Thank you guys @RosaCanDo @MagicMama @CATMANCAM !! And everyone else.
I can tell you that it went well! I was the last to share my story, so that made me a bit nervous, but it went really well actually. Now I have a next gig coming up in March, unless I get one before it. It’s for a virtual fair with different organisations. So looking forward to that!
Oh man, I’m so sorry your going through this! It’s really heartbreaking 
Sending prayers 
Thanks everybody for the good vibes and well wishes. My appointment went GREAT! I feel very grateful to have found (through a personal reference) a considerate, kind, and knowledgeable
doctor and have gotten my health journey under way in earnest. Did blood work today and am already seeing results, see areas that need work and will be formulating a plan. Got referrals to an orthopedic surgeon and a physical therapist to discuss my joint issues and shoulder pain, and found out a lump on my wrist is a relatively normal thing, a Ganglion cyst that the ortho doc will take a look at for me. Starting some meds and have a follow up in two weeks. Phew! The weight is lifting off my shoulders. I have my recovery to thank for being in this position to be working on my physical wellness.
Holding you in my thoughts, dear lady. No sense can be made of the senseless. So sorry to have another bright young person lost to this disease.
@Truckinmonster21 Damn J. Very sorry. Hang in there and hang with us. Don’t try to do this alone. You know drugs and booze don’t help right.
@CapriciousCapricorn So sorry for that Stella. Life is fragile yes. And suicide is incomprehensible. I’m glad you’re holding on to your own friend. hugs.
@Jamie stay strong Jamie. Drinking is not going to solve anything. Quite the opposite. Can you think of anything that could have changed that make you feel like you do? A case of HALT maybe? Something else? Hang in there friend. Thinking of you.
Thank you everyone it means the world to me right now 
im all smiles and feel goods when i read all the suppourt it makes me feel like im not alone 
Well, here we go again. This is just weird 
@anon60334405 Wow, this is a tough one. Hopefully your job can work with you and I would definitely consult your doctor. Each state is different, but typically employers who have 15 or more employees are usually required to provide reasonable accommodations for an employee with a disability. If a reasonable accommodation has been made, but the job can still not be performed as outlined in the job description, then that’s where a problem may ensue. Then you have the “at will” work states. A whole other story there. So, that’s my long way of saying that I think you have an opportunity to come up with a plan with your employers help. A note from your doctor and a discussion about your schedule might be all it takes. I also think on top of meds, we just get a better quality of sleep and it’s harder to wake from that. I have a feeling they will be willing to work with you. Still check in with your doc. I changed the time of day I take my meds and it helped a little 
@Truckinmonster21 So sorry to hear about your relationship. Quite a few of us have been through it lately and it’s hard. You’ll have good and bad days. We’ll be here for both. Unfortunately, good old fashioned time is what it takes. You seem really focused on the positive now, which is great. Remember to be kind to yourself and cut yourself some slack on the hard days. It’s a process.
@CapriciousCapricorn Oh Stella, I’m really sorry to hear this. How heart wrenching. Something a parent and loved ones should never have to go through. I think we’re all going to hug our kids a little tighter tonight. Sending you love and hugs from the other side of the continent 
Hi thanks for reaching out. I’ve been listening to recovery podcasts none stop trying to pull myself out of this funk. I tried my first recovery meeting online Monday and really liked it. I was planning to just attend that one again this Monday, but now I’m thinking maybe I need to start looking around and see if I can find one to attend this weekend.
Goodnight everyone.
Lots of driving today, as I went on a bus tour to Luxor, to see the Palace of Karnak, the big temple built by the female Pharaoh Hatshepsut, and then the valley of the Kings. It was pretty damn hot, but obviously well worth it.
Tomorrow will be my last day of diving, and then another Covid test to see if I can go home ! My GoPro has failed completely, so no diving videos, unfortunately, though I have taken some nice video of various spots in Egypt.
So as I said, goodnight everyone.
This is very interesting to me. I’m one day behind you and I’ve had it on my mind more than usual as well. In fact, last night I had my first dream about it and wrestled through the night with cravings. But I know this … wrestling with staying away from it is SO MUCH BETTER than giving in and wishing I hadn’t. Right now, neither of us have guilt, or shame, or hangover fog. Let’s keep it that way! 
@Jamie3 also… you’re both about to hit a bigger milestone, i always struggled around milestones. Hang in there it’ll pass.
@Jamie3. We don’t ever have this, when you’re least expecting it this shit can pop up. Stay vigilant, stay connected.
Checking in Tonight Feb 11 2021
Leave tonight to team drive with onother driver were going to leave Virginia hit New Jersey , Ohio , Maryland in 3 days hope this takes my mind of everything thats going on right now Lets Goooo !!!
Thanks ! It should be a nice break
My next wake up will mark 131 days! Feeling good and wish everyone a good night.
Crazy 8’s congratulations man
So sorry to hear this Stella. Got no words. Glad you shared. Prayers all around. It’s just so horrible.
Checking in sober. Not been on here since my two sips topic. Thanks for all support on here. Staying sober each day since, considering what I want, and talking to a therapist about it on Saturday. Looking forward to waking up sober on sat morn. The week days sober are helpful but the weekends sober are just dreamy 
liking waking up feels so essential to enjoying ones day, week and existence tbh!
Checking in! New to the is venue and excited to share my experience, strength and hope. Had a great day today woke up and and walked for 40 minutes before I went into the office! Worked a full day and came home to my beautiful children and dinner ! Life is better sober.image|230x500
