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@Lisa07. @anon79808082. @Dragonflygirl82. @M-be-free49. @Misokatsu. Thanks guys, your absolutely right. I pondered on it a little more last night, I was almost thinking of messaging him this morning and explaining why working on this sled is so much more important then just buying one. But then I realized if he canāt just see that what good would explaining it do.
Yesterday, he was telling me how my buddy ernie might be coming to work in housekeeping with me, we have the same boss just different department. He was telling me how much ernie has changed, and flipped his life around. Ive seen ernie since last Tuesday when he got home and he has gotten drunk every night. He aināt changed or turned shit around, but he wants to sit there and say I havenāt changed and that Iām just SOBER. So I really do see this whole situation very clear and see exactly what pat is trying to do. Like you all have said, alot of jealousy. But yeah, Iām moving on.
Iām heading to the gym after work to lift with the one good friend Iāve been talking about, going to do some squats. My deadlifts still need alot of work, i canāt for the life of me seem to get them down. But Iāll never give up, because Iām sober and a bad ass determined mother fucker. Love yāall have a strong day
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Thank you @M-be-free49 and @Misokatsu, definitely need to pull myself back to center for sure. I feel a lot better this morning. Day 249 clean and sober today. Itās blowing my mind that the thought of drinking just came and went last night so quickly. Iām so grateful that the thought passed as quickly as it came. I sat with the painful emotions last night and just let it be (super new for me to do) and now itās a little bit easier. Had a lot of nightmares about her last night but I know thatās my subconscious working things out. I did a few cord cutting meditations last night and one this morning to release her from my life. Thank you so much for the support everyone, I hope you have a wonderful day today. Love you guys!!! 
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Aw Mike! Those guys sound terribleā¦ time for some new friends!! Maybe some that are more on your level. You are too good for them and they are obviously jealous.
That sled is the sweetest thing ever. Your girls are so lucky to have such a thoughtful, and kind daddy. Better believe they will remember that their whole lives. If your friends donāt see that, they are not friends. Just wolves in sheeps clothing.
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Checking in sober, Day 406 (today makes 58 weeks AF). Dealing with a lot of stress and frustration but dealing with it sober, simply dealing with it. Trying to focus on the positive and not dwell on other things.
In that spirit, today is PÄ
czki Day! (Thatās Mardi Gras to you not of Polish/Slovak ethnicity.) So Happy PÄ
czki Day!!!
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Quick check in. Running late today. One of my best friends is in a terribly emotionally abusive relationship. Weāve been trying to get her the strength to leave for the better part of three years. Heās such a piece of shit. Anyway, she called me in tears last night and we were on the phone until almost 2am. Then I still had to take my dog out and didnāt get to bed until close to 3am. So, here I am on about 2.5 hours of sleep.
Anyway, reason for that story is that Iāll take tired and sober over my old life any day. I had a vivid recollection of what it felt like waking up every morning with that poison still coursing through my body 
Sobriety is the bomb!!
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Hey all, checking in on day 247. Not much going on but still sober and going strong. Have a great day everyone!
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Checking in at the end of day 44.
Had a bit of a low day in work. Not sure why. Got home, ate well, drank loads of water, read a bit and allowed the B50 capsule that I took this morning to work its magic and I feel great now. Treating myself to a bit more reading and an early night.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Yay! I miss paczkis - we used to be able to find them easily where I grew up in Michigan. Deliciousā¦
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Interesting! Maybe I should celebrate, I am a 1/4 Polish! Haha I really just want to eat one of those delicious looking pastries!! Happy Paczki Day!
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Thankfully where I live in Vermont has a large Polish community nearby so I have ready access to them. One bakery has people lining up at 5 am to get them fresh baked!!
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Day 162: Using my tools to calm myself before heading to my appointment. Iām more anxious about driving there and finding the office than the actual doctor appointment! Wooosahhhhh. Iāll be fine. Still having a hard time waking up and pretty groggy from new med, so caffeine, do your job! Itās pretty remarkable how coming here to TS has become a coping skill and Iām grateful for that and for you guys. Sending loving vibes your way. As BrenĆ© Brown signs off from her podcast - stay awkward, brave and kind, folks. 
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Thanks girl I appreciate it 
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Congratulations @Olivia!!!
Day 15 sober and I suffer from the same addiction. TS is a big support for me too!!
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Day 199ā¦
Today Iām wearing a true smile because through the rough rides of life there are just moment of pure clarity and today for me has been one of those daysā¦ 199 days ago Iād of told you how Iām alone, how I fucked up my life again, how I am not worth shitā¦
You know when you have those days let me tell you they will pass and youāll see the hope that comes and goes across your recoveryā¦
I woke up today feeling loved by myself, Ive battled so much drama and shit I geniuely thought it would break meā¦ I have always had it in my head Iām a better person on the drugsā¦ Today I had clarity of look how far Iāve come and I didnāt once useā¦
My dear friends on hereā¦ Start believing in yourself, the self doubt feeds your addict mind.
If you canāt see past your day donāt worry just keep pushing throughā¦ I promise there will be better days and the struggles test you and show the strength you really are made of.
Love your imperfections 
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Nice, my familys from poland, i get those all the time, and cant forget the pierogies 
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Iām so glad youāre feeling this way Danni! Youāve fought so hard and deserve to be happy. Thank you for sharing such an inspirational post!
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