Learning to deal with emotions that we used to drown out is really hard. Donāt underestimate the impact that has.
There are always things we could do differently. Sometimes in our urge to fix we forget that itās ok to just feel. I know I do anyway. It helps me to remember that experiencing difficult feelings is part of healing too.
You can do it, you are doing it!
Checking in.
Shared this with some friends yesterday and sharing it again here. For me and anyone else that needs to hear this today!
Day 190
Sobriety is still going ok, but still struggling with binging, screen use, lack of motivation. A lot of the excuses I used to drink, i.e. ālast supperā consumption, etc, are still working for these bad habits too. And of course the negative cycle is the same too. I feel crappy, I do bad habits, I feel crappier, I do more bad habits.
Day 123 no meth. Every day I wake up feeling fine, and by evening iām a mess. I have all the red flags. I want to do something drastic like run away and go stay at my folks, go abroad, go biking for a few days, something to take me away from this. I need to release some adrenaline or go on a road trip, I know that would sort me out 
But I feel trapped by a) gov rules b) corona and c) the weatherā¦ I donāt want any of these to be an excuse to use again. Iām gonna do another 3 hour walk today, itās not enough but itās something.
this, so many excuses at the moment, I wish I could reduce my screen time also, but Iām scratching my head thinking of things to do when my motivation is low. Hold on in there - 190 is incredible.
123 is not that far behind me! The thing is I have things I could/should do, just am being rubbish.
I feel ya on the feeling trapped stuff. Three hour walk sounds amazing! I canāt wait til the puppy is big enough to go on proper walks.
Hope the sun shines for you 
Or at least that it doesnāt rain too much 
- My five day weekend is here yay! Will do some chores today. And do some homework for tomorrowās therapy group. And have a friend from high school over for dinner who I havenāt properly talked to for 40 years so thatāll be interesting. Not a great day outside (a grey one instead) so a good one for indoor activities. All sober and clean. Itās the base for a better life.
Yes we still have to do the work. And yes I still donāt fee like doing it at times. Still, taking booze and drugs out of my life makes all the other stuff possible. Iād never do it if I was still under the influence. Very grateful for my sobriety. And all of you who helped me so much making it possible. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can. Love from Amsterdam and Texas, where my friend and her cat had to flee their cabin. Powerās out, no heating, no water for 2 days now. She drove, over icy roads, to stay with friends with a generator and a fireplace. Hope things will return to normal for her soon.
Day 449.
Mostly I think about drinking much less now. Sometimes it pops up. Sometimes i catch myself rationalizing and romanticizing it. I didnāt always drink a lot. Often, it was only a couple of drinks. I could have two beers. Not always but sometimes. My drinking was more moderate more often in the last few years than when I was younger. Thatās not totally phony. But if I do, Iāll want it the next night too. Iāll be back to drinking every day and finding it unthinkable to have a night off. Today, I am not drinking. Iām glad to be here today. Stay connected everyone.
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Sporting a cold today. Afraid to go in public because if I sneeze it will cause mass hysteria 
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@Misokatsu Oh Fleur, I can wholeheartedly relate. Itās such a vicious cycle. We canāt just go without food forever, itās an addiction that we have to control. We always sound so silly when we talk about moderation with alcohol, but yet itās our only choice for food. Itās damn hard, so be kind to yourself 
Day 380. Hey everyone, so some good news that girl I was talking to finally messaged me back. With the help from a fellow ts member I was able to string up the right words and actually got her phone number and planning on a hike in the future.
I finally figured out my deadlifts, Iām setting up way to close to my bar and it was throwing everything off. So did a few sets again yesterday along with some squats and felt really good. Idk life is just beautiful man. None of this was me a year ago, it just feels amazing. So remember you are worth sobriety, you are amazing, you are healing even if you donāt feel it. You are, and youāre going to be so awesome. I love you all
Checking in on day 9. I have been trying to take a break from my phone so thatās why I have not checked in. Iām feeling good just sluggish due to terrible eating and the winter blues. I have been working on building healthy daily habits. Iām going to introduce 3 small habits a week. This week I was working on drinking water, intermittent fasting and cutting back on screen time. Iāve actually done very well with it all. I was not able to catch up on everything I missed here but I did notice some big milestones and people like me who are back yet again. No matter what day we are on I do believe that we are a brave and determined group of people. I appreciate this place so much, and all of you give me so much hope and strength through your personal journies. Much love TS friends. Have a wonderful Wednesday. 
Day 250 clean and sober today. Really had a horribly rough day yesterday but made it through with all of your help. Thank you so much for everyone who reached out to me, it made a world of difference. Have a great day today, love you guys!!! 
Day 16 sober and starting Lent with the celebration of Ash Wednesday. I believe this special time is going to be a great boost to my recovery
Checking in on day 248, nothing much to report. I hope everyone has a great one!
Checking in before work, day 45! Never thought I could get this far. Thatās all Iāve got to report today! Have a great day everyone.
Youāre making me blush!
Iām glad that girl messaged you back, keep us posted!
Day 163: Dreading scraping the ice off my car to drive a quarter mile to my physical therapy appointment. Hubby says I should just walk there, but itās still really cold out. Looking forward to learning what I can do to help my shoulder, finally! I will try anything at this point. Feeling more and more secure in sobriety because Iām working my recovery plan, not just avoiding booze. Hubby was complaining about having to pee so often at night and I told him if he laid off the beer before bed he probably wouldnāt have that problem. He usually has a couple around dinner time, but theyāre high ABV. He said, āGood point.ā Iād prefer if he didnāt drink during the week, as the smell of it turns my stomach, especially smelling it on him. If he ever wants to be intimate with me during the week then he cuts down his chances drinking before bed! Maybe thatās what I should tell himā¦
Sending loving sober energy to the TS sphere today 