Wow! Congratulations!!
Checking in againā¦ still feeling āoffā. Finished work and Iām now heading home. Have a plan in place for what Iām going to do once home to keep me busy. Thinking of HALT right nowā¦ I am hungry and lonely (sort of)ā¦ so that could be why I have thoughts of using. Wish I had some Epsom salts for a nice bath tonight. Will check in later on. Hope everyone is doing well in their sobriety right now 
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Thank you !!
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Glad the flight made it home! Thanks for taking us on your trip with you!
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Thank you everyoneā¦day 12 nowā¦thank you for all your supportā¦your all amazing 
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Thought Iād stop by for a check in.
410 days off the sauce.
Weigh in day was great 
no gain no loss. Iām maintaining my goal weight even though I caught myself binging over the weekend. I guess it wasnāt so bad. And I recognize what I got to work on. Got my workout in.
Pretty fucking boring sober stuff. So I got that going for me.
Every day of sobriety is like compound interest for your life.
And your worth it 
Every One Of You
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So I need to vent and let some shit out. Faith had texted me that she was having an emotional meltdown and asked if we could talk. Against my better judgement I agreed to meet for coffee. Turns out sheās emotionally breaking down over the fact that sheās drinking again and is having hard times with the guy sheās with. That fucking crushed me to hear because I thought she was working on herself. Anyway Iām feeling like the biggest piece of shit one more time. Iām not going to get loaded but this hurts like a mother fucker and I canāt shake the feeling of not being good enough for her at all. I canāt do this anymore and I donāt know what to do.
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If you ever catch yourself thinking you miss the old friends or thinking they maybe changed or are better is some wayā¦ Just run, I really made a mistake going around these guys. Iām good nothing triggering, just see how much of piece of shits they are.
I went to work on the girls sled, itās at my buddies, none of them have helped me offered any sort of advice. They just leave me there, which is also find Iām not expecting help, but one my friend pat keeps saying, jees or spending alot of time on this, heās literally getting a kick and blast out of seeing me fail. Iām not failing tho, heās just blind and doesnāt see how determined I am. Failing would not be trying at all. Then they went to the store quick I asked them to pick me something up. My buddy ernie asked pat, pat said no he can go get it hisself. Its just funny, pat sits there and says I havenāt changed a bitā¦ Iām just SOBER. Fucker everything has changed, Iām a beast now who cares about his two beautiful girls and Is doing everything in his power to put a smile on there face. Iāve changed so much and Iām the best fucking person compared to who I use to fucking be. Iām gonna fuck with the sled for a lil bit longer tomorrow as his place. After that Iām loading it up and bringing it home.
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Thereās nothing but truth in that statement, Mike. Donāt let them get to you. Your family, yourself and all of us know youāre not that old Mike anymore. Youāre an amazing son, father and friend!! Your friends are all jealous of the person youāve become while theyāre stuck in their old ways. Get your sled out of there as soon as you can. Much love to you!!
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Rob, sheās obviously trying to make you jealous by coming to you with issues sheās having with another guy. Donāt fall for her games. You deserve someone thatās going to love you in return the way you should be loved.
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Everyone is on their own path/journey. They donāt have anything to do with your life anymore. If anything take it as a positive experience, Mike. Youāve grown exponentially! 
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Hey Rob Iām sorry that sucks a lot. But know that you do matter and you will to someone else that is meant for you. Itās probably best to cut ties it only seems to hurt you every time. I know thatās easier said then done. Hang in there. 
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You know you donāt have shit to prove to anyone. You are a changed man for the better. Most times I think people like that are just jealous because they do see the changes. Keep your chin up!
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Block her from all avenues to reach you, Rob. That story is over. You have a lot to offer someone!
Hugs sweetie.
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Good for you Eric. Maintaining is better than a gain. Like you said you know what you need to do and working out is the most important. 
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Thank you @littlemisschatterbox I appreciate that, just sucksā¦ I canāt believe Iāve been sober for so long through as much emotional shit as I have been. Itās a fucking miracle really.
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Thanks @Lisa07 I didnāt even think about the making me jealous part. She just texted me and said she loved me but canāt be with me. I have to do whatever I have to do to get off this merry go round.
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Thanks @Dragonflygirl82, @anon79808082, @littlemisschatterbox and @CapriciousCapricorn that means a lot and youāre right. I just blocked her and Iām going to do my best to I guess not love her anymore. What a painful fucking ride for sure. Thanks for letting me vent, itās been awhile lol.
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Checking in AGAIN lol I think this is the 4th one today 
I am doing much better. I ate and I did a few things to help keep me distracted and I am still clean. I feel good. I think I just needed food and conversation with you all all your posts and comments really helped 
thank you all hugs
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