Thanks for the comments @CapriciousCapricorn
Checking in on day 189, my friends.
Checking in before bed, day 43. Was feeling very off today, very short tempered and down. Iâve managed to snap out of it for the moment. Feeling fed up with winter in Canada, and I need some sunshine. Anyways, good night all, happy sober evening!
Thanks so much
Well done on blocking her but you need to stick to your guns, the saying âinsanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different resultâ not only applies to our drinking. You may love her but if itâs toxic you need to love yourself more and move on permanently. You deserve better
Me againâŚlol! I had a better night. I took some time to myself. Made dinner for me and my kids. My brother came over to stay for the night because he has to be up to plow at our work. Itâs always nice to have time with him. Iâm going to workout in the morning and Iâm really looking forward to that.
Another day in the books @Butterflymoonwoman. Iâm so proud of you!! Youâre identifying your triggers and youâre taking action to avoid picking up. Thatâs huge progress right there. Get a good night sleep and do it all over again tomorrow. I promise it does get easier.
Thank you so much . I didnât get to go to my meeting today and get my chip because of the snow . This means a lot to me
Hey there. Been watching your posts. Keep it up. Check in as often as you need. I noticed you been doing some different things on here. Thatâs great!! Keep it up. Saw you on the gratitude thread. Some people check in there more than once a day too.
Still in my prayers.
Day 570. This is not 570 days keeping myself sober, this isnt 570 days sobriety on selfwill or self-knowledge. Its 570 days of surrendering to the program of Alcoholics Anonymous were im able to learn about what i really suffer from. Im able to be 100% honest with another human being (Sponsor) , you know bringing all those dark secrets to light, and being showed how to live by spiritual principles, and helping someone the same way Iâve been helped. Thank God for AA cause my sorry ass shouldâve been dead or in prison but im not ive been given another chance at life and i dont want to waste it.
Some hugs to pass around tonightâŚ
@Rockstar24777 , you arenât even a little bit responsible for Faithâs choices and where sheâs at. You gotta take care of you â body, mind, soul, heart. Your life depends on it, big bro. Proud of you for reaching out here. Sending you big hugs.
@anon60334405 some people only know how to make themselves feel better by trying to make others feel like less. Youâre above it. Youâre over it. Youâve outgrown them, and you can take a step back without any drama â because thatâs who you are now. And youâre amazing. That sled and your girlsâŚ
@CATMANCAM sending you some good vibes, friend. I see how much effort youâre putting in to making the life you want. I hope the clouds clear soon.
Day 231.
Not much left of it and iâm looking forward to tucking in.
Work is gonna be interesting tomorrow; thereâs some stuff going on. But I did the things I wanted to do this weekend instead of trying to drink away my angst at things I donât have control over. Focusing on what I do have control over is so much better⌠âŚnot always easier, but better by farâŚ
One more day - we did it. And we can another day tomorrow. Together.
Gânight, big love to all.
Milestones to celebrate!
@Eleven17 trifecta of good things! Happy birthday, happy 20 days, and happy new jobby job!
@trose1995 happy 90 days! Well done.
@Weldershawn7 one month! That is massive work, right there. I hope you are proud!
Some welcomes and welcome backs!
@Nwwitch and @Alpacabag â welcome back! Looking forward to sharing these days with you, one day at a time.
@Butterflymoonwoman you check in as often as you want. it never gets old to see you here! Keep reaching out - weâre here.
Checking in.
Caught a bit of the dawn chorus before the sun came up. That is the kind of noise I need filling my head in the mornings!
Talking to a friend yesterday about how awesome the recovery community is. How being part of it has given me access to this emotional honesty, and opened up all these meaningful connections and conversations.
I mentioned a recent experience, which I shared here, of not feeling like part of the club when a friend was talking about drinking after a particularly difficult day. And then the realisation that I can still connect with people who are drinking if I choose to.
How awesome it is to be sober, have access to that kind of deep and meaningful conversation, but with inhibitions in tact - no oversharing and no regrets!
- Coffee. One second shift to go, then a 5 day minivacation. Yay! Iâm not doing bad. Itâs so true how the second year of sobriety makes for much more work. Work on myself, my mental health, finding myself and reinventing myself. Reinventing relationships. Discovering new relationships. They say the second year is harder but for me on the foreground is that it is more rewarding. Going places! And though I wish it all went so much faster Iâm still moving forward. Often three steps forwards, two steps back, but still. Keep going all. Itâs so worth it. Sober and clean love from Amsterdam and the Hill Country Texas. Spare a thought for my friend Gwin over there who is dealing with single digit F temperatures for the second night without electricity in her small cabin.
PS. Anybody seen Brian @I.cant.We.can ? Miss you friend!
Day 65.
Not having too many cravings. Just on weekends, when I used to binge.
The mind is amazing, isnât it??
Busy with work for the moment so that helps.
Slowly dropping my wine weight!
Now to work on getting more sleepâŚ
I seen him a few days ago if that helps.
@Rockstar24777 You are a nice guy to agree to meet. But u guys have split, and she is obviously doing her own thing (the wrong thing, but that is her choice) so u need to keep ur boundaries.
@anon60334405 Sounds like u are seeing the situation very clearly!
Day 189
Still struggling with binging and technology use, went down a real Graham Norton Youtube wormhole while stuffing my face. I know it is better than drinking, but still really feel like there is much work to be done. I am really struggling to let go of some minor resentments, they are totally pointless as I probably never see the person again, but oooh they rankle. Gonna post on the gratitude thread and try to get a more positive mood.