Coming for you Conor!
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Day 434
Nice @Mnoā¦ Always have a pleasure reading your commentsā¦
Your humbleness and confidentiality at the same time its upliftingā¦ .
I wish u all a blessed day
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Thanks Ramon. Always nice to see you. Congrats on 434 days, thatās just great friend!
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Congratulations 
I have really struggled today. The sun is shining (trigger 1), Iām off work tomorrow (trigger 2), I havenāt had a drink for 5 weeks, so my mind is telling me that Iām obviously not that bad after all (3), I am having a roast with my family (4), and Iām tired after staying up way too late last night (5).
Itās only 4:50pm. Long way to go. Hopefully Iām over the worst.
A big part of not drinking was knowing that Iād have to come on here and fess up. Thank you, all. I will be very grateful in the morning.
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Whatever happens it sounds like a change is on the cards. Good for you for going for it! 
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You struggled but youāre here. Sober. So thatās great! Keep in contact here. It has helped me too in the same way it does you. Enjoy the roast. No drinking. When tempted, come here instead. Weāll talk you out of it.
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Bravo @CATMANCAM, @icebear and @Misokatsu on 180 days, keep on trucking peeps.
Blessings and sobriety!
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Thanks, man (u). A look from my eldest daughter when I mentioned my craving at lunch did the trick. Sheās the main reason Iām trying to get on top of it and sheās inspired me again today. Iāve also taken a B50 tablet, which has started to work its magic, and drank about a gallon of water.
I really appreciate your response. As I mentioned earlier, this place really helps. I need to get better at responding to people in the same way - but whenever I try to offer support, it just sounds a bit shit. Fortunately other people are better at it than me.
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@icebear Sorry I forgot you! Huge congrats on 180 days of freedom!
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Thanks, Menno. Knowing that youāre all here really helps.
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Had a bit of a twinge yesterday, in a group chat one of my best friends who is going through a lot made a comment about alcohol and cigarettes getting her through it. A bit of a joke but Iām sure not entirely untrue.
Just for a moment I missed being in that club. That quickly gave way to gratitude for sobriety and for the friendships that were built on getting wasted but have continued even though thatās not in my life anymore.
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Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 161
Another day I actually doubt if I should get out of bed at all. But I did, healthy oatmeal cookies, coffee and gummibears for breakfast. Gotta keep that balance 
and I neither had gluten-free bread or anything like that at home,so it had to do. Kids got a normal breakfast so I had to sneak a little with mine. They all got a cookie for dessert.
Now I need to conquer the big deal of putting myself into a shower, I planned to do that a few hours ago. But when tweenie heard that she locked herself in the bathroom and havenāt been out yet. So I guess I have to wait. Meanwhile Iām reading more Southern Lady Magazines longing back to the south. And tries to make a plan to create the lifestyle I want for real.
Iām so tired of being stuck in this loop, the idea of dealing with the social service for several more meetings and a home visit makes me sick of anxiety.
My husband talked with tweenie about the fact that sheās going to have to talk to the social service and she said āI knew from day 1 that you couldnāt make it, no one can, I make sure of itā
To bad she doesnāt care that sheās ruining peoples lifes. And that itās not all about her. I still got two boys, who feels ill from anxiety and nervousness doesnāt dare to go upstairs and play with their toys. Doesnāt dare to be close to tweenie because she has thrown thing right past them. And neither eats or sleeps.
I tried, but Iām positive I canāt do this anymore. Itās going to destroy me, and probably the boys too. Never have Iāve been this close to thinking and even make a real plan of just running away from home, and never come back. Or to actually end it all so I donāt have to feel like this.
Hope your Sunday is better than mine. Big hugs to all of you for being here 
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Went to bed early last night. There was too much shit going on around me and it brought me down. I survived it but didnāt like it. Today is a new day though.
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Hang in there Sophia. And make sure to ask for help for yourself, not just for tweenie or your kids or whoever, get help just for you, if you continue to feel like this. Because what your thinking is not the solution. Itās an escape. I know how you feel. Hang in there and get the help for tweenie you all need too. But please think of yourself too friend. Big big hugs.
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Checking in on day 238. Hope everyone is having a good one so far!
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@littlemisschatterbox congrats on 500+ days
@Dazercat congrats on 400+ days doesnāt seem a minute since we were congratulating you on your year! 
@anon51903143 congrats on 70 days
@FindingJesse congrats on 3 weeks
@I.cant.We.can massive respect for you, I hope you get a little more time for yourself today 
@MagicILY congrats on 70 days
@RyanSA sending strength
@AdvntrLane congrats on 30 days
@icebear congrats on 180 days
@Misokatsu congrats on 180 days
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