems function a bit better without the poison in them. It may be that the repairs that my system was constantly trying to make to itself are now being allowed to happen. Who knows?!
What I’m saying is, hang in there. You will have more energy and be more inclined to do the things that you want to do as long as you stay sober.
I honestly thought that my general lethargy was because of my age - but with only one month without alcohol, I’ve had a new lease of life. Even my wife has noticed the difference. 
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I appreciate the vulnerability and honesty you showed us describing the voice of feeling like a failure. But I hope you also know that voice is wrong. You are going through a big transformation and the growth that comes with that can bring challenges. You are not a failure. Just take things one step at a time. And I think you’re on to something by shifting your focus to progress rather than perfection. As it’s said, “perfect is the enemy of the good.” Sometimes that progress does not look like how we think it will.
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Day 67. It was a successful day and I continue to feel steady. Onward to the next one!
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Congratulations Mike on your first year and many more to come…you inspire me what you have done this past year. keep up the good fight 
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While I might be late to the party…I’ll say these anyway.
@kaeo amazing! Congrats…so great to have been here for your journey…
@siand congrats on quadruple digits! Your insight and compassion always blow me away. Now more than ever, it is so helpful hearing your words. Sending you love 
@anon60334405 congrats on a year! That’s huge. Your yo eat attitude and candor are always welcomed. Thank you for being here.
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Day 860 something… it really doesn’t matter at this point. I’m completely overwhelmed at work, I’m 4 months behind and no way to catch up. Home life is frustrating and overwhelming. Makes me want to give up, on everything.
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Checking in. Day 397.
Had a good day sober. Got my 3 and half mile walk in after walking the dogs for 45 minutes. It’s great the roads are clear and I can get my walks in again.
When I was drinking, I was living an unnatural life physically and mentally. I was punishing my body by loading it with poison. I was ruining myself physically and mentally.
Fuck that shit 
Sober on.
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“At least you’re not on fire”
Credit to one of you old timers on here. I don’t remember who.
And you’re sober.
So you’ll figure it out right?
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Sorry you’re struggling, D. I know all of those feelings intimately. Hang tight and hug that little peanut of yours extra hard tomorrow.
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- It felt like a productive day at work followed by a decent evening. My son made me a necklace. It was Taco Tuesday. The train was rolling.
And then a dog turd on top. 
I’d liken it to a kid with covid sneezing on the Bavarian chocolate cake I worked pretty hard on. Time to call the sponsor. Being that I’m three weeks clean probably means I had some stupid part to play in it. 
Oh well, I can’t change it but I can bake another fuckin cake.
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Big congratulations @anon60334405. You are open and we can see how hard you work on your sobriety and how much you deserve this.
@Dejavu Don’t give up. You got this. Put out the biggest fire first.
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Hey there…I’m sorry to hear that you’re overwhelmed. While I do understand that desire to escape when life gets stressful…I also know that the kind of escaping we do when we drink/use etc. is the kind that at the best, takes us out of the seat of control and leaves us incapable of dealing with our lives and at worst…could kill us.
Is there a healthy way for you to de stress? Hot bubble bath? A good tv show? A favorite meal you could cook? Conversation with a great friend?
Then you can revisit work stuff with a rested and fresh brain?
Work does not deserve to derail your life…your life is worth more than that
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what time zone you in, is it 6 yet?
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I’m glad you wrote this bc it was going to be my reply and the fact you put meditation in there tells me your making all the right moves, it’s early in your recovery so take things easy, your a beautiful person who is learning to heal on the inside, over time our minds find peace and only then will everything else fall into place.
To be a failure is to quit at the first sign of trouble never to try again, I don’t see this in you so no you can’t be a failure.
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Mike’s in upstate New York. 4:33 am there atm.
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wake him up 
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