Checking in at the end of day 39.
Had a bit of a tricky one today. My wife, who is a ‘normal’ drinker, but who is supporting me by not drinking at the moment, made it pretty clear that she is not planning to give up drinking forever and seemed fairly keen on a drink today. We got through the day without a drink, but it has given me something to think about going forward. For now though, ODAAT.
Have a great day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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919 days alcohol free. Happy thursday
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4 months is huge, well done mate 
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Late check in for me on day 242.
Super busy today but hopefully I’ll have time to catch up with everyone’s posts later, have a great one everybody 
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3 days is great 
many don’t ever get this far so well done and easy does it.
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I never got round to giving you a big thumbs up yesterday for your 400, I know we don’t live in the past but on this occasion tough shit,
@marcusmaximus2000
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I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of such a young life. Sending love 
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Sorry to hear this trucker. I can imagine the pain your feeling. Sending you strength and support. Hang in there. 
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Damn brother I’m sorry. Reach out if you need an ear
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I’m not sure about the medication or any of that stuff because i don’t have experience with it. I do have a smart watch though that vibrates on my wrist when my phone alarm is ringing. Have you tried anything like that? Putting an alarm clock across the room so you have to get out of bed is another option maybe?
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That’s so sad… I’m sorry. Sorry for your friends, sorry that you had to feel like that for so long. Hugs
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@RosaCanDo I need to take inspiration from this as I need a big sort out before I finally get moved! I hope the mattress helps you sleep more comfortably 
@anon27700620 this is so great to read about a good dive, massive belated congrats on 6 months+
@Alynn361 & @Briella It’s great you both came back here, congrats for the honesty, together we’re stronger, stay with us
@Truckinmonster21 congrats on 800+ days
@trose1995 Sending strength 
@416mrj congrats on your week
@I.cant.We.can none of the CBD oil I’ve tried in the past for pain relief/anxiety had any kind of smell, and it doesn’t contain thc so doesn’t cause a high, but I’m in the UK so it may be different where you are. I lost my Mum when I was 8 and I too struggle with abandonment issues so just wanted to send some solidarity I’m so glad you’re back in your own bed 
@Ark welcome back and congrats on 2 days
@RyanSA congrats on 40 days I bet your sisters are so grateful for your sobriety
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I can totally relate. I try to keep my temper but it’s getting harder and harder, with being opening pushed away each single week.
At the moment I do my 108 surya namaskar as often as possible. I only have to focus on the move and most importantly on counting. Today my mind went off and miscounted 
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Day 83. I’ve thought about drinking constantly for three days now… is this the wall? I was feeling so strong and happy and motivated and now all the sudden I feel like I’m crawling out of my skin and I can’t stop thinking about drinking. I thought I had this, but maybe I’m needing a little more help than I first realized. Therapy’s not until Monday, it’s going to be a long weekend.
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Checking in on day 398.
Did a 10 hour shift today at work (6am to 4pm) I’m pretty tired right now haha.
But I’m sober!!
And thank you to all how reacted to my post yesterday. I was able to calm down a bit and had a great nights sleep! So today I felt less overwhelmed and frustrated. Didn’t even have that many cravings.
1 more workday till the weekend!
Have a great one guys!
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Oh Stella, I’m truly sorry for your loss. I just can’t imagine one committing suicide at such a tender age. He must have been really hurting and tormented , God receive his soul. He’s at peace now.
Blessings and sobriety!
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thanks for the solidarity shout out. God bless you
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@marcusmaximus2000 congrats on 400 days
@Eleven17 congrats on 2 weeks
@Mrlove1972 wow, powerful share, so glad you’re okay congrats on 11 days
@Clarity congrats on 200 days Quiet is a great book. Solidarity from a fellow socially anxious person and introvert 
@RosaCanDo I hope the Drs appointment went well, I know you’ve waited a long time to finally get one
@Carmen welcome and congrats on 2 days and already practicing saying ‘no’
@dalex77 congrats on 4 months+
@Milele that’s really big, I hope it went well for you
@JoMarch congrats on 60 days sorry about your brother, I hope he finds his way out too
@Private50 congrats on 60+ days
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I feel for you Trucker J, sorry for your situation. Sometimes things happen fir a reason, you might be sad today but in the long run it could be a blessing. The most important thing is for you is to stay sober.
Blessings and sobriety!
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@anon60334405 sorry you’re struggling with fatigue, I’m not working at the moment but between 2014 and 2020 I struggled just like this, I even used to try going to sleep as soon as I got home from work at 6pm and still sometimes didn’t make it in til after 11am. I hope it works out for you I really do, maybe speak to your doctor, there might be something else going on that needs checking out? For me it was Depression and Fibromyalgia. once I got on the right strength and combination of meds and my depression lifted a lot, the fatigue improved massively.
@Truckinmonster21 I’m so sorry to hear this sad news, sending strength I admire your positivity!
@Rockstar24777 Glad you got through your procedure and are taking it easy, prayers for a better recovery this time round
@mejorando congrats on your week
@CapriciousCapricorn I’m so sorry to hear about your friend’s son, may he be at peace now I really relate to how you describe feeling for most of your life, thanks for sharing and doing your best to help your daughter through tough times
@Jamie3 stay strong, I really struggled around this time too, but there was relief after the 90 day mark, milestones can big really tough but worth pushing through, every time
185 days no alcohol.
5 months today no cocaine
Just caught up on 350 posts, ran out of.likes around 70 posts ago, sorry.
I didn’t get the job I interviewed for yesterday, it went to a guy who has 25 years experience in drug and alcohol services. However, their feedback was very complimentary and they think I would be very well suited to a role that will soon be available as part of a brand new service for mental health as a whole, including substance misuse, that covers young people and adults, so I am just really hoping they follow through on this offer and contact me in the near future about it
I’ve been out for a 30 mins walk the last 2 days and it’s felt really good mentally as it always does, it’s so bloody cold though! Looking forward to Spring soon 
and Ice blocks on my feet to help with the pain feels good afterwards.
DBT tomorrow morning. Part of me always dreads it, I guess that’s the social anxiety aspect. Nevertheless, I’ll be there and I’ll get through it and participate as best as I can.
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